Thanks for the compliments, everyone. I am thrilled with the HRT results that I have recieved so far and the way I feel. I feel lucky to get the results I'm seeing from the HRT at age 41!

Hi Stacy,

You're looking good Girl!

You'll find that the changes really start after about 6 months or so, but because we see ourselves in the mirror everyday, we may not necessarily pick up on them. You might find it helpful to keep a photo diary of yourself and update it about every 6 weeks or so with new photos taken from the same view point and prospective every time. It will make a good point of comparison and is a good way of keeping track along the way.

Over this past weekend, I went back and looked at a number of photos of me that were taken back 4-1/2 years ago and I was shocked at the difference between the way I looked then and now. Believe it or not I actually look younger today than I did then and it's almost like looking at a different person. I couldn't believe that was actually me in the photos and I was 52 years old when I started HRT.

Stay the course and be strong. It will happen for you too.

I've written to you about how good you look and you do. You are also fortunate in that your facial structure is naturally towards the feminine end of the spectrum. Erica Ann makes a good point about keeping a photo history as you progress. It is very hard to notice changes when we look at ourselves every day. Last week, I look at my 'old' passport photo. That was taken about a year before I transitioned. I can hardly beleive now that the face on that passport once belonged to me.

You're also still relatively young, although it may not seem that way to you. You have a long future ahead to enjoy the benefits of transitioning. I have no doubt you will do well, despite whatever hurdles you encounter along the way. You've got a lot going for you.

Hugs,

Danya

Well, It's been almost 5 months on HRT and I have noticed that body hair is definately getting thinner and growing more slowly. I have been loosing weight from my lower face and neck.

My wife has noticed that something is up and told a friend that she thinks I'm having an affair which breaks my heart for her to think and feel that. It scares me to death but I am building up the resolve to tell her everything within the next 30 days. I can no longer justify keeping this from her and the guilt eats at me more every day along with the push of the GID to push forward.

I'm sure this will be one of the most painfull things of my life but I must maintain the courage to do do the right thing by her and myself. It will be the best thing in the long run but it's really going to suck in the short term for both of us. I know I will be going where she won't be able to follow so she needs to start the "rest of her life" while she is still young and attractive.

It kills me to think of her with another man but if she's not with me, I want her to be happy and not lonely. It literally makes me sick at my stomach to think about all this as I write it. It makes me reconsider what I'm doing but I know I would only be postponing the inevitable so I guess NOW is better than 5 or ten years from now, for everyone.

I have an appointment with a doc and endo and it will be the first time (besides my therapist) that I talk with a professional with an open discussion about being trans. It's nerve wracking but I guess I better get used to that kind of stuff.

Things are progressing well with the business I plan doing full time in the future. I have landed a major internatonal account which makes that business even more viable as a future full time job. Right now, we are having to slow down and avoid taking any new customers as we fill a major order and get caught up on some other things like putting together a more efficient manufacturing space that can handle expanded growth.

So, that's my update for now. Life is crazy but manageable and I look forward to ending this 2 month stint in South Texas so I can get back to my third business and make some money for laser treatments and "other" things

Thank you everyone for your encouragement and support and feel free to email me at stacybeaumont at gmail dot com if you would like. If anyone else out there is dealing with GID issues and needs to chat with someone else in the same boat, feel free to contact me and I will be glad to share anything that I have figured out along the way...

Hugs, Stacy

Good luck, Stacy!! (You're definitely gonna need it.)

Some women hate it even more when they learn "the other woman" is actually your secret identity.

You are looking wonderful my friend.

When you have that talk with your wife, don't forget to listen as well. Keep an open mind just as you hope she will.

Remember that a marriage is more than a sex contract. You are still the same person she fell in love with. She will just know more about you than before. She may accept you as you are or even like it. Give her time and a chance to come to grips with this revelation.

I finally had my appointment with the doctor that my therapist set me up with and as I was hoping, I walked out with legit scripts for estrace, spiro and finasteride. I was nervous at first to talk openly about being TG around yet another person that I just met but, he seemed very caring and compassionate and seemed 100% on board with my goal.

He didn't have any experience in prescribing HRT but I guided him through common dosages. I was taking E injections and I wanted to switch to pills since it seems like the shots hurt more each time. He ordered blood tests to evaluate E & T levels as well as prolactin and others. He did say he wanted me to see a specialist within 6 months to look over everything. There is a gender clinic in Galveston so that wont be a problem.

I'm not sure if the therapist sent him a letter but I wasnt asked to sign an informed consent or anything like that. I also told him that I had done a series of ethyl alcohol injectios to destoy the testicles. He seemed concerned and said it sounded painful and that I should just have them removed if I want to get rid of them that bad. It was kind of funny the way he mentioned several times, "that must have hurt!". lol It's kind of funny to see a doctor get a little squeemish.....

So far, it has all gone much easier than I ever imagined. I now have a legit script for estrace, spiro and proscar.

You told him about the nut shots?

Stacy,

-Have to wish you the best of luck on your new life venture. This is the first time that I stumbled upon this thread. (I have to go around the new porn restrictions to enter this site.) Anyway I'm still here and every so often I try to catch up on what's going on. My life venture has been so different than most others here since I was basically mostly neuter from the very beginning. However what I do know is that you are now basically having to deal with a life in a manmade limbo -neither being totally male or totally female as society seems to want you to be. This is actually the harder part of what you'd be going through than of just becoming feminine. Most of my social woes have actually been from lesbians. It may be that we are so similar and also brought up despising ourselves on top of that. Many gender related comments from now on you'll just have to roll up your eyes and bite your toungue at. Believe me you may start noticing them if you haven't already. And these often times really hurt bad but you'll just have to let them go. One story that I can tell right off the bat is the one where I mentioned to a co-worker of mine that I liked Shania Twain's music. She went off on a lengthy rant that I was just a stupid male and I just liked watching her body just like any other male, -but I had never seen her on television at that point and besides I had no testosterone either. How was I to argue with her so I had to let it go as I've had to do with many an other cheap shot throughout my life. If you get to where you do not have to shave that also perplexes a lot of women too somehow, believe it or not. Out-soprano all the ladies in the church choir? ah, we won't go into that one. And then conversely all the men that you may work with will treat you like you're too young to know anything. And you may notice some of them throwing stuff at you a little harder than they would to each other and in other ways trying to get you flinch, be uneasy and so forth. You've been labeled a "softy" (and other words) which is worse to them than if you were gay. They may even show off their hard dick saying, "I bet you don't have of these!" Anyway these are some of the hard things that you'll have to deal with and be able let go of during your life's venture. Good luck.

Caith721 (imported) wrote: Fri May 20, 2011 3:00 am You told him about the nut shots?

I have actually told my therapist and my new tg friendly doctor about doing the injections because I wanted to be totally honest with them. I described it as a "series of intratesticular injections of a sclerosing agent comprised of95% pure ethel alcohol." I figured that sounded more sane than "nut shots with everclear".

My new doc is male and I had to laugh a bit when he said "that must have hurt" 3 or four times. He asked why I hadn't just had them removed and I told him that that isn't something easily done without a letter from a therapist and that I wasn't seeing a therapist for all this yet.

I think the most important thing is that at least for a TS person, it is seen as a sign that you are in extreme discomfort to do something so unthinkable. And I can tell you, the nut shots ARE unthinkable for most people and even other M2F's find it shocking.