Eunuch as a multiple

[chilliwilli (imported)]

While taking some time off testosterone I have come to the conclusion that I am a multiple personality...not the kind you see on TV or the dangerous type. No my personalities are all mostly constructive yet freely dissociate at this time. All but one of the personalities are submissive some male many female...the one dominant is a harsh male and fit for pure male aggression.(great for the military) This causes me immense social disability which I am begaing to address.

At this point I am happy with a slight reduction in testosterone but am fearful the eunuch multiple may take matters into his own hands.

What should I do?

chilli

[tugon (imported)]

I am not sure if this ever happened before castration but after I had a separate personality. Of course this was not triggered by castration. I have always wondered if in my heightened emotional state the personality was able to surface. I think the personality was part of the years of trauma I experienced.

Several people saw me in this different state. What was so strange was I had no idea I was in it but as I came out I always thought "oh shit I did it again". My X as soon as he heard my voice knew I was in that state. I remember one time he called and he said "oh baby you are back". I guess my voice even sounded different. I guess I broke up with him every time I was in that state. A friend who is a nurse realized I would take mini vacations and she said I was very rigid and black and white in that mood. She told me there was no reasoning with me. X called it my victim personality. My sister was talking to me when I changed as we were planning a house warming party. I had asked her for suggestions and as she was giving me ideas when out of my mouth came "well I thought this was going to be my party but I guess it is all about you". Well it went down hill from there. Needless to say we never had the party.

As I have healed this personality came out for shorter times and less frequently. At the beginning duration was about 3-4 days. Stress in personal relationships seemed to trigger it. It has been several years since this has happened. Maybe from a combination of healing and becoming more assertive my rigid defensive personality does not need to come out.

The remnants of my personality issues seems to still be losing my emotions. They can lock up and I do not feel. Or I am not sure if what I am feeling is really emotion or I am feeling as I think I should. Oh well I am better than I have ever been and not as good as I will be. One day I will be whole.

[devi (imported)]

Persons with multiple personalities are almost always not bad for society, believe it or not contrary to what you believe on television. And of course when you happen to be around a person with a multiple personality you may actually find yourself having a whole heck of a lot more fun than you would with a normal boring person. This is due to the addage, "the more the merrier" which is always very true. Believe me it is very true. Now the thing with this site is that I suspect most of us DO have multiple persons except for, --uh, never mind.

[chilliwilli (imported)]

Dev-

I totally agree! One should develope the personalities into an integrated self, much more fun and interesting. Unconscious of most of the personalities and fear of Shela (the lusty female) and Donna(a more dominant female) ever being fully exposed, has kept me from exploring and integrating these into a complete self. Exploring the eunuch self in there will also be important.

Thanks for the boost up! I have work to do!

chilli-

[jemagirl (imported)]

I don't consider myself a multiple personality, but my ex-boyfriend often claimed that I was. The way I see it is that I just has some very different aspects to my one single personality. To put it a little differently, I am one person who's gender seems to be variable.

Perhaps it is all a matter of perception. In a culture that recognized more than two genders I might fit neatly into some third gender classification. In this western culture it just appears that my gender is in flux.

[tugon (imported)]

After responding to a PM regarding this topic I had a thought. The days after my castration were also the days after the long-term abuse ended. My anger and my feelings had been suppressed for such a long time. I wonder now if that aspect of myself or personality was saying the things I could not bring myself to say. Maybe that was the most honest part of me and I should have listened to myself. The part that could speak without considering others feelings first.

[Sanosuku (imported)]

There is a great website that talks about being a multiple. One of my friends showed it to me and i cope with my others alot easier now. I got lucky and have 6 others besides me in my head.

but anyway, here is the link ^^

Click here (http://www.astraeasweb.net/plural/)

[chilliwilli (imported)]

I don't consider myself a multiple personality, but my ex-boyfriend often claimed that I was. The way I see it is that I just has some very different aspects to my one single personality. To put it a little differently, I am one person who's gender seems to be variable.

Perhaps it is all a matter of perception. In a culture that recognized more than two genders I might fit neatly into some third gender classification. In this western culture it just appears that my gender is in flux.

Jema-

Yes many people have a single gender diffuse personality. Perhaps developing some flexibility helps one navigate the day-to-day of ups and downs, twists and turns of normal daily life while growing up. Fitting that gender into larger society then becomes a life challenge. And indeed, when we live in a society that tends to give credence to only two genders, a person may experience great turmoil attemting to integrate with large society.

Somebody with DID has vastly different multiple personalities that have been developed to deal with the myraid of stressful situations that occur in early childhood. As a DID person grows they may develope new personalities or expand on existing ones to cope with life challenges/trauma/stress and abuse.

While your gender is in flux, a DID may jump from a passionate sexual female or befuddled boy to a cute fun loving 5 year old within hours seconds or days depending on the triggers. In order to survive an enforcer reigns over the personalities to keep them from causing extreme embaressment.

chilli-