Hello! Well it is actually 5 years since I became a Eunuch! It was here that I got the support that I needed.

[I WISH TO BE VERY CLEAR HERE! MY OWN CASTRATION BY MYSELF ALMOST KILLED ME. THIS IS NO JOKE. IF YOU WISH TO BE CASTRATED FIND YOURSELF A DOCTOR! I DID ALMOST DIE.

I was a very large fan of BMEZine and of this sight. I wanted to end the testosterone in my body. My arms burned with desire and so did my penis. i decdied to end that by castrating myself. At that time there were many articles on chemcial castration by injection. Of course it was about animals not humans. I on the other hand saw this as a way out. I figured out the chemical composition of the gel to be injected, bought the chemicals and mixed them by myself. I then injected way way more than the dose prescribed.

The pain was tremendous and I sat with an Ice pack on my testicles for 3 days. I finally could move again, but the chemicals were working and it was at best uncomfortable all the time. More than a dull ache, less than 911. soon my scrotem opened up and began to spew pus and dead tissue. It swelled and became very painful. I had to go to a Doctor and explain what happened. He gave me some pain meds, took a sample of the pus and sent me to a urologist. I was examined and I was told I would need surgery to remove all the dead tissue inside of the scrotum. I was also told that my penis may have to be removed as it had also become infected with staf.

I WAS NOT TO HAPPY! I WAS IN A LOT OF PAIN ! IT WAS NOT EXCTING, SEXY, OR SOMETHING I WANTED.

I had the operation and it soon became a mess. I was so infected that the wounds would not heal. I had to have infussions of anit-biotics for 3 months before the wound began to close. During that time, I was depressed, sullen and wanted to die. As it turnned out, I lost both testicles. I have my scrotum, and my penis. I am prone to infections, and I suffer from prostatitus and urethritus. Fun? Not!

I do love being a Eunuch. I am at peace, I do not ache of desire, I do not get testosterone poisioning. I am on a low dose estrogen and I also have the Eunuch Calm. It turrned out ok. Not great but ok.

I want to thank Andrew, wherever he is, Riverwind and all the characters that kept me going with their advise and help.

If you want to be a Eunuch I know the only way is the right way.

Durring the recovery period I finished my degree program and am a LISW in the area of sexuality and alternative life styles. LOL I am more than willing to help those in need at no cost. This place helped me, and I am more than grateful to help others. spankey2/ aka scottie

Scottie!

So good to see you back.

Your experiences you posted, while painful and shocking, were and ARE of extreme value.

Please don't run off like that again!

I lost you again. The name spankey2 is no longer in service. I am Boy Eunuch and I was spankey2. When your server was down I tried to re-join, but to no avail. Well that is in the past. Fact is I am here now. I am a bit older and I hope wiser. Again as I have been reading there seems to be many of us that are injecting things into our testicles to kill them. I get it, I really do. What scares me is that there is more then blood infections that can happen when you use a syringe of any kind. Nerve damage is one. It can not be fixed. Another is a swelling that infects the skin and area around the injection site. SO BE CAREFUL!

I also still love being a Eunuch! My wife also loves to play with my scrotum and it is awesome. The advice to use Androcar or Spirlactone before you get cut is AWESOME! I still remain grateful for all the support I got when I used the Chem-Cast. Thanks Again, BoyEunuch

I am new here,attracted to nullification but realisticly my financial situation probably puts that beyond reality at the moment.Thankyou so much for sharing your experience,a strong warning I shall take on board as i'm sure will others of the necessity of doing things properly! and how much worse things could be if you don't!