graylayer02 (imported) wrote: Tue Feb 23, 2010 9:54 am Three weeks after. I went to the urologist and complained about the sutures. Most of them were dissolved internally enough that they were easy to remove; some of them weren't and he had to cut one or two out. Interestingly, the pattern was that when I had my surgery, I scabbed over the knots very quickly and in some cases skin grew over them, and then the scabs tried to hang on until the wound was entirely closed. The urologist left three in there saying that they'd 'fall out', though these were the three that had something in the way of their being taken out.

There were three that I had to get out at home since these were three which seemed pretty angry, like a piercing gone bad. One of the sutures reminded me of the Bill Cosby ingrown hair routine and I had to pull at it gently for 5 min; one had skin growing over it but I was able to get it; and one had a gigantic scab plug and required some perserverence. But now I'm sitting here with the biggest irritant being my sack again, and that's a nice relief.

I've had four surgeries on my stomach (one for appendicitis and two right away after that and the fourth about three years later to close the hernia) and I had stitches float out of my tummy that way, nearly the same as you describe it. It's ugly to go through but not unusual. I can still feel stitches inside my tummy wall. Apparently, they are there for good.

The skin will shrink in a few months, maybe a year. Give it time.

OK, little update. I rode my bike to work for the first time today and it felt GREAT. No nuts to sit on, although the wads of fluid, especially the left one, still give that appearance. I know, it takes a very long time for these fluid wads to go away, and they don't otherwise bother me too badly.

The past three months of testosterone therapy have also brought back the dreaded morning wood, balsa wood, not oak. Those began coming back off and on in December but now they're at the point of annoying me.

Since there's only one safe penectomy and scrotal removal option, I'm calling Thailand ASAP. They might not take me so quickly but at least I can figure out what my options are.

how about reducing the amount of T you are taking to something a little bit less

OK, I'm almost at 4 weeks here. The remaining wound issues from those sutures are pretty much gone and sex is going very nicely (evil grin) though the liquid nut is still there and will take some time to resolve. I've been chasing cars on my bike again, and my boyfriend is around. Life is good.

@DavidB: I think that the issue is more likely to be the ups and downs rather than the level of T. We're switching to a slow-release formula after this course is done with, then I'll work on getting my body composition and metabolism in better order.

February 28,

T plus 27 days. The hard mass taking up the left hand of my scrotum has not gotten any softer or any smaller. In fact it's gotten harder and somewhat bigger; it's like a medium-sized egg; and it's anchored as if it were a testicle. This is very very odd. There was also some pain at the bottom of the incision site this morning, which was unusual. I'm thinking of going in next week and asking the urologist to take a second look at this. He took a first look at this last week and had no idea what this was; the look on his face as he did an ultrasound was more confused than usual.

Hey, grayl! it will be a blood clot, i mean and will need some time to reduce itself.

if ihad my infected left sacsite, it takes some weeks for the reducing of the swelling even the doc had cut it open with an enormous great and deep cut...

Graylayer,

After the surgery I had a relatively large lump in the left side as well. It was at first soft and flexible, and then over time got hard. It started to diminish very quickly after that. It was totally gone by 8 weeks after the surgery.

The pain you described I had as well. It came and went for a month or so, long after i would have thought the wounds were mostly healed. It was never really bad for me, just a slight discomfort. About the time I was thinking of calling the doctor, it stopped totally. No pain of any kind since then.

These days its just the joy that comes from reaching down and finding that smooth spot. Give it time , you'll get there.

Raymar

OK, even the urologist is stumped by my phantom nut, says he's never seen anything like that before. We did another ultrasound today and there is a solid bit there; the thing has gotten somewhat harder and smaller over the past couple of days after increasing in size the previous couple of days. It isn't painful at all but it sure tries to act like it's a nut.

There's definitely no smoothness to appreciate.

Once this configuration settles down and I get some difficult wisdom teeth extracted, then I'll go ahead and make the arrangements for the nullo.

I'm at just under 6 weeks here. The phantom nut has begun to go away nicely and there's a lot less in the way of weird lumpiness in and under the scars. I'm at the point where I could say I clearly feel better than I did before the surgery in every respect, and at some points (usually involving physical activity) much better. Every time I sit down on my bike and don't squish the boys, I smile. Every time I do a squat and don't squish them, I smile. The straight boys in colorful spandex at the gym yesterday were looking at me like I was the freak.

It still looks a bit like Dr. Frankenstein designed my crotch, but things are settling down. The gigantic sack isn't beginning to shrink at all, but stuff feels much better.

I'll have more thoughts about hormones at a future time. It's odd; my favorite times are at the end of a hormone cycle where I'm mellow and happy but still have energy. Basically I like low T except for the energy and strength issues. Also, my energy and mental stamina are better than they were before castration; there's something about my body's natural T and the balls themselves that just didn't agree with me.

Until later.

OK, short update since it's been a week. Now at week T+7.

The nutlike object still is shrinking slowly, and the scars themselves are a lot less swollen. They're still really ugly though, especially where the sutures went through. The whole setup isn't very nice to look at but it feels nice riding a bike or doing what I did today since it wasn't raining, which is to chase trees in the park. One got away though.