Erikboy

I have read all your posts about chemical castration.

Like you I have also been through a six month trial, my first one to test myself, is this really what I want or just a fantasy. I did experience basically all the effects you described, especially as you in detail listed in in your second trial.

http://forums.eunuch.org/showthread.php ... highlight=

I liked the calmness, being able to focus, actually being able to focus of things that matter to me. Sure tiredness and insomnia were annoying, as well as hot flashes, which luckily for me, was in the more light end of the scale. Night sweating sure, had to change t shirt quite a few nights, but it passed...

I have embarked out on my second trial now, yesterday I took the first Androcur pill, 100mg. which marks the beginning of my second phase.

I plan on staying on this daily dosis then after the effects have stabilized, then lower a bit. However chemical castration drugs are harsh on the liver, so continuing doing this is not healthy in the long run...which means I most likely will end taking measures to make it permanent.

Sorry for posting here, but reading your story just made me so happy and made me think about my own situation.

I wish you the best and will continue to follow your progress

Best

WanToBe

Hi Wantobe, I did not notice this post earlier.

It is heart warming that my posts about my personal experience have been useful in some way

The start of my third trial was emotionally driven. I wanted back to be chemcastrated again so badly that I started with leftover supplies from previous trial without patience before the rest of the supply arrived.

My sex drive was annoying me again great deal, so I did not put much thinking into negative side effects that certainly will return and they did return. Particularily annoying was insomnia. But I remember that by the end of second trial I became more accustomed to my insomnia, and that it was particularily bad starting from second week lasting for 1,5 months. I stopped actually after completing 4 smonths. Androcur wasn't good on me. I can not specify what exactly was bad, but I felt relieved after it got out of me. I checked some of my liver parameters and they were slightly in yellow. Out of normal. Can't remember exact parameters now. Another nuisance was being out of breath very easy. I literally wasn't able to run more than 100m. Also any physical activity made ma all wet very easy. Nice thing was that wetness was quite watery. Insomnia is the main thing that holds me back from taking another plunge. It was really nasty to spend a whole night in my bed holding myself in bed only with willpower. As being in that half awake condition still offerend at least some rest.

Now I think that may be I start another trial in spring again for 6 months. All through the most beautiful and active time of the year. Last year I remember there was a nice small party in the summer, and there were people who I would have been sexually attracted to and had to resist my "urges" if I had not been chemcastrated, it felt so nice to be immune to sexual signals. One woman who I work together actually noticed change in me, but she wasn't able to point what it was exactly. She said that I looked much happier this summer than earlier summers. And this summer when my chemcastration plans failed, she said that old me was back. This can not be coincidence.

Of the positive side my castration trials led me to understanding that I will not fall into depression like many do. I do not gain fat, at least not fast. I do not develope breasts, at least not large.

I am also thinking of taking physical route. Quite a lot. But there is one personal thing not letting me do this right away. But otherwise I am mentally ready for that. Physically having no balls is a thing I have dreamt since my teens. I want to experience that. I've had my balls for quite a long time, and if they go I only embrace the new ballless era in my life. I used to be worried what if someone discovers I have no balls. Well, that was actually a pseudo problem. Even if I go to public showers or pools or saunas and someone suspects there is something wrong with my balls... Well, it is not my problem. Normal people just wouldn't talk or ask. And even if they ask, I could tell any medical story. And I suspect that as castrated I care even less what other people think about my balls or ballessness.

Hmm.. one thing still worries me. I noticed that at longer castration run life became less exciting for me. Things that used to make "wow" were not so exciting for me anymore. But then again, I can start T replacement any time.

These are the thoughts after reading your post. I hope your trial goes well and I would love to read about your experiences.

I'm planning to try to get Medroxyprogesterone Acetate soon, but legally. i live in your country.

Antisexual (imported) wrote: Fri Dec 18, 2020 9:13 pm I'm planning to try to get Medroxyprogesterone Acetate soon, but legally. i live in your country.

good luck in your trial

erikboy (imported) wrote: Wed Apr 08, 2020 7:04 am T +6 or a full week now.

It looks like every chemcastration trial feels different.

Changes so far:

Erections: no daytime and morning erections. Last one was 2 days ago. It takes more time and effort to get hard. Also, my penis is much less responsive. Porn wouldn't make it hard. It needs manual stimulation to get hard.

Orgasm: yesturday I had none. 2 days ago 1 orgsm, 3 days ago 2 orgasms, 4 days ago 3 orgasms. Yesturday I tried to have an orgasm, but I gave up. We'll see what coming days will bring.

Sex-drive: it isn't gone yet, but is readuced. I don't feel that constant buzz anymore, that is nice.

negative effects:

insomnia started on third day. I just couldn't fall asleep. When I close my eyes, my brain starts to generate various and very different images, while they are clear and detailed. Like a crazy cartoon. But today I somehow managed to sleep quite well.

