I'm French, and 48 years old, Im married with a wonderful wife 38 years old.
Sorry if i make mistakes with my English. I'm going to explain you our lifestyle.
We are swingers since 10 years. Our fantasy began slowly, 10 years ago, my pleasure was to look my wife giving blowjob, then little by little, have sex with other men in front of me at the beginning and in my back later. I liked to be cuckold.
But 2 years ago i got a crazy idea; I wanted to be castrated for stop to enjoy all these fantasies. Curiously my wife accepted easily my idea, and after many discussions about that, we have think about the good and the bad about this definitive action before. Then we decided to proceed.
My wish was to take off my balls and scrutum for lost my libido and accentuate my humiliation. And she ask me for have a regular lover for her sexlife.
Finally i had command an elastrator which seems the best way for me. She have put the elastic herself at the top of my groin, and we have wait. I will not talk about my pain. But after 1 hour my balls look dark violet, at this moment i had an hesitation, did i stop now or not before irreversible consequences. I ask to my wife what she thinks, she replies me that we have talk enough about that and we need to continue.
Then after 10 hours, my balls were completely dark. My wife for help me to support the pain, tell me what she's going to do when Ill be castrated. We have wait 9 days before my balls fall alone, but Ive conserve the elastic 2 days more for avoid an hemorrhage.
Some weeks after, my dick was perfect, with just a little scar under. That was done, good bye my fertility, good bye the caress of my balls. At this moment my wife takes many pleasures to expose me in swinger's club, and some nudist beach. I was finally happy to get this castration, and without libido.
My excitation was always present when my wife done sex with other men. I don't know why, but i get erections easily, and i can have sex with my wife even without balls. I had more difficulties to jerk off, but sometimes, i arrive to do it. My wife ask me if i was happy about this situation, and i reply that finally, only my appearance had change, but i can still have excitations and orgasms.
It's at this moment i was surprise, when my wife says to me, that she don't like i can be excited, and i can have sex with her. I reply her, what can i do, Im sterile, i have no more testicles. It's true my libido is down but always present a little.
My wife says me that we need to go more far, because she want humiliate me more without i can have pleasure and the possibility to have sex with her. I ask her what she was thinking about, and simply she replies me that i need to lost more. Lost more what you mean? My wife replies me that i need to cut my dick. I need to say this idea was not good for me, to be castrated was very hard, but to lost my dick and the possibility of masturbation seeing her having sex with other men don't enjoy me very much.
My wife works in an hospital, and have many relations with doctors and surgeons. She explains me that it's forbidden to penectomize somebody only for fantasy, but she can ask a surgeon to do it because they was friends.
She says me to don't think about that right now, but she takes an appointment with the surgeon, and she ask me to go with her to speak with him.
When we arrive in the office of the surgeon, he said me to get naked and show him my castration; my wife had tell him about this. I take of my clothes and show him my dick without nothing more, good job he says looking my penis. And he ask me suddenly if i agree for a penectomy, that my wife would like i lost all.
I ask him many questions about the risk, the consequences, and he replies me that the only difference will be, i'll lost all libido, and all possibility to have sex and orgasm. He says me that we are going to make an experimentation, he says me don't move, just look. After he ask my wife to give him a blowjob, in front of me and to swallow his sperm. My wife done it, and when he get his orgasm, she licks in front of me the sperm which arrive.
At the same moment he asks me? What you feel? Humiliation to look your wife be a slut, and you get an erection. You will be more excited after a penectomy, but only in your head, because you will no more can erect without dick.
This demonstration was enough for me, and i agree that maybe, i will feel more without nothing between my legs. We take an appointment for the penectomy, and he done it 2 weeks later.
Before the operation i ask to my wife if Im going to conserve a stump of my dick, she ask me, do you want? i reply yes thinking in secret i'll can always masturbate. Probably she listen what i was thinking, and she says me you will see when you'll wake up.
When the day of the penectomy arrived i was afraid, but the anesthetic make effect very fast, and i wake up 2 hours later, the first thing i do was to look my dick, but nothing, no stump, just with a mirror, the surgeon show me a little hole where was my balls and says me, here we are, you're going to urinate by this way, and i don't believe you're going to enjoy the sex now.
My wife was smiling, and says me, then are you happy now? You're an eunuch, but we have forget something, before your castration, we don't have bank some of your sperm, but don't worry, i know a man with a big dick and 2 big balls, i guess he's not going to refuse you the pleasure to put your wife pregnant. My little husband cuckold and eunuch, you're going to enjoy my life if you can't enjoy yours, but it was your fantasy no? I don't reply, I dont feel anything about sex.
The surgeon asks me if i feel well, i reply yes Im ok. At this moment, he take of his pant in my bedroom, and ask to my wife to kiss me, at the same moment, he put his dick in the pussy of my wife, an get an orgasm very strong, when he had finish to ejaculate, my wife took my hand and make me caress her pussy full of sperm, curiously I feel only humiliation, no more erection, this was the beginning of a new lifestyle for me, only humiliation, never pleasure, and never the possibility to come back.
In my head i remember my orgasm, and i miss it, but my wife give me many other pleasures, but with many other men.
Luc
