Hello all,

I hope that I'm posting this to the right place. If not, please redirect me to the right section for introductions.

I'm a 20-year-old man who has developed an interest in eunuchs over the past year or so. I find myself fantasizing increasingly about them and about becoming one.

I have self-identified as a gay man since early adolescence, and I present myself openly as that among close friends and family. I am a masculine-acting man, but certainly not macho. I consider TV's Frasier or Niles Crane to be good analogues of myself-- Niles especially, in that he's masculine, but somewhat passive, subdued, and refined.

I volunteer for a gender advocacy group on my school campus (I am their research coordinator), and I read a lot about transsexual issues for that reason. I'm starting to think that maybe my interest in transsexuality transcends mere academic interest... I have never wanted to be a woman, but I find myself not quite wanting to be a man.

I never feel comfortable when I stand up to urinate. I never feel wholly comfortable stimulating my penis. I always play the passive role-- sometimes a very passive role-- with other men. The hair on my body feels out of place.

It's strange, but I think this might not be so odd to hear: sometimes when I masturbate, touching my genitals, I fantasize about not having them.

That's all I feel comfortable with saying right now... I hope to become part of this community and learn more about what it's like to be a eunuch.

Welcome to the EA and a wonderful community. On this site there is much information available by the search feature as well as starting a thread as you did. I became a eunuch after many years of thought and soul searching. I shared with you several of the same issues. Early in life I did not fit in and thought maybe I should be a girl but I realized that was not right and eunuch was my true gender identity.

Our first request as a community is to read and learn. There are both positive stories and stories of regret. If you do find yourself becoming serious about becoming a eunuch there is much good info about chemical castration as a way to test drive being a eunuch.

I hope you enjoy the site as much as I have through the years and take advantage of the incredible amount of knowledge of our members.

Hello,

I am also fairly new to this website but not to the idea of being castrated. It is great to see posts of others who have the same interests.

For as long as I can remember I've tucked my testicles up inside me and admired the smooth "ball less" look. In Jr high I started wearing speedos and skin tight bike shorts which when tucked gave me the smooth genderless look I love. This freaked my mom out who took me to the Dr. I was sooo embarassed but at the same time realized how much I enjoyed the humiliation that I started tucking even more often and began to openly wear girls panties...mostly for the humiliation and taboo nature of it but also because they fit tight and kept things tucked up. Once my mom found out I was wearing panties, she freaked again and took me back to the Dr. It was a strange yet erotic experience to be sitting there while the Dr and my mom asked so many embarassing things. They kept asking why I wanted to be "smooth" and why I wore panties and I kept telling them the truth...I don't know why...I just do. I still remember the Dr telling my mom that it was a phase I would probably grow out of.

Here I am many years later and no the Dr wasn't right.

Its been geat reasing all the posts and learning so much!

Alan

Welcome. You're wise beyond your years and on that I congratulate you. What you're doing with your life and the work you've taken on prepares you to understand what you may someday wish to seriously consider. A thoughtful person is ahead of the yowling pack who always will say, "No! What you want is wrong, is immoral, is a mistake". Those of us who have considered what we wanted and then followed through must appreciate your actions and your words. No one has ever been harmed by researching a topic, any topic, however loathsome to others it might be. The only thing you will have to face is the ignorance of others who will not listen to fact and candor.

Keep us posted on your thoughts and work and comment, please, on what is on our minds.

Hello,

mylilsecret (imported) wrote: Wed Aug 27, 2008 4:39 am I am also fairly new to this website but not to the idea of being castrated. It is great to see posts of others who have the same interests.

For as long as I can remember I've tucked my testicles up inside me and admired the smooth "ball less" look. In Jr high I started wearing speedos and skin tight bike shorts which when tucked gave me the smooth genderless look I love. This freaked my mom out who took me to the Dr. I was sooo embarassed but at the same time realized how much I enjoyed the humiliation that I started tucking even more often and began to openly wear girls panties...mostly for the humiliation and taboo nature of it but also because they fit tight and kept things tucked up. Once my mom found out I was wearing panties, she freaked again and took me back to the Dr. It was a strange yet erotic experience to be sitting there while the Dr and my mom asked so many embarassing things. They kept asking why I wanted to be "smooth" and why I wore panties and I kept telling them the truth...I don't know why...I just do. I still remember the Dr telling my mom that it was a phase I would probably grow out of.

Here I am many years later and no the Dr wasn't right.

Its been geat reasing all the posts and learning so much!

AlanGood to know othes share your needs and interest isn't it? Great place to be for all of us, wherever we are on the journey.

Welcome and thanks so much for sharing. I hope you find answers to your questions and good fellowship here. I wish I had known myself as well as you seem to at your age, perhaps I would have made better choices in my life.