becoming a eunuch

[philip1 (imported)]

spoke to my mom today and things are smoothing out the hysteria has passed and the calm questions can now be asked and answered there are many they have and i am glad they haven't written me off as a son

[JesusA (imported)]

Phil,

If you hadn't been preparing your mother for this, I can well imagine her reacting in shock and horror at what you'd done. It will take some time and gentle conversation to demonstrate to her that what you did was not only rational but the best possible way for you to improve your quality of life. A parent's love will bring her to understanding, but it may take a while.

Best wishes in the effort,

Jesus

[philip1 (imported)]

This journey has been an interesting one, the experiences good and bad have taught me many things

. The most important thing this journey has taught me is life is too valuable to toss in the waste bin. In December I experienced one of the darkest times of my life. I became depressed early in the month but not too bad I thought I could handle it. Soon I was spiraling into a suicidal hole and I was entertaining thoughts of killing myself. one day I scared myself when I said out loud "Why not just end it now" that convinced me that I was DEFINATELY NOT in controll. that verry minute I put away my gun (yes I have a gun and it was loaded at the time) and hid my bullets so at least I'd be forced to make some noise trying to find them so someone could stop me. Thankfully I had Bubba keeping a terrified eye on me so I couldn't do anything stupid. The reasons for the depression don't matter the truth that it will happen to some extent to anyone

that is castrated is the reason I wrote this up

. I hope this helps those out there who are recently castrated or considdering it to be aware that they need someone to keep a close watch on them as this could KILL them as it nearly did me.

P.S. Jesus this is the addition I heald back

[farharbour (imported)]

But have you felt better after getting castrated? Has it helped?

[JesusA (imported)]

Phil,

I'm glad you added the note on DEPRESSION. It can be serious, and it can kill. Doctors and psychologists have long known that a sudden decrease in estrogen can trigger severe depression in post-menopausal woman. What's only recently become known is that sudden decrease in testosterone can do the same in men.

Knowing in advance of the potential problem can do much toward controling it. Your first-hand account may help a number of people to avoid what you went through.

Thank you for being willing to share this.

Jesus

[DrewR (imported)]

Uhm, Phil, I like to think you're braced for a wave of post partum depression over the second testicle and that losing the gun might be a good idea.

[philip1 (imported)]

I am posting today because I am happy. I'm happy Bubba loves me I'm happy that I have a home and a job that pays the bills that I have.

I am also hopefull i am hopefull that Bubba will get the job he wants and I am hopefull that my parents will understand me better after I talk to them this saturday.

When I count my blessings I run out of time and fingers before I run out of blessings. this tells me that life is good and I have been very blessed in every way.

[sag111 (imported)]

Phill you have been blessed because you have a love for others and that shows you also are like me happy to be the person you always wanted to be and that makes me very happy for you.I am glad to have you as my friend thats one of my blessings .

[philip1 (imported)]

today

I had my long awaited rational talk with my parents.

Things went really well. I informed them of conditions they both are going through and I think they both realized that I have really done my reserch and have studied this thouroughly and really do know what the hell I'm talking about. They both have agreed with my reasoning for having this procedure done and we are now on the same page as far as emotions. I am glad they were willing to let me say what had to be said and reserve judgement till i had finished what I had to say. The only thing they wished I had done differently was include them earlier but they both said that they think they would have drawn the same conclusion as I did in the end.

[philip1 (imported)]

Once again I remind my self that I am the exception not the rule I was blessed with rapid healing a loving genuinely caring family and friends that really do care. Please do not consid

der my story the norm

there is no norm in the case of castration. Every one is different every case is different. you need to think about everyone in your life before you take this step as it will affect them good or bad. I have said this many times in the past castration is not for everyone, do your reserch, ask your self will this be a benefit or a detriment to my life and most of all how will this change my life good or bad. If there is one iota of doubt DO NOT DO IT!!!! I was fortunate enough to have no doubts

but if I had one even a twinge I would have stopped. so consid

der things carefully before you make any "life changing" decisions about your body or anything else in your life