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Re: My second chem castration trial
Posted: Sat Jun 29, 2019 3:00 am
by sprbggr (imported)
Hi Erikboy I was wondering if you still drink alcohol. I tried Androcur for a short time but it did not help to much. I read that alcohol can block the affect of Androcur. For the liver it is probably better not to drink but I was wondering if it had any influence in real life on the working of the Androcur.
Re: My second chem castration trial
Posted: Sat Jun 29, 2019 5:49 am
by erikboy (imported)
T +45
Important update!
So I got results from lab. I am actually castrated! My T is 17ng/dL!!!
Drop has been magnificient. From around 600 to 17. The strange thing is that
couldn't resist and had to masturbate yesturday after 13 days of abstinence.
Among others, my PSA has dropped 4 times! It wasn't critical before I started, but seems like castration helps me to avoid prostate cancer.
Also, it seems like my endocrine gonadotropine axis system is shutting down as well, as FSH and LH were twice as low as minimum.
My sleep has improved. And my D vitamin level are very healthy now. Also Cholesterole went down, well below treshhold.
This is absolutely cool! Confirmed eunuch.
I remember that as a preteen boy I used to masturbate almost every week, or every other week. I wonder if this is somehow related to "not feeling castrated enough".
And - I don't drink at all.
Re: My second chem castration trial
Posted: Sun Jun 30, 2019 7:34 am
by notsomanly (imported)
erikboy (imported) wrote: Sat Jun 29, 2019 5:49 am
T +45
Important update!
So I got results from lab. I am actually castrated! My T is 17ng/dL!!!
Drop has been magnificient. From around 600 to 17. The strange thing is that
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erikboy (imported) wrote: Sat Jun 29, 2019 5:49 am
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I don't feel castrated enough. I
couldn't resist and had to masturbate yesturday after 13 days of abstinence.
Among others, my PSA has dropped 4 times! It wasn't critical before I started, but seems like castration helps me to avoid prostate cancer.
Also, it seems like my endocrine gonadotropine axis system is shutting down as well, as FSH and LH were twice as low as minimum.
My sleep has improved. And my D vitamin level are very healthy now. Also Cholesterole went down, well below treshhold.
This is absolutely cool! Confirmed eunuch.
I remember that as a preteen boy I used to masturbate almost every week, or every other week. I wonder if this is somehow related to "not
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feeling castrated enough".
And - I don't drink at all.
Most people report that the desire to masturbate can take a while to happen.
Re: My second chem castration trial
Posted: Sat Jul 06, 2019 1:02 am
by tobi24876 (imported)
hey erikboy,
how are you now? Would love a status update or is this a case of "having no desire to deal with anything sexual anymore" that I've heard about happening after a while on chemical castration?
Planning my own androcur trial, so I'm naturally curious
Re: My second chem castration trial
Posted: Mon Jul 08, 2019 2:21 pm
by erikboy (imported)
T +55 (almost)
I've been super busy for the last ten days. That is the reason of no posts.
It seems like there is nothing to report. But that is not true. I still suffer from a lot from tiredness. I get tired very easy. I need much more rest and I get all wet very easy when I am physically active. And I am active. I am weaker. That is all negative side. It all makes me feel very old instead of feeling boyish.
Of emotional side, it is more difficult to pull myself together. And handle problematic situations with people. Which I need to do. Sometimes I feel that I want to stop and vanish. And I don't know if I want to see any people anymore, or I want to stop chem castration. But I don't feel any depression.
One more thing is that I feel my positive side is much less active. It is harder for me to get excited about something... exciting. When someone say: Look, thats a cool thing, I just replay: Okay. Or say something very dull and turn away. Like a very old man would say.
So last time I masturbated 3 days in a row, but after that I haven't had even a thought that I might want to masturbate. And that is now a week ago since last masturbation. I don't feel like I need to masturbate yet. Mostly because I am very tired when opportunity arrives.
Of positive side, brainfog is almost gone.
I reduced my androcur intake from 100mg to 50mg 4 days ago.
Testicular atrophy continues to progress. Now my testicles are 24ml each.
Today morning I had first morning wood over a more than a month period.
When I see someone attractive, I still enjoy the view, but I don't have to fight these stupid urges that are gone.
Oh, and a big question, can eunuchs fall in love? Yes they can! May be not into such an immersing love that takes the last logical thinking ability, but it still feels like a platonic love. No sex involved or needed. Just experienced that.
And Tobi, my sexual thoughts are gone. It might feel bizarre that when they are gone you don't notice they are gone. It is hard to remember how it felt to have sexual thoughts. I feel freedom. But that comes with a cost I just described above. And I am not sure I want to feel like a very old man for the rest of my days.
Re: My second chem castration trial
Posted: Mon Jul 08, 2019 6:31 pm
by Chesleyt (imported)
I was on paxil for 2 decades and it's made me a sexual eunuch I don't get sexually excited looking at others or sexual thoughts I'm physically castrated but in trt and still don't have a libido I do masterbate occasionally for prostate health but find it hard to get excited I have to take Cialis daily for my prostate and ed. I have none of the bad side effects of chemical castration and all the benefits of being mentally castrated and even though I'm not longer on paxil the effects are permanent. So paxil gives you the benefits of being castrated and you get to keep your balls. I wish I still had mine but it was medically necessary to loose them.
