hi ,

I am doing very hard CBT , i squeeze my balls ( testicles) too hard until they pain too much.My left ball swell once because i squeezed it too much. I am 27 yrs old.

Now as a result I notice that my beard grow more slowly ( i dont need to shave it as frequently as i used to do) , my voice is now not same n manly as it was before it is now different. My thighs n breasts r now more softer n fatty. I also doing penis bonding 1 hours daily , 2 times in a day it numbs my little penis.

Now my balls shrinked about 40% than before.

Now I feel more less need of masturbation. I notice my hair fall is very low now than before.

I also felt my 1st Hot flashes 2 days ago in midnight.

I want castration for me.

So please give me comments n share your views on my experience of slow castration. And please help me in this.I am not taking any medicine or hormone.

Thanks All.

It sounds like you have done major damage to your balls. What you have done is not reversible. I hope you realize this and there is no turning back. You may not like all of the other side effect that come with castration. You are just getting few of the effects. The harder ones are still coming.

I am not sure what you are asking of us. If you keep up what you are doing you will be an eunuch. You will have all of the side effects of one. You will have a very good chance of getting osteoporosis. Loose muscle mass and strength. Depression is also something you will get.

Welcome to being an Eunuch.

Injuring your testicles in the way that you have can also cause some other serious medical problems. I would suggest you see your doctor or urologist, perhaps the damage you've done will be a reason for them to castrate you.

The advice above to see a medical doctor is good advice. I have no idea what specific risks you are running by doing this, but what you describe sounds unsafe to me. For starters, I can't imagine that having damaged, dead or dying tissue in your body can be good for your physical well-being. Good luck to you.

You would appear to have achieved your goal, based on your reported symptoms (hot flashes, etc.). If you seek medical treatment, be prepared for a major expense.

Hi Bobbie , Hash , Cordonone and kangan and all,

what if i dont go to doctor and keep doing cbt ?

I hate be a male , i want castration.

Bobbie u said tht i will be an eunuch if i would keep it. And i wanna do it , i am doing it daily. I want to become an Eunuch. Is doctors guidance is necessary ? Will Doctor ask me for surgical castration ? I can not go to doctor.

sweetie26 (imported) wrote: Tue Aug 18, 2009 9:28 pm Hi Bobbie , Hash , Cordonone and kangan and all,

what if i dont go to doctor and keep doing cbt ?

I hate be a male , i want castration.

Bobbie u said tht i will be an eunuch if i would keep it. And i wanna do it , i am doing it daily. I want to become an Eunuch. Is doctors guidance is necessary ? Will Doctor ask me for surgical castration ? I can not go to doctor.

Why can you not go to a doctor?

Doctors advice is very important. You will have to deal with some medical issues as an eunuch. I am not sure if you are really prepared for them. Most are not if they have not done chemical castration first. When all the side effects kick in you may have a very different feeling about castration. You will have depression. It may require you to get medication in order to deal with that. For some it can be that bad. Osteoporosis is something you have a great chance of getting. Very high number of eunuch's have that if not on HRT. I for one already have it.

Doing physical damage always has some risk of causing a blood clot. They can be deadly. If one gets into the lungs or brain you can have a stroke of death.

I am with Bobbie on this.

I understand that you want to be rid of your testicles. But prudence demands, caution demands, your health demands that you at least talk to a doctor.

I hunted this article out of the archive.

http://www.eunuch.org/vbulletin/showthread.php?t=4067

The castrator received a light sentence (suspended) only because the judge was a wise person. The "victim" who nearly died and the castrator both had plans for when things going wrong. They called the abmulance immediately. The judge recognized that society has a problem with transgenders and, to be blunt, men who dislike their sexual equipment. So the judge understood the back-alley castration but still did not condone it. And the castrator to his credit, stood up for what he had done and admitted his inability to do it properly in this circumstance.

We tell you to be careful, to see a doctor because we have seen this before. You aren't the first person to do this. Be careful. Talk to a doctor. Find a sympathetic counselor. You will be better for it.

Can't say it much better than that. If you continue to do CBT you probably will end up going to the ER/Hospital for some serious problem. Though it sounds as though you have already done enough damage to your testicles that you've at least reduced their ability to produce testosterone. I damaged my testicles through CBT and when Dr. Kimmel removed my remaining right testicle, making me a eunuch, he said, "It's a good thing you had this removed, it's doesn't look good, you would have had some trouble with it down the road." Never forgot those words.