[FONT=times new roman]Thank you for this excellent site. I recall lying in bed when I was a child and masturbating (by holding my erect penis and my balls in my hands) as I fantasized about being punished for playing with my "tee tee." I fantasized about having it cut off. The stories here replay those fantasies.

Now that medication lowers my libido, I suppose those fantasies take on a new sense of reality. The desire to be potent and manly plays against the reality of eventual loss.

I am so glad to have an outlet let the archives. It makes me feel like I am not alone. Anyway if you want to chat call me.