Re: My second chem castration trial
Posted: Tue Jul 09, 2019 10:23 am
by notsomanly (imported)
erikboy (imported) wrote: Mon Jul 08, 2019 2:21 pm
T +55 (almost)
I've been super busy for the last ten days. That is the reason of no posts.
It seems like there is nothing to report. But that is not true. I still suffer from a lot from tiredness. I get tired very easy. I need much more rest and I get all wet very easy when I am physically active. And I am active. I am weaker. That is all negative side. It all makes me feel very old instead of feeling boyish.
Of emotional side, it is more difficult to pull myself together. And handle problematic situations with people. Which I need to do. Sometimes I feel that I want to stop and vanish. And I don't know if I want to see any people anymore, or I want to stop chem castration. But I don't feel any depression.
One more thing is that I feel my positive side is much less active. It is harder for me to get excited about something... exciting. When someone say: Look, thats a cool thing, I just replay: Okay. Or say something very dull and turn away. Like a very old man would say.
So last time I masturbated 3 days in a row, but after that I haven't had even a thought that I might want to masturbate. And that is now a week ago since last masturbation. I don't feel like I need to masturbate yet. Mostly because I am very tired when opportunity arrives.
Of positive side, brainfog is almost gone.
I reduced my androcur intake from 100mg to 50mg 4 days ago.
Testicular atrophy continues to progress. Now my testicles are 24ml each.
Today morning I had first morning wood over a more than a month period.
When I see someone attractive, I still enjoy the view, but I don't have to fight these stupid urges that are gone.
Oh, and a big question, can eunuchs fall in love? Yes they can! May be not into such an immersing love that takes the last logical thinking ability, but it still feels like a platonic love. No sex involved or needed. Just experienced that.
And Tobi, my sexual thoughts are gone. It might feel bizarre that when they are gone you don't notice they are gone. It is hard to remember how it felt to have sexual thoughts. I feel freedom. But that comes with a cost I just described above. And I am not sure I want to feel like a very old man for the rest of my days.
I wonder if some of your loss of energy and interest in things is an early sign of depression due to lack of T. I'm two weeks into my current Androcur trial and the freedom from sexual thoughts or desire to masturbate is even more profound than the first trial a year ago. This time there's no shortness of breath or loss of physical or mental energy. I've never felt better and this is how I want to be for the rest of my life. I think taking estradiol and progesterone may be responsible.
I haven't experienced falling in love with a new person since ridding myself of T, but I'm as in love with my wife as ever. It's great not having any sexual attractions for other women and I'm quite sure she appreciates it too. Others on this site have expressed the opinion that sex and love are distinctly different things and I agree. Sex may be a big part of forming a loving relationship between people who both have the drive, but if the love already exists, then removing sex doesn't change anything, as long as the partner doesn't want sex either.
Re: My second chem castration trial
Posted: Tue Jul 09, 2019 9:46 pm
by tobi24876 (imported)
Thank you both erikboy and notsomanly for sharing your experiences! It's good to have the pros and cons at hand when deciding for a trial... and despite some of negative side effects being quite nasty, I decided to go for it and have a try.
I think I will share my experience in a separate threat.
Re: My second chem castration trial
Posted: Wed Jul 10, 2019 3:00 pm
by erikboy (imported)
T +57
Chesley, I feel absolutely no sign of depression. During my first trial, there were "thin" moments, but now I feel solid being castrated beside intact men. Sometimes it is even funny, as I know they might have troubles with libido.
It is interesting that with Raloxifene my initial joint pains are gone. Hopefully my bone health is ok too.
Since my last masturbation over a week ago I have lost interest even to get hard. May be it will take more time now. It doesn't feel exciting even, that I have lost so much interest.
I still wake up all soaked and get random hot flashes. But it seems like it happens less frequently. My skin has become very dry, which feels even annoying at times. Brain fog is almost gone. Perhaps it was related to Androcur specific effects, as I am currently on 50mg per day for about a week. Also sleep is not so bad as anymore. But my sleep is still not as good as before castration.
tobi, please keep us informed how your castration progresses. YMWV - Your Mileage Will Vary. We all have very different experiences with castration effects. It is interesting to read other people experiences.
Re: My second chem castration trial
Posted: Fri Jul 12, 2019 2:42 pm
by erikboy (imported)
T +59
It is interesting that my libido is even less noticeable than 2 weeks ago. Now I can say that I feel castrated enough, only it feels kind of normal. There is no special "castrated" feeling. Perhaps during my first trial my T levels dropped faster and from much higher level, so the difference was much more noticeable somehow.
When I am not tired or exhausted, I feel quite normal. Only there is almost no sexual thoughts, impulses or responses in me. Which again feels normal. Nothing much to pay attention to.
Despite I am not gaining weight, I am noticing fat gain on my belly and waist. Also my penis looks very small. The only half erection happened in the morning few days ago. I haven't even tried to get it hard. It feels like there is no need for that.
Of the negative side, I have lost ability to run. If I try, I run like an old man. I can not run fast.
It is now almost 2 months since I started. I can recommend 2 months as a minimum trial time. As changes go on, even now. Despite I have planned 3 month run, I might stop at 2,5month mark. I want my stamina and good sleep back and get rid of belly fat. We'll see. May be it gets better without stopping. As I do not have joint pains nor do I have muscle pains, which I attribute to high D vitamine level and Raloxifene.