hi

my castration is scheduled in two weeks time. i can hardly wait, castration is something i have desired for over a year. i wish i had known about the EA that long. this place is a great resource even if during half my visits after reading the non fiction posts or seeing a some of your avatars sympathetic pain kicks in and i go into the fetal position and clutch my groin.

my reasons for being castrated are religious reasons. unlike many on EA i do not dislike my testicles. for the first 23 years of my life i was quite find of boris(R) and squeezy(L). during that time i had sex 20 times a week, polluted my mind with pornography, and could go for 3 session a day if there were no females around. since then i have become a born again Christian. (i am 25 now.) i have been celibate since my conversion but my masturbation and pornography vices continue. i can abstain for about week at a time but on the 6th day of that stretch of repression, even the stick figure on the womans bathroom starts to look good. eventually lust overtakes me and i indulge and have a break in fellowship with God. i feel self indulgence is diametrically opposed to victorious Christian living. i feel castration will assist in focusing me on God, which is my reason for living.

that poses the question: am i becoming a eunuch to become who i felt i always should have been? i would have to say no, i am doing it to be the man i want to be. i guess there isnt much difference but some see one and think i am a candidate to regret my decision later on. some members insist i try chemical castration, i have a number of reasons for not doing so. the most prevalent being that i feel God has lead me into becoming a eunuch and He will not let me down. some admire my faith and others think this is a very dangerous situation.

one eunuch , who i consider a good friend in endeavoring to get me to try chemical castration proposed me this simile; wouldnt you visit the place first that you are planning on living for the rest of your life? i pondered it for about a week and concluded that with my decision im not getting in a cab and saying just take me anywhere away from here. what i am doing is telling the driver to take me to seattle, i like rain, coffee, and not seeing the sun for weeks at a time. what i am saying is that castration is not a mystery to me. there will be lowered sex drive and perminant mental and physical changes. i have studied the laundry list of side effects and noticed, in some aspects they mirror those of a menopausal woman. and as i read up on them i wondered to myself if i would use a tampon or pad to plug up my bloody groin once a month?... oh yeah menopausal women dont get their period anymore, phwew thats a plus... most jokes aside i do know the lifelong consequences of my decision.

my biggest concern mentally is depression. i have never had depression and i do not think i will get depression post op. i am a very strong stable minded fellow. if i had to take that ring from the lord of the rings across middle earth i could slip it on a be totally fine and at some point along the way i would think man this is boring... and golum whatever your name is youre going to have to bring it down a notch sir. anyway i have been proactive and studied depression and am prepared to take it on if it rears its ugly head.

the biggest physical effect will be susceptibility to osteoporosis. i will need to change my diet and lifestyle which will be a plus for my over all health. those are the only 2 i will mention but i know the others possible side effects and will address them as they become prevalent to me. considering the worst the good outweighs the bad. also i do not plan on going ton HRt to keep my sex drive low.

grace and peace

randy

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As a minister, I must advise against castration as a way to be faithful to your perception of God's wishes.

Discipline is paramount in true worship. If you castrate yourself as a way to avoid temptation, you are really cheating yourself out of the richness that sexual relations add to the human experience. And frankly, you are taking the easy way out. Freewill is both a gift and a daily test from God.

i can assure you, God wants you to have sex. At the appropriate time, in the appropriate place.

You mention that you seek fellowship with God. For whatever reason, you seem to believe that sexual urges are inappropriate and will divorce you from God. This can not be true, as God gave you those urges, and with good reason. One of your purposes is to propagate the human species as God has commanded. How can you do this when you are castrated?

I want to be clear about something here: Sex and sexual urges are not vices, nor is masturbation. Sex is not dirty and having sex does not in any way break your communion with God. There are a multitude of reasons why the Judeo/Christian culture has come to think of sex as wrong or bad or dirty, but none of them have anything to do with God.

