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Desire to become a eunuch!
Posted: Mon Mar 03, 2008 2:46 am
by Xerxes (imported)
I have for several years now liked the idea of being castrated. First it was just a fantasy, but now I belive it would be right for me. I think about it every day, that I really have the desire to become a eunuch and have the cut!
It´s a difficult choice, and I do not feel I have someone to support me in the process. I have a boyfriend that don`t want to talk about it, I can imagine it`s difficult seeing your partner being castrated and become a eunuch.
My boyfriend is a sportsfreak,
and is in the gym or sportsclub most of the time. when he is finished with his sports, theres not much left in the bed.
We have sex about once a week, and mostly I masturbate him. I could do that as eunuch to, I believe.
I really love my boyfriend, but I naturally feel unsatified. So if I became a eunuch there wouldn`t be so much pressure on our relationship, because I wouldn`t be able to have sex the same way anymore. And I think he didn`t have to feel guilty over not giving me enough, because I would be castrated. But he could still be satisfied by me once and a while!
He on the other hand wouldn´t have to worry, that I might start cheating on him, because physical I simply wasn´t able to do it!
And I do want to be a eunuch in the first place, so what`s lost?!
The idea of not being able to perform, is very important for me!
I do not want to be medically castrated. The way I want to become eunuch is surgical and permanent! When I take this big choice to be castrated its important ,that there`s no turning back. When you have been turned into a eunuch, you stay a eunuch!
When I read post in EA about guys that have become eunuchs, I begin to feel jealuos because I have a strong desire to become a eunuch myself.
I am 35 years old now, and i feel I have tried many things in bed, now it`s time for something else!
Just wish I had someone to help me in the decission, and take me by the hand and walk me to the surgeon!
Re: Desire to become a eunuch!
Posted: Mon Mar 03, 2008 7:25 am
by TgEunuch (imported)
Hello Xerxes-
Well this is place to find those have and/or wish to go down the Eunuch path. As for you boyfriend, introduce him to another eunuch and maybe that will change his mind on your wish to be his happy Eunuch. There should be fellow Eunuchs in Scandinavia who should be happy to help you. Are there Dr. Kimmel-like surgeons in Northern Europe?
I know how you feel, I too need someone to hold my hand to be the Nullo I desire to be.
All the Best-WDW
Re: Desire to become a eunuch!
Posted: Mon Mar 03, 2008 8:47 am
by Losethem (imported)
Xeres--
Just remember, this is something you do for yourself because you want it and feel it is proper for you. It should never be done to save any relationship, or as a part of making any single relationship better.
I had many issues with wanting this and being involved with 3 different guys that didn't want me to have it done. After BF number three, I got it done while I was single, and now I find I have no issues finding parnters, and have even found one that likes me for who I am - a eunuch.
For me it was easier to ask for "forgiveness" rather than permission, or put another way, it's easier to come to a relationship as a eunuch, than as an intact male wanting to become a eunuch. If you have already been castrated, that is how the person knows you from the start. This is why I highly advocate people that have this desire to act on it while they are single (if possible), if their goal is to ultimately be in a relationship.
You bring up many valid points, but at the end it is something you need to do because you feel it is right for you.
Re: Desire to become a eunuch!
Posted: Mon Mar 03, 2008 9:50 am
by gpb3aol (imported)
Hello Xeres,
I think you and your boyfriend need to seek out therapy. If he won't even talk about it, your probable going to lose him if you get castrated. Secondly, if lowering you sex drive and libido is your aim, you should try chemical castration. It's very effective in doing that. There are side effects of castration, as you can read in other places in this forum, some of them can be very negitive to some people. Chemical castration allows you to see if you can cope with them before doing it forever.
Just my 2 cents.
Pauline.
Xerxes (imported) wrote: Mon Mar 03, 2008 2:46 am
I have for several years now liked the idea of being castrated. First it was just a fantasy, but now I belive it would be right for me. I think about it every day, that I really have the desire to become a eunuch and have the cut!
It´s a difficult choice, and I do not feel I have someone to support me in the process. I have a boyfriend that don`t want to talk about it, I can imagine it`s difficult seeing your partner being castrated and become a eunuch.
My boyfriend is a sportsfreak,
and is in the gym or sportsclub most of the time. when he is finished with his sports, theres not much left in the bed.
We have sex about once a week, and mostly I masturbate him. I could do that as eunuch to, I believe.
I really love my boyfriend, but I naturally feel unsatified. So if I became a eunuch there wouldn`t be so much pressure on our relationship, because I wouldn`t be able to have sex the same way anymore. And I think he didn`t have to feel guilty over not giving me enough, because I would be castrated. But he could still be satisfied by me once and a while!
