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Wow, more than a month!
Today I noticed all my acne is gone and my skin feels dry.
No morning woods for ages and no orgasm for 3 days. It's funny how I do not have that urge. There are some thoughts, but I can easily ignore them, I wonder if I can get horny after like 2 weeks without any orgasm...
My second chem castration trial
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erikboy (imported) wrote: Tue Jun 18, 2019 3:23 pm T +34
Wow, more than a month!
Today I noticed all my acne is gone and my skin feels dry.
No morning woods for ages and no orgasm for 3 days. It's funny how I do not have that urge. There are some thoughts, but I can easily ignore them, I wonder if I can get horny after like 2 weeks without any orgasm...
Isn't it great forgetting all about sex.
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I still do not feel castrated enough, like I did 7 years ago, when all the porn I had, felt useless and I had an urge to delete it.
Still my libido is greatly diminished. Before I couldn't go 4 days without great inner fight. Now, 4 days without orgasm goes by almost unnoticed. Also there is danger to get hard in public showers or by just watching porn. I even forget to watch any porn. I couldn'
Sometimes I think that what is that libido anyway, I do not seem to miss it.
Right now all negative effects seem to be insignificant except out of breath thing.
Sleep is little better now, despite I still wake up many times during the night. No hint of any depression. Brain fog hasn't been there for few days.
Yes, I started to forget about sex. I wonder what my actual T level is right now.
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I haven't masturbated for a week. Thats cool. I feel myself only little bit more horny, it means that I react to sexual input impulses littlebit more. I wonder if I could get so horny that I couldn't resist mastubation?
Still I feel like I can be more castrated.
I feel like being out of breath does not bother me so much anymore. I have been physically active. Perhaps it was like temporary and fading effect. But physically I certainly have less stamina and strenght. But I can cope with that.
My body smells different. Actually I already noticed it few weeks ago. Another sign of being castrated. I experience hot flashes many times a day. Sometimes I wake up all wet and soaked. This is usually the time when GnrH try to activate testicles to produce more T. But as there is no response from testicles, more and more LH and FSH is released and adrenal gland gets overstimulated and that is causing hot flash.
My sex drive has diminished from 100% to around 10%. It feels kind of cool, but I forget to think about it. Before I could spend a whole evening watching porn and have 2 or more orgasms, now I take a quick look, and mostly even do not touch myself. You might think that now I have more productive time in my hands, but it is not this way. Usually I feel too tired to sit. I just lie on my bed and only then I could think of stuff and read wiki or write something. Sometimes I force myself to go out and have some physical activity. Actually that helps little. I kind of restart after some walking or cycling. Coffee is also a good friend of a castrate.
So far so good, I will continue. Despite sometimes I ask serious questions, about the need to continue.
I haven't masturbated for a week. Thats cool. I feel myself only little bit more horny, it means that I react to sexual input impulses littlebit more. I wonder if I could get so horny that I couldn't resist mastubation?
Still I feel like I can be more castrated.
I feel like being out of breath does not bother me so much anymore. I have been physically active. Perhaps it was like temporary and fading effect. But physically I certainly have less stamina and strenght. But I can cope with that.
My body smells different. Actually I already noticed it few weeks ago. Another sign of being castrated. I experience hot flashes many times a day. Sometimes I wake up all wet and soaked. This is usually the time when GnrH try to activate testicles to produce more T. But as there is no response from testicles, more and more LH and FSH is released and adrenal gland gets overstimulated and that is causing hot flash.
My sex drive has diminished from 100% to around 10%. It feels kind of cool, but I forget to think about it. Before I could spend a whole evening watching porn and have 2 or more orgasms, now I take a quick look, and mostly even do not touch myself. You might think that now I have more productive time in my hands, but it is not this way. Usually I feel too tired to sit. I just lie on my bed and only then I could think of stuff and read wiki or write something. Sometimes I force myself to go out and have some physical activity. Actually that helps little. I kind of restart after some walking or cycling. Coffee is also a good friend of a castrate.
So far so good, I will continue. Despite sometimes I ask serious questions, about the need to continue.
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My testicles shrink fast. I can visibly see that my balls are smaller now than before I started Castration. They have shrunk to 26.8ml from 37.2ml per testicle. It is 72% left of it's original size. It is interesting that testicles did not shrink at all during the first 18 days. And only after that they started to shrink fast. But my balls look unusually small now. Not a boy size yet, but may be teen size.
What is more curious that I have actually lost weight during these 41 days. Some of weight loss comes from testicular atrophy. rest is from loosing muscular mass and fat. So, my weight has dropped from 92kg to 88kg. Quite a lot. But I feel that some fat is redistributed.
After I started to take Raloxifene, joint pains almost vanished.
Despite that I haven't experienced an eunuch calm I wanted to experience so much. Also I don't feel castrated enough. I still have some libido left. But other signs are stressing my low T. Like no acne at all, and my skin feels dry, I have hotflashes and colds. I need a lot more rest and my sleep is bad. I haven't had any spontaneous erections nor morning woods for 4 weeks. I haven't masturbated for 10 days, which would have made me insane before castration. I would have thought constantly about sex and had difficulties to concentrate on any non physical work. Which is not a case now. I feel only very very slight buzz sometimes, and I could easily ignore it. It does not induce any spontaneous sexual fantasies.
Interestingly there is much less brainfog and situation with breathlessness has improved.
From emotional side I don't feel incomplete anymore nor do I feel depressed because I am almost impotent, can not make babies. It just does not matter. It is actually benefitial. When I work with many people, I don't have sexual urges. People that aroused me sexually before, are just aesthetically good to look at. I don't have to supress anything. Almost.
Should I go surgical? I am not sure yet.
