Makes sense in my case!

russianboy (imported) wrote: Wed Jun 20, 2018 8:56 am If I will want to father children???

So although I was perfectly capable of biologically producing a child until very recently, I chose not to. I have raised 4 children, fostered, and now am a youth leader to boys aged 12 to 17, many of whom do not have a "father" in their life. Only last night a boy called me to say he was stuck with a broken bike. I was his first call. Being a father isnt anything to do with planting your seed in a female. My step kids all come to me first, not their biological father. I have "fathered" many children and continue to do so. You can be a real father any time you choose! There are lots of wonderful children out there desperate for you to make that decision!

I like that term "The inner feminine desire" it explains what I have always felt. I believe my male mind never fully developed. I have had that inner female yearning to find a way out for as long as I can remember. I think this is what feeds my desire to have something other than male genitals.

Never had any shame or regret of becoming nullo. As to the inner desire, I've never wanted to be either or perhaps always wanted to be both. I know we are all female in the beginning of female development and for some testosterone becomes introduced to develop the fetus into male. I've never had a hangup towards one or the other but never wanted to be either.

I can understand the desire to not be either gender. Hopefully someday soon becoming what form of non-binary gender one feels they are will be much easier.

I am different to you all, as my regret is that I did NOT become a feminised eunuch/nullo in my teens!

I feel that is too late to transition now, being in my late 70s with a stable family life. Would not want to upset that, as it would cause too much hurt all around.

However, if I was young now, I could see myself flying the family nest and joining the eunuch community somewhere.

Just putting the regret bit the other way around for this thread.

Justine77 & Begoneboy, both your lifestyles appear to be the type of existence that I would strive for.

Lesley.

I’m forty seven next month and my biggest regret is not starting down this path years ago, the younger the better.

I only started taking anti androgens four months ago and I’m still a long way from making any permanent changes, but already I feel ‘right’ after enduring years of mental anguish…

I am happy - which is not something I ever thought I’d say.

I have done an Androcur trial and I came to a same conclusion like a thread starter did. I would have had similar insecurities and aspects of life as an eunuch, but still I would have chosen becoming an eunuch. And my life had been more enjoyable as an eunuch, if I look back on it. But now, at this age that I am already feeling my testosterone levels dropping fast, I feel like I am past the eunuch prime time in my life. I don't feel like I would have much to gain from becoming an eunuch now. I have hesitated too long, being indecisive makes me regret. I could have coped with all setbacks related to low T and enjoyed myself being special and being myself. Now if I look back, it seems it would have been best if I was castrated sometime in my early twenties or even earlier, if I had all the knowledge about castration and eunuchdom I have now. But even if I hadn't, I think I still had quite a happy eunuch life thanks to EA.

I suspect Justin77 enjoying the youth part of this all and myself now enjoying the not quite so young part of it all is a great example of how the span of time between Eunuch demonstrates very well that this is beyond generational. While I became Eunuch in my early thirties and now just turned 60 I can truly feel the excitement Justine77 is going through at the beginning of the journey through life as a Eunuch. Yes, Lesley may have hit on something. A feminised nullo is not something many strive for nor I in the beginning. But that having happened through the evolution of life has actually been welcome and if I could begin in my life again I would become nullo at a much earlier age than I did. Perhaps not pre puberty but for sure in the 20s rather than the thirties.

Hi, being castrated in my early twenties worked out well for me. At the time I IDed as feminine androgyne so after I'd adapted to being nutless my status as a feminized eunuch fitted closely to how I felt myself to be internally. If I had known this earlier I would have looked to be cut at 18. I never considered myself particularly male but I don't think of myself as female either. I'd say a bit of both with something else which is neither. Feminized eunuch is exactly right for me. Justine x