He on the other hand wouldn´t have to worry, that I might start cheating on him, because physical I simply wasn´t able to do it!
And I do want to be a eunuch in the first place, so what`s lost?!
The idea of not being able to perform, is very important for me!
I do not want to be medically castrated. The way I want to become eunuch is surgical and permanent! When I take this big choice to be castrated its important ,that there`s no turning back. When you have been turned into a eunuch, you stay a eunuch!
When I read post in EA about guys that have become eunuchs, I begin to feel jealuos because I have a strong desire to become a eunuch myself.
I am 35 years old now, and i feel I have tried many things in bed, now it`s time for something else!
Just wish I had someone to help me in the decission, and take me by the hand and walk me to the surgeon!
Re: Desire to become a eunuch!
Posted: Mon Mar 03, 2008 2:01 pm
by Hash (imported)
Always try chemical castration first! Otherwise you might regret your decision.
Re: Desire to become a eunuch!
Posted: Mon Mar 03, 2008 7:42 pm
by jemagirl (imported)
Hi Xerxes,
Some how it seem that part of your motivation is about saving the relationship with your boyfriend, but this is really a decision you should make of your own accord for no one other than yourself. If you do it for the relationship and then the relationship fails, you will likely regret your decision. So I have to agree with others here about trying it out via chemical castration first. After all if you like it you can always do it for permanent later if that is really what you want.
Re: Desire to become a eunuch!
Posted: Tue Mar 04, 2008 8:51 am
by Xerxes (imported)
To all above!!
Hey sweet people, thanks for your advices, they are all wise!
I have had similar thoughts myself!
I think I do want the castration, because deep inside I want to become a true eunuch.
Ofcourse there are sideeffects, but if you feel its right for you to be castrated isn´t the sideeffects secondary?! How can one life live with an unforfilled desire?
The question is, how can you be 110% sure about surgery. I feel strongly about it, and I think when the operation is done, it will be a relief, because now it`s done and you do not have to speculate any longer!
when you have this urge to become eunuch and think about it every day, How can it be wrong?!
Just a question on the path to become a eunuch!
Love Xerxes
Re: Desire to become a eunuch!
Posted: Tue Mar 04, 2008 10:46 am
by kennath7 (imported)
That’s exactly how I felt
Finely I just got so fed up with always wanting fulfillment and never getting it
Before the operation I asked my self that very same question (
Xerxes (imported) wrote: Tue Mar 04, 2008 8:51 am
how can you be 110% sure about surgery
) even after I sent in my 1000.00 deposit I wanted to be sure
I decided to just dive in no matter how cold the water was because I knew I would keep trying either ending up in the ER or dead
Now I can look forward treating each day like getting a prize in that it may be good
And also that it may be bad but that’s how life works any way
But only you know what’s best for you
Good luck
Re: Desire to become a eunuch!
Posted: Tue Mar 04, 2008 12:40 pm
by homptydumpty (imported)
Xerxes (imported) wrote: Mon Mar 03, 2008 2:46 am
I have for several years now liked the idea of being castrated. First it was just a fantasy, but now I belive it would be right for me. I think about it every day, that I really have the desire to become a eunuch and have the cut!
Just wish I had someone to help me in the decission, and take me by the hand and walk me to the surgeon!
Hi Xerxes~ reading your post stimulates a bit of emotion for me. I want to urge you to make a list of pros and cons pre and post op, if you have not already done so. Also, think of all the things if any you enjoy about your curent body, and then think of things you might enjoy about the eunuch body.
Are you ready to live a life of LOW hormones? Will you over come the depression, lose of energy, decreased sex drive, hot flashes, muscle mass decrease & over all shock of the procedure?! Also do you love you current boyfriend? would the lose of your relationship with him and possibly others be something you would sacrifice for becoming a eunuch?
If you still feel the castration is the only valid option for you, then by all means do what you must do for happiness. As far as having some one to walk you threw the surgery, look around, there are others like you who would be happy to be a friend to help you. I think you know what i mean~
Re: Desire to become a eunuch!
Posted: Wed Mar 05, 2008 12:36 pm
by Kangan (imported)
Xerxes (imported) wrote: Tue Mar 04, 2008 8:51 am
I think I do want the castration, because deep inside I want to become a true eunuch.
Ofcourse there are sideeffects, but if you feel its right for you to be castrated isn´t the sideeffects secondary?! How can one life live with an unforfilled desire?
The question is, how can you be 110% sure about surgery. I feel strongly about it, and I think when the operation is done, it will be a relief, because now it`s done and you do not have to speculate any longer!
when you have this urge to become eunuch and think about it every day,
My feelings exactly. I still have my balls, but they don't work any more. I still want to get them removed surgically, so that there will be physical proof of my castration.