I started to experience muscle weakness about 2 days ago. It is like I want to run up the staircase like I usually do, but then I notice my muscles barely handle that and become little painful.

I feel slower when I walk, but I try to upkeep my previous pace.

About tiredness... There is something different, but I haven't experienced any real tiredness. Mostly related to a bad sleep.

There were brief moments of brainfog, but it disapeared.

hot flashes: I don't consider them negative, as they aren't too bad. I've had only warm waves starting from day 2. None yesturday. And serious cold shiver 3 days ago. My temperature regulation has gotten worse, that is for sure.

Previously, before I started Androcur, I complained breast tenderness and growth. Tenderness is gone now.

erikboy (imported) wrote: Wed Apr 08, 2020 7:04 am 586009040]
I have been physically very active

last weeks. It is almost like a training what I do. It would sound crazy, but I have lost 4kg of weight with the help of changing my eating times. We'll see how I manage loose weight as eunuch. But my blood pressure is little lower now and my heart rate is slower. Ideally I want to loose 10 more kg. So, there is some room for loosing weight. I have done that before. So I know it wont be easy to keep regimen of eating. And forcing myself out of house. Probably my motivation gets weaker. We'll see how I cope with that.
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But otherwise I am happy and try to enjoy all the effects.

could you please share your exercise plan

@Erikboy.

I second that,

dreamwatcher (imported) wrote: Sun Dec 20, 2020 11:43 am please share your exercise plan,

and timetable for food, losing 4 kilos seems impressive, when on the pill to lower your T.

I have struggled for many years to keep my weight down (Since I got married actually..)

I also experienced breathlessness when on Androcur that was especially bad when my wife went camping at high altitude. I never experienced insomnia, but I knew that I didn't want to stay on Androcur indefinitely. Having low sex drive was wonderful, as was loss of body hair (other than more hair on the top of my head) and that wonderful eunuch calm. But it does seem like a little T or estradiol is good for mental health and to prevent bone loss. I'm taking a low dose of estradiol (1 mg/day) and progesterone (100 mg/day) because I actually love having real female breasts. They've reached a C cup, going on D and I especially love having nipples and areolas in the middle of the typical female range. I didn't realize I'd feel this way about my breasts before they developed. I may do a bit more damage to my testicles with alcohol to drop T a bit more (below 100 ng/dl), but I'm at a great place now so there's no urgency.

hi op, please share your weight loss secrets LOL.....i have been trying to shed that last 10 pounds over years, and now more so because i am on E. thanks in advance

dreamwatcher (imported) wrote: Sun Dec 20, 2020 11:43 am could you please share your exercise plan

First, I chose a spring for starting chemcastration, as following months are happier and generally more physically active. Also I paid a lot of attention to my food intake. I managed to stop eating 3 hours before sleep. As I knew that sleep will be a problem, I tried to get enough sleep what ever it takes. I did naps during the day if I felt tired. And even if I couldn't fall asleep, I just forced myself stay in bed and kept eyes closed, not allowing much thoughts into my mind. Sleep is essential for weight loss. Bad sleep makes you eat more. Also, almost all the food you eat before sleep, converts into fat. And then a lot of walk. Almost every day I spent 2-3 hours walking. I did long walks. It is also important that you plan your routes before, and better if you discover something new every time. So it does not feel like a boring obligation you are not interested in. All together it is not easy. You need to do your planning before. And then do as you planned. your day starts the day before. You need to get to sleep regularily at about the same time. It helps to get at least some sleep. Don't rely only on sleeping pills. If your sleep becomes irregular and you need sleeping pills every time you go to sleep and stimulants to keep yourself awake, you are getting fat and on a wrong path.

It is easier to say that do. And currently I have gained some kilos back as I am less active physically. So that is what I did.

erikboy (imported) wrote: Mon Dec 21, 2020 2:54 pm First, I chose a spring for starting chemcastration, as following months are happier and generally more physically active. Also I paid a lot of attention to my food intake. I managed to stop eating 3 hours before sleep. As I knew that sleep will be a problem, I tried to get enough sleep what ever it takes. I did naps during the day if I felt tired. And even if I couldn't fall asleep, I just forced myself stay in bed and kept eyes closed, not allowing much thoughts into my mind. Sleep is essential for weight loss. Bad sleep makes you eat more. Also, almost all the food you eat before sleep, converts into fat. And then a lot of walk. Almost every day I spent 2-3 hours walking. I did long walks. It is also important that you plan your routes before, and better if you discover something new every time. So it does not feel like a boring obligation you are not interested in. All together it is not easy. You need to do your planning before. And then do as you planned. your day starts the day before. You need to get to sleep regularily at about the same time. It helps to get at least some sleep. Don't rely only on sleeping pills. If your sleep becomes irregular and you need sleeping pills every time you go to sleep and stimulants to keep yourself awake, you are getting fat and on a wrong path.

It is easier to say that do. And currently I have gained some kilos back as I am less active physically. So that is what I did.

thats so cool！

nice plan