My physical conditions are the cause of my emotional distress. (See my blog about why I want my balls removed).

First off, what I really want is 2 normal looking and working balls. But that is never going to happen. So, because of the testicular physical and mental emotional pain I am experiencing I began to desire having my problematic balls removed.

This is a taboo topic in public and even on other public medical Q&A / blog web sites that deal with non-cancerous urology issues. Thus I am here. And feeling pretty freeky too, but getting over it. Because of the personal and sexual relation problems I have experienced (because of my physically defective and painful balls) I would rather have a sexless life. While I can't relate to and don't understand some of the reasons other people at this site want their balls removed, I have empathy; in so many ways sex is be such a problem. A year ago I would have thought of voluntary castration as sicko; not now.

Should my balls ever be removed then what? This is something I need to know as I evaluate my desire to be castrated. I absolutely know that I will feel physically and emotionally better about myself by having them removed. But if I am ever so fortunate as to get intimate with anyone how do I go about discussing my no-balls status with them and what kind of response and reactions might I get, and how do I deal with any shock or rejection? Of course without balls if I have no sex drive, sexual relations will be out of the question, but even then, at some point as a relationship develops not having balls is the kind of thing you can't (and shouldn't) hide.

Or in the absence of testicles should I just continue on with my non-relationship life as I do now with my deformed and painful testes. I have have received some voluntary input from some EA people already. I could use some more opinions on this. I couldn't find any threads that specifically addressed how to interact with people when intimate information becomes a necessary topic for discussion.

I would say much of the reaction of any future sex partners will depend upon your sexual orientation and the expectations of the people you ultimately have sex with.

I'm gay, and for the most part I've noticed those men do not care. They are more interested in the fact that I present male, enjoy giving and receiving pleasure, etc. The only hesitancy many have is touching my empty scrotum, but I think that is more because they're not sure if they're hurting me or not. Answer: no they are not.

For straight relationships... Your age seems to indicate you are still in the range that women may expect a long term relationship with you may involve procreation. If so, they may look at you negatively because you cannot father a child after your testicles are removed. In this case, I'd make sure you find a good place to bank some sperm, and if you are determined to proceed, then you'll have a back-up plan for children later. One benefit of this is that when you and the partner decide to have kids, it's when you want. You can fuck like rabbits and not worry about pregnancy... perhaps something many women would find VERY attractive about you.

I had many of the same concerns you have prior to getting castrated. I've found I don't really need to worry about it all that much.

--LT

SteveS1980 (imported) wrote: Mon Dec 15, 2008 7:34 am My physical conditions are the cause of my emotional distress. (See my blog about why I want my balls removed).

First off, what I really want is 2 normal looking and working balls. But that is never going to happen. So, because of the testicular physical and mental emotional pain I am experiencing I began to desire having my problematic balls removed.

This is a taboo topic in public and even on other public medical Q&A / blog web sites that deal with non-cancerous urology issues. Thus I am here. And feeling pretty freeky too, but getting over it. Because of the personal and sexual relation problems I have experienced (because of my physically defective and painful balls) I would rather have a sexless life. While I can't relate to and don't understand some of the reasons other people at this site want their balls removed, I have empathy; in so many ways sex is be such a problem. A year ago I would have thought of voluntary castration as sicko; not now.

Should my balls ever be removed then what? This is something I need to know as I evaluate my desire to be castrated. I absolutely know that I will feel physically and emotionally better about myself by having them removed. But if I am ever so fortunate as to get intimate with anyone how do I go about discussing my no-balls status with them and what kind of response and reactions might I get, and how do I deal with any shock or rejection? Of course without balls if I have no sex drive, sexual relations will be out of the question, but even then, at some point as a relationship develops not having balls is the kind of thing you can't (and shouldn't) hide.

Or in the absence of testicles should I just continue on with my non-relationship life as I do now with my deformed and painful testes. I have have received some voluntary input from some EA people already. I could use some more opinions on this. I couldn't find any threads that specifically addressed how to interact with people when intimate information becomes a necessary topic for discussion.