I cannot be more emphatic about this. DO NOT CASTRATE YOURSELF FOR GOD. I have never met him, and I am not 100% sure of this, but I am pretty darn sure He does not want this for you.

Your friend is correct, if you must do this, go chemically first. Once you lose them, God cannot give them back to you...

I would reccommend chemicle castration even if you are shure this is what you want. Because this is what you want now you may have regrets when you get a little older. PLUS BIG PLUS your urge for sex will be diminishing in not too many years any way. On top of that there are long term health considerations such as osteoporosis to consider. It is your decision for better or worse.

God gave you testicles. Seems kind of poor taste to remove what God gave you as your way to please God. Seems like God would be insulted a bit.

Consider what you're doing. For me it took more than just my desire for castration that made me go through with it. It came in from 3 angles. A perversion I had with young boys (never acted on anything, all in my head), my own desires for castration, and an experience I had during a suicide attempt where I saw God and it didn't accept my testicles into "heaven". The 3 together made me decide it was the right move. That lasted over the course of 5+ years and during that time I experimented with androcur & provera. Kinda funny, my friends were experimenting with weed and other recreation drugs. I played with anti-androgens.

A year of thought doesn't seem like enough to me. I say this because your 25 years old, at your sexual peak, and frustrated with your sexual thoughts. Think of what you'll feel when your 30, 40, 50 years old. Will you feel that you betrayed yourself years of sexual experiences ?

I am 27 years old. 5+ years to make the decision and the decision came from multiple angles and experimentation with anti-androgens. I was castrated by Kimmel when I was 25. I love how I feel and the mental state I've been in. It was the best action I could have made. I'd seriously be dead by now had I not gone through with the castration.

Be absolutely certain you want to do this. Try chemical castration. The drugs are easily available and you have no excuse to not try them. There is no turning back once you get castrated.

Good luck.

The Lurker (imported) wrote: Fri Apr 18, 2008 11:43 pm I want to be clear about something here: Sex and sexual urges are not vices, nor is masturbation. Sex is not dirty and having sex does not in any way break your communion with God. There are a multitude of reasons why the Judeo/Christian culture has come to think of sex as wrong or bad or dirty, but none of them have anything to do with God.

Just to clarify...Judaism is not anti-sex. It's actually mandated that men must please their wives sexually (Orthodox)..

Batman

The first thing that God says to Adam and Eve in the Bible is "Be fruitful and multiply." God is fully in favor of sex, why else would He have gone to so much trouble to make the equipment?

I must say that if you think you know the effects of csatration from reading others accounts and in such a short time you will be very surprised at the reality of your own castration. The written accounts, as good as they are can not convey the reactions your mind and your body will produce. Talking with those who are already castrated can be helpful, but it still takes time to process all the information and to apply it to your personality. The only way to know how it will affect you is a trial run and the only trial run is chemical castration for a suitable time (often longer than a year). My best advice is to go slowly be careful and listen to those of us who have your well being at heart. --FLO--

It does see a little hasty, but best of luck with what ever you decide.. . and if you back out, please post message, don't be embarrassed. Your experience and thoughts will help others decide .

Hello Randy,

You’re getting some excellent advice here from people who really do care and who have your long-term best interests in mind. They know of what they are writing.

Rather than repeat their comments either on faith and castration or on the importance of a “trial run” with chemical castration, I want to add one more piece of, quite different, information to the mix: for males ages 18 to 25, the average frequency of masturbation (or other sexual relsease) is five to twenty times per week. Two-thirds of all normal, healthy males, worldwide, fall within this range. About one-sixth are above and one-sixth below it.

Your reported frequency is right at the high end of the normal range, but is certainly NOT abnormal. Normal aging will bring down the frequency. You’re past your peak testosterone years already.

I'm going to add my 2-cents worth.... You are seeking castration for all the wrong reasons. My guess is that you will find, afterwards, that you will be extremely dissatisfied with the result.