The past few weeks (about three) have been a respite for me from the eunuch making side-effects of medication. This will most likely be only a brief respite, but I am enjoying it. The effect of a full orgasm is just too wonderful to describe.

I have masturbated like a teenage boy in heat. I have virtually no sperm production, but the seminal fluid from my prostate seem copious to me.

I think that I have a sense of the differences between eunuch status and non-eunuch status though I realize that both conditions are best seen as some moments on continuums.

When I was married, my wife did not like my diminished libido. I am not certain that I would have noticed had I not been married. I have lived now for almost twenty years with diminished libido. I think that is a real loss even if there are notable benefits from loss of libido. The bond we share with lovers is a highlight of life. The loss of that bond is tragic to me.

I write about this to add to accounts of our experiences of being eunuchs or of being like eunuchs. I will have to resume medication because depression has its own domain of problems. In the meantime, a certain feeling comes upon me.

If one had the bonds that one enjoys from sexual intercourse without orgasms, the loss of libido would not matter. The loss is the loss of relationships.

It's time to go back on medication (as soon as I find a new job) but I enjoyed being off of it. I think that loss of libido is a real loss. I am not as enthusiastic about it as many of you folks are!

Already, libido begins to wane.

Hi Ted,

Although you do not come right out and say it, it certainly sounds like you typically take an antidepressant and that this is causing your loss of libido. I know from my own experience, particularly when I identified as male and was married, how troubling that can be.

Please forgive me if you have discussed this elsewhere, but have you discussed your lowered libido with your physician? There are a few antidepressants that tend to have a much lower rate of sexual side effects. Wellbutrin is one of these. I have taken it and it did not reduce my libido. If you haven't given this drug a try in place of whatever you are taking, you may want to discuss it with your doctor.

There is another class of antidepressants that for the most part have not been prescribed in years. That is due, at least in part, to dietary restrictions when these are taken orally. I am referring to Monoamine Oxidase Inhibitors (MAOIs). These have often proven effective when other types of antidepressants failed for difficult depression.

An MAOI is now available in a transdermal patch. I have been on it over a year now after many years on SSRI type drugs. It is the only thing to completely remove my depression and I continue to enjoy that effect. I never had any bad sexual side effects with this. I only mention this for your consideration with your prescribing doctor. It is expensive and I'm not sure most doctors are even familiar with it. The name is EMSAM and at the lowest dose, which I use, there are no dietary restrictions.

I wish you the best, Ted.

Take care,

Danya

My doctors and I have worked for years to deal with the problem. In other posts, I have explored the experience. Thanks for the post.