Btw. I read a survey (pubmed probably) about intermittent hormone supression therapy against prostate cancer. And it was mentioned there, that after each T supression period that typically lasts 6-9 months, recovery takes longer time and it is not full recovery. But this is never mentioned on Androcur nor Triptoreline side effects. I guess it is probably because men using that therapy are old and get used to being castrated one or another way. They never need to recover 100% as they are past of reproductive years. And this side effect becomes insignificant.
My testicles shrink fast. I can visibly see that my balls are smaller now than before I started Castration. They have shrunk to 26.8ml from 37.2ml per testicle. It is 72% left of it's original size. It is interesting that testicles did not shrink at all during the first 18 days. And only after that they started to shrink fast. But my balls look unusually small now. Not a boy size yet, but may be teen size.
What is more curious that I have actually lost weight during these 41 days. Some of weight loss comes from testicular atrophy. rest is from loosing muscular mass and fat. So, my weight has dropped from 92kg to 88kg. Quite a lot. But I feel that some fat is redistributed.
After I started to take Raloxifene, joint pains almost vanished.
Despite that I haven't experienced an eunuch calm I wanted to experience so much. Also I don't feel castrated enough. I still have some libido left. But other signs are stressing my low T. Like no acne at all, and my skin feels dry, I have hotflashes and colds. I need a lot more rest and my sleep is bad. I haven't had any spontaneous erections nor morning woods for 4 weeks. I haven't masturbated for 10 days, which would have made me insane before castration. I would have thought constantly about sex and had difficulties to concentrate on any non physical work. Which is not a case now. I feel only very very slight buzz sometimes, and I could easily ignore it. It does not induce any spontaneous sexual fantasies.
Interestingly there is much less brainfog and situation with breathlessness has improved.
From emotional side I don't feel incomplete anymore nor do I feel depressed because I am almost impotent, can not make babies. It just does not matter. It is actually benefitial. When I work with many people, I don't have sexual urges. People that aroused me sexually before, are just aesthetically good to look at. I don't have to supress anything. Almost.
Should I go surgical? I am not sure yet.
Btw. I read a survey (pubmed probably) about intermittent hormone supression therapy against prostate cancer. And it was mentioned there, that after each T supression period that typically lasts 6-9 months, recovery takes longer time and it is not full recovery. But this is never mentioned on Androcur nor Triptoreline side effects. I guess it is probably because men using that therapy are old and get used to being castrated one or another way. They never need to recover 100% as they are past of reproductive years. And this side effect becomes insignificant.
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You are just starting on this journey. I, and many others, recommend a chemical trial of a year or more before anything permanent. With me it took about a year for things to settle in and get side effects under control.
There is no rush, take your time and enjoy the ride.
Don
There is no rush, take your time and enjoy the ride.
Don
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So I tested Viagra like drug on my self, to see what effect it has on a castrated man. To be short, it makes erection more firm. Not rock hard, but it definitely makes eunuchs penis harder. Still, it does not increase a desire to orgasm, nor did it make me feel more horny only just because my penis got harder. I couldn't get hard faster nor my penis lasted longer hard after stopping manual stimulation. Only perhaps, it was easier to maintain hardness. Effect was noticeable. But not very great. Also I did not orgasm, as I wanted to continue with abstinence. It was unbelievably easy.
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You still need sexual stimulation for Viagra to do anything. They just help blood flow to get an erection, they don't cause erections. They don't make you horny or help you get aroused. It won't have any effect on desire other than increasing one's confidence in being able to achieve and maintain hardness when aroused.
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Wolf-Pup (imported) wrote: Tue Jun 25, 2019 3:39 pm You still need sexual stimulation for Viagra to do anything. They just help blood flow to get an erection, they don't cause erections. They don't make you horny or help you get aroused. It won't have any effect on desire other than increasing one's confidence in being able to achieve and maintain hardness when aroused.
Yes, as I have tried Viagra like stuff before chem castration, only being chemically castrated, it became obvious that Viagra is just an erection helping drug, nothing else. It felt like I had an erection for no reason. If not castrated, having a firm erection can cause so called feed back arousal. You get aroused because you you have very hard erection. That feedback mechanism does not work very well if you are castrated.
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I haven't had any orgasm for 13 days now. Only now it starts to feel like I need some release. Though it isn't too difficult to ignore that feeling yet.
I watched the porn I usually did and tried to
Despite I try to be physically active, my constant tiredness prohibits me to be more active. I just lie on my bed, unable to go out. I just don't have such an amount of will power. Brainfog is less. But it is still present time to time, and this is also limiting my activity.
It is easy to think that as an eunuch I will be more active than usual, but reality is much more different. Thats why I chose summer time for castration period, that surroundings and people are more energetic and I am forced to activity. During last 2 weeks my voluntary activity has been reduced considerably, while forced activity has increased. It means that I have agreed with people about stuff I need to get done for them.
Huh, I am having hotflash right now!
I haven't had any orgasm for 13 days now. Only now it starts to feel like I need some release. Though it isn't too difficult to ignore that feeling yet.
I watched the porn I usually did and tried to
Well, it did not get hard in classical sense. Just engorged, and it did not get up. A big contrast to precastration era.
Despite I try to be physically active, my constant tiredness prohibits me to be more active. I just lie on my bed, unable to go out. I just don't have such an amount of will power. Brainfog is less. But it is still present time to time, and this is also limiting my activity.
It is easy to think that as an eunuch I will be more active than usual, but reality is much more different. Thats why I chose summer time for castration period, that surroundings and people are more energetic and I am forced to activity. During last 2 weeks my voluntary activity has been reduced considerably, while forced activity has increased. It means that I have agreed with people about stuff I need to get done for them.
Huh, I am having hotflash right now!