Guys, I'm going back and forth to India very often and my desire to become a eunuch has never gone away although I may not have been very vocal on here for a while. Question is does anyone know someone there able to do the deed for me please and make me very, very happy ?

Do it right. Find a female psychologist, discuss your feelings and see if she will write a letter for you to have transgender surgery. I'm not sure what the requirements are in the UK, but persevere and do it right. Don't try some back alley surgery and don't let the eunuchs in India emasculate you, you'll be very sorry. They'll drug you and lop off everything, but you might not survive. It's pretty gruesome and the results are ugly.

Why not take a little extra time and head to Thailand? Although there is a moratorium on castrations, my understanding is that this is primarily directed at the "lady boys." Inquire...

As I understand it, the moratorium has to do with investigation into the supposed castrations of underage boys. I don't think it applies to tourists visiting valid businesses, and those who are obviously adults.

As for India, I have seen one documentary, I think it was called "Middle Sexes", where a hijra-wannabe saved up his money and got a real doctor to cut him.

As for the much rumored Hijra castration ritual, from what I recall reading in Zia Jaffry's "The Invisibles", you really don't want to go through that.

http://www.amazon.com/Invisibles-Tale-E ... 188&sr=8-1

Zia Jaffry's account is full of questionable information. she was sued then had to make retractions for the secound publication. it is at best an outsider's perception of the hijra life with some enhancement.

I am not sure going overseas and having this done is some back alley is the best of ideas.

I'm not sure that I was suggesting having it undertaken in some back street clinic. Although I have a home in the UK, I work in India and spend most of the year there, so its not even that I will be going abroad; I will be abroad.

Zac,

If you persevere you will be rewarded. I thought I read some articles of UK eunuchs who got castrated after seeing several physicians. I'll look for them. Any UK eunuchs who can advise Zac?

Hash - I know and dont think this is the only option I am investigating - so far I have 3 options including this one on the go. All safe

Zac,

Hash (imported) wrote: Wed Aug 06, 2008 2:42 am If you persevere you will be rewarded. I thought I read some articles of UK eunuchs who got castrated after seeing several physicians. I'll look for them. Any UK eunuchs who can advise Zac?

Zac (imported) wrote: Sun Aug 03, 2008 11:25 pm Guys, I'm going back and forth to India very often and my desire to become a eunuch has never gone away although I may not have been very vocal on here for a while. Question is does anyone know someone there able to do the deed for me please and make me very, very happy ?

Hi!

Thank you for the mail.Please listen to my story . I am a normal human being.I consider the life and being to be a combination of many beings. While male and female are the two prime sections of the being normally majority of people enjoy in the life , the hijra, or eunuch or whatever you call it is a very much part of each human being .Here I am not talking about the physical structure.But the human being feels good when the manhood comes to the front of his realisation, a woman feels great at times of her womenhood when the women nature comes to the front.While this way of feeling great and good is common , sometimes the hijrapan(the feeling of being both and not in the middle) comes to the forefront of every human being .Some accept it and whenever it comes to the front they enjoy it. This has happened with me . I have recently discovered immense pleasure and happiness of the ardha nari reality in me and wished strongly to continue of staying with it whenever it has reached . It does not take time to feel like a man for a man, for woman to be woman or for a hijra to feel the hijrapan .But it is difficult to retain the happiness of the hijrapan in your body and mind alive and active when you are a man or woman(it's really a great feeling that is rarely enjoyed) as the society is yet to realise the real happiness of remaning in that state.I keep on bringing this state of living everyday for some time.But whenever special oportunities like that I am enjoying now for having stayed outside the house is there ,I try to enjoy it for the maximum time .Today also I am dressed up in the similar dress and am acting in the way a hijra does . I behave, act and dress up as much I have seen the hijras in picture and the readings made from books and internet.Whenever I live in this condition I share my state of consciousness with friends and people who have been talking about the eunuchs and hijras worldwide . The basic aim is to know the hijras more so that whenever i go into that state in the consciousness , I reach that nearer to them , so that the experience is not lost.As I said that I am a hijra(even though you may say that I donot satisfy the conditions and definitions of the word Hijra) for that period of time and when come out of that I am a man to the external world .The time has not come yet to come out with my photographs and get up to the external world . Hence please feel free to suggest all that you know about living like a hijra more.Please tell me if you know more eabout the hijras who are physically also the same as per the definition ,like their likings , dislikings, their daily routine ,the moments of happiness, dates they observe,the topics they cover , the dreams they have and so on . I will try to practise the same whenever I get the scope bringing the hijrapan to the front . I would also wish to mention that I donot indulge in homo sexual activities .I wish to live the life in full , like a man and like the both.It's not a fantacy .I am proud of this feeling and the way I enjoy without harming anyone . Please help me to know more , if you can without knowing who really I am .I am a 42 year old man. Be certain , it's not a joke or some false mail .It's true to me.I forgot to tell you why do I wear the costumes and dresses that hijras put on. You see , a soldier can fight in any condition . But his uniform gives an additional strength to fight . Similarly I can experience the spirit of the hijrapan in me even without the costumes and dresses .But the dress and costume gives me additonal inspiration and scope to remain close to the feeling .Yeaterday for the first time I came out of my room at around 11 PM with full costumes and dress and roamed on the roof for almost 15 minutes.It was great even with a fear.Tonight also I will try to go.Let me try.

In Hindi:

Meri tan,mann,hriday sab ye anokhi ehsas ke sath bhar jata hai.Mein abhi kisise phone par bhi bat nahi karti.Kyunki me iss hijrapan ki stithimein me mardon jaisa bat karna pasand nehin karti.Dua karo , prarthana karo ki mein iss sthitiko jyada se jyada paa sakun.Isiliye mein apko anurodh karti ki hijron jaise jine ke liye roj kya kya karna chahiye,kya abhyas karna chahiye ,kaunsi puja kaise karni chahiye, ye bataa dijiye(If you know).Aap ki sahyogse mein agar ek puri hijra ke jaise(without being physically)banjaun to aapki abhaari rahungi(it is for the time when I live like a hijra ).Aapki dua aur khat ke intejarmein. thank you

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Thank you once again for reading . Wishing to recieve more mails at the earliest.

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