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desire for cock and ball loosing since i was a little boy

Posted: Sat Nov 07, 2009 6:18 am
by halfcock (imported)
so fare back i can think - i was fascinated by the imagine to loose my balls or cock and i made first hard handlings with my little sextools.

and i was very unsure about this and had problemes in my brain, because i thought that i would be a crazy boy with such crazy desires and fantasies!

iwas very amazed and feeled a great lust in me, when i cut little parts off away from my long foreskin, because it was a bit narrow. to cut off a piece of my horny sex meat - was wonderfull, exciting. in a age of 12-14 years!!!!!

With 20 i shorted my ballsac in many cutting sessions too, along its middle suture - with the same wonderfull feelings: i could separate some pieces of my sex tools again. until the sac was short and tight at the bellow - now it was the end of removals. the rest were usual needlings or nailings, banding games, all kinds of cbt...

greater removals were unpossible, because nobody was allowed to notice my desperate desires!

with my wife i cant speek about these deep desires, predispositions. she wouldnt understand this.

sometimes i had beg her during sex to remove one or two of my balls, but she never will do that.

often i dream from removing my balls or cock too, but i love him too, because of the mass of lust, which he brings with jerking and playing of it!

A wayout for me was a little bit: to cut into my cock and split him so in this way, piece by piece deeper. I believe, this cutting in the long direction bewares me to cut square through shaft or ballsac - the final nonreverse cutting act! What do you mean about these crazy desires?:(:dong:

(excuse my bad english, but im a old german)

Re: desire for cock and ball loosing since i was a little boy

Posted: Tue Dec 01, 2009 5:51 pm
by softntiny (imported)
I share the desire to lose cok and balls but i would like to do it safely at the hand of a females) or tg(s) while tied undrgoing heavy sm play.

Pain is my thing but the cock and balls must go.

Also interestd in heavy smoking/pain fetishes!

Re: desire for cock and ball loosing since i was a little boy

Posted: Tue Dec 01, 2009 6:23 pm
by Uncle Flo (imported)
You might want to try our personals pages. I see a contradiction in your desire to lose them "safely" and your wish to do so while in "heavy sm play" - the two are seldom possible together. --FLO--

Re: desire for cock and ball loosing since i was a little boy

Posted: Sat Dec 19, 2009 8:09 pm
by Visionary (imported)
softntiny (imported) wrote: Tue Dec 01, 2009 5:51 pm I share the desire to lose cok and balls but i would like to do it safely at the hand of a females) or tg(s) while tied undrgoing heavy sm play.

Pain is my thing but the cock and balls must go.

Also interestd in heavy smoking/pain fetishes!

Yes, must agree that these two never go together very well. My wife and I have looked into a way to make it safe and have all the sm play, but in the long run there is really no safe way when dealing with sm.