Steve,

You and I sound a good bit alike. I am not looking for castration for any "scene" or transgender issues because I am a guy and enjoy being one, thank you very much!

Yes, I have enough troubles with mine medically and want castration for that reason. Needless to say, most medical sites/blogs are of little, if any, support in my quest.

If you'd like to discuss this more in private, write or message me privately.

Dave in Michigan

Losethem (imported) wrote: Mon Dec 15, 2008 9:33 am I would say much of the reaction of any future sex partners will depend upon your sexual orientation and the expectations of the people you ultimately have sex with.

I'm gay, and for the most part I've noticed those men do not care. They are more interested in the fact that I present male, enjoy giving and receiving pleasure, etc. The only hesitancy many have is touching my empty scrotum, but I think that is more because they're not sure if they're hurting me or not. Answer: no they are not.

For straight relationships... Your age seems to indicate you are still in the range that women may expect a long term relationship with you may involve procreation. If so, they may look at you negatively because you cannot father a child after your testicles are removed. In this case, I'd make sure you find a good place to bank some sperm, and if you are determined to proceed, then you'll have a back-up plan for children later. One benefit of this is that when you and the partner decide to have kids, it's when you want. You can fuck like rabbits and not worry about pregnancy... perhaps something many women would find VERY attractive about you.

I had many of the same concerns you have prior to getting castrated. I've found I don't really need to worry about it all that much.

--LT

I've had more gay sexual encounters than straight sexual encounters.

I don't call myself gay, or straight, or bi since at this stage of my life my main sex partner is my right hand. Photos of naked men or women don't get my sexual juices flowing. I have low interest in sex. My main focus is on my problematic testicles. Should I live a celebate life with one deformed and one painful testicle, or will having them removed help me move forward into a better self image and life style?

At least without balls I would be rid of embarassing and painful problems and could look for someone to spend my life with. I suspect, but don't know, that gay guys would be more understanding and supportive than straight guys of my situation and desire. Straight women would have to not want children and not be freaked out over a guy without balls, and finding that person might be difficult to impossible----I might be looked upon more as a boy toy (assuming I can get it up) than a serious candidate for a relationship.

No guarantees in life, but I don't like things the way they are and I don't want to live like this forever. I am willing to make a change and hope for improvement. If things did not improve as a eunuch (something lost but nothing gained) oh well....even though there is no going back, I wouldn't want to go back anyway.

SteveS1980 (imported) wrote: Tue Dec 16, 2008 7:52 am Straight women would have to not want children and not be freaked out over a guy without balls, and finding that person might be difficult to impossible----I might be looked upon more as a boy toy (assuming I can get it up) than a serious candidate for a relationship.

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good thing about this is there are more women in the world then men ,the bad thing is you probably have to look for unnatractive girls and girls who would probably be so happy to have any relationship, I am in a similar boat and not sure how easy I am going to take it, especially when before this I had a feeling I could get just about any girl and never really took advantage of it

I think you greatly underestimate women. While there are some who may shun you sans testicles, I don't think most would write you off because you dont have testicles. Lacking confidence and being depressed is the biggest turnoff to women. Most won't make a deal out of it unless you do. If you don't want kids either, specifically look for a girl that doesnt want them either, as there are many out there.

Sex isn't that big of a deal for MOST women anyways, especially after being in a relationship for 6 months to a year. If you are on HRT and can give your partner what they need, I don't see it being THAT big of a deal. I would just let them know you are sterile before getting too serious. Most women woulnd even notice you were nutless unless you pointed it out.

ramses (imported) wrote: Tue Dec 16, 2008 9:30 am I think you greatly underestimate women. While there are some who may shun you sans testicles, I don't think most would write you off because you dont have testicles. Lacking confidence and being depressed is the biggest turnoff to women. Most won't make a deal out of it unless you do. If you don't want kids either, specifically look for a girl that doesnt want them either, as there are many out there.

