All I Need Is Everything

[Orange World (imported)]

I Googled for stories and discovered this site.

I don't understand why I am like I am. Maybe related to something I was born with (no I'm not posting what) that makes my body weaker. It rarely gets worse, will never get better, has no cure and gets no research dollars (too rare to attract them). I can relate to some of the struggles women face like being weaker, marginalized and not respected as much. I was born a guy and totally straight but what I wish I was is a girl and still totally straight. I guess this is why gender tests put me dead center. I won't go for surgery either. Scalpel and hormones can't replace a childhood and results are too far for me to say close enough. Just like Coke, I only want the real thing.

Now back to the story.

In the wildest of dreams,

Yearning for more, only for more.

When I was much younger I was fascinated by Catwoman and tried to imagine being her and actually winning. Obviously I never outgrew it.

http://www.eunuch.org/Alpha/S/ea_0417succubus.htm is the story I landed on here. Now that was a hole in 1. I'd just love to be Kathy in that story. I could see myself a nice, quiet girl. But nothing excites me like the thought of being a girl with wings and power who sees guys as prey (even though that means me in my real life).

There is one good thing about wanting the impossible. I never have to wonder if it'll ever come true or be disappointed when it doesn't.