Tugon,

How did you ever know that I find brown-eyed men so attractive?

Right now, I'm not sure how to handle these feelings I have for men. Within the next 4 - 7 weeks, I expect to start transitioning, that is presenting as Danya at work and in all other areas of my life. I'm still finding I'm strongly attracted, sexually, to men and I don't know what to do about it, if anything.

Many transsexuals (and I really dislike this term - it's not about sex [plumbing], it's very much about gender [who we feel ourselves to be whether masculine or feminine or somewhere in between] - unfortunately, I think most instantly know what I mean if I say transsexual) feel uncomfortable dating because they're not happy with the plumbing part and don't want anyone to touch them intimately. Others are afraid of being rejected.

Some solve this problem through phone chat. I really want a live human, male or eunuch attracted to females would work, to at least hold me and cuddle. I'd love to have sex. Some transsexuals find that they can successfully date other TGs. I'm going to talk with my therapist to get ideas on where to find such people. Other TS's, who pass well, play what can be a dangerous game of going to straight bars and flirting with men.

I'm not lonely but for the first time in my life feel complete as a person. A therapist once told me, years ago, that I had a very two-dimensional personality. At first, I wasn't really sure exactly what he meant and when I did get it (flat and incomplete), I didn't see anyway to change things. I don't think anyone would say that I'm not very three-dimensional now.

So many people notice this difference. I feel the real possibility, for the first time in my life, of being loved for who I truly am and being able to fully love in return.

This morning, I was substitute organist at a church where I noticed a man who was very clearly gender congruent. I'm kind of making this terminology up. What I mean is, he seemed to so effortlessly blend his own masculine perception of his gender with his sexuality. He was really handsome besides. I was strongly attracted to him.

I hope you meet the man of your dreams. I am glad you will become the person of your dreams.

I wish you the best, it is hard progressing and the body changes to take effect, however after everything is stabilized hormones, and the receptors in the body you should be feeling very well, I do not see why you could not easily progress in a relationship with such a delightful personality.

I wish you the best of luck with continued progression as I am sure you will be feeling more progress with time as well as being on the hormone therapy you have, and just like female to male trangression male to female as well takes a lot of time and patience.

Again good luck and best of wishes!!

Dancinggizmos,

I really appreciate your input and very kind comments. There are lots of really nice, cool people on the Archive like you. I hope you find this to be as comfortable a place as I have.

-Danya