Sex isn't that big of a deal for MOST women anyways, especially after being in a relationship for 6 months to a year. If you are on HRT and can give your partner what they need, I don't see it being THAT big of a deal. I would just let them know you are sterile before getting too serious. Most women woulnd even notice you were nutless unless you pointed it out.

Ramses, thank you for the comments. My growing obsession with having my defective/painful balls removed looks to be overblown, and in my head. My lack of self-confidence has led to me being out of the relationship circuit. Perhaps as a starter project I should go ahead with the epidididectomy (splling?) and hope that this relieves the painful right testicle problem, and that it too does not get deformed like the left one did. Right now, even when there is no flare up and swelling if I don't wear tight tight underwear just sitting down causes a sharp slap in the nut pain.

Once the pain is gone I can probably deal with all the other issues better. Pain makes one do desperate things. But I imagine I am going to need a little coaching to help me obtain some confidence in developing a relationship. I mean if the first attempt at meeting someone was successful and they didn't mind me being sterile, having a low sex drive, and having deformed balls that would help, but if the first attempt or 2 resulted in rejection I would be right back where I am now.

If I can't shake my dislike of my left testicle, perhaps I can get justification to have it removed and replaced with a decent looking and feeling artificial one - the original equipment is defective beyond repair.

I mean it really is in bad shape but I guess unless a partner has a testicle fettish it might never be noticed, but just one "feel" and it is obvious.

The current flare up in my right nut has started to subside. It usually takes 3-5 days for it to go back to it's own "normal" and the pain to subside from an 8 to a normal 4-5. That will give me time to forget about this over the holidays and think about what I have learned here and my options. My physical and mental roller coasters sometimes make me say, think and do things that I shouldn't. It's hard to be normal when you haven't had a lifetime of being normal. How do you learn how to be normal so that you can function normally within the average world? It's a mystery to me ! Think I will go back surfing the other non-castration web sites for awhile to put things into perspective. But this has been very beneficial.

ramses (imported) wrote: Tue Dec 16, 2008 9:30 am I think you greatly underestimate women. While there are some who may shun you sans testicles, I don't think most would write you off because you dont have testicles. Lacking confidence and being depressed is the biggest turnoff to women. Most won't make a deal out of it unless you do. If you don't want kids either, specifically look for a girl that doesnt want them either, as there are many out there.

Sex isn't that big of a deal for MOST women anyways, especially after being in a relationship for 6 months to a year. If you are on HRT and can give your partner what they need, I don't see it being THAT big of a deal. I would just let them know you are sterile before getting too serious. Most women woulnd even notice you were nutless unless you pointed it out.

Not only will most women not even notice that you are castrated, as long as you achieve a serviceable erection, but unless they particularly like to play with your balls, most of them find a scrotum rather ugly.

I think you are definately over thinking this issue. I think you would find sympathy with most women for loosing a testicle or testicles due to health problems. It may be quite another issue if you cut them off for some fetish reason but that hardly sounds like the case. If you are rejectedby someone for simply missing your testicles, you were with the wrong person anyways. I could fully understand someone not wanting to get involved with someone that was asexual if they are a sexual person but if you can give you what they need in bed, I can't wee what their issue could possibly be unless they want YOUR baby.

If you find your soulmate and the only thing wrong is that she needs a baby, that can be fixed as long as you are ok with artificial insemination or you have your own stuff banked. If you have low testosterone now, that could be a contributing factor for your lack of confidence and other worries. Lack of T can do strange things to SOME people. Get yourself healthy and everything else will take care of itself. T replacement injections are very affordable to most people and you may be much better off giving yourself a weekly injection and live pain free. Good luck wtih it all, Ramses.

Two interesting, and possibly useful, observations.

1. I am overthinking the issue. Well, that wouldn't be the first time. It's a problem I have, in addition to anxiety attacks.

2. Most women find the scrotum ugly? Wow. I would have never guessed. I place such high importance (abnormally high I guess) on having normal looking and feeling testes.

The best thing I can think to say is that I am back to being confused

Should I, or shouldn't I ?

And now I'm tired, so that's all for today.