Well it's been more than 3 months now since I made myself an eunuch, and I'm doing really well. I did have a noticeable increase in anxiety starting a couple weeks after the cut, and that required a medication change which wrecked havoc on my mood initially, but I'm feeling great now – my only complaint is that so far being a eunuch hasn't reduced my anxiety or OCD symptoms as I'd hoped it might. (One other minor annoyance is I'm a bit of a leaky faucet when it comes to urinating. When I'm at home I usually urinate sitting down out of consideration to my spouse and/or roommate – also I don't like standing around holding my wiener – but when I'm finished I have to shake it vigourously into the toilet, otherwise when I stand up it will leak a copy teaspoons of urine onto my pants or the floor.) Sexually speaking, though, all is blissful. I have hardly any desire – right now I've started to feel a mild urge for sex and it's been weeks since I last orgasmed, but it's a faint urge that I can generally ignore, and it seems to be continuing to abate. My spouse loves my balllessness, and I can perform sexually pretty much exactly the same as before – I just don't feel the urgent need to. I've also come out to three friends already, and they've all been accepting and jokey about it; I'll definitely being coming out to more, as well as my academic peers. The only reason I'm not coming all the way out (to everyone) right now is that my spouse and I live in a pretty small city where she grew up, and it would be embarrassing for her to have all the morons she knew in high school gossiping about how she's dating an eunuch (I doubt that's the word they'd use).

This is just a brief update because I'm away from my main computer (I have been for the past three and a half weeks, hence my absence from the EA of late) but I'll be sure to post more once I'm back to my desktop again.

Great that you are doing well. The first half year will be the hardest. Your body and mind will keep changing. The change in anxiety is understandable. You are looking for any type of changes. Would also think that perhaps the fact that you do not want others to know of your castration. Could be a worry. The leaky faucet is a new one on me. Have not heard of that before. Perhaps the prostrate is shrinking and the muscle is that closes the bladder is in a different position. Maybe some kegel exercises my help gain more control.

I have had leak problems ever since I was castrated 10 years ago. It has gotten a bit better with time, but not much. Shake away...

ghostautumn (imported) wrote: Fri Jan 29, 2010 9:03 pm but when I'm finished I have to shake it vigourously into the toilet, otherwise when I stand up it will leak a copy teaspoons of urine onto my pants or the floor.

The male urethra forms a U-bend right where your balls used to be. When urinating a small amount of urine tends to collect there and then spill out when you pull your pants up. Its possible that your U-bend has become more pronounced as a result of your de-bollocking and so more urine collects there now. The solution, however, should be the same; reach down between your legs, just behind your scrotum (do you still have a scrotum, or is that gone too?) and push upwards. This should force the collected urine out.

the leaky faucet thing

some days is more pronounced than others and some times not all

glad to here you are doing good

I too have had a little leakage since I was castrated, it is not a big problem but it can be annoying. --FLO--

evai1234 (imported) wrote: Sat Dec 12, 2009 2:01 pm Really? My experience does not show this. My testosterone levels are a tad bit lower than the lowest normal (i.e. pre-menopausal) female limit, and I'm on ERT. If I up my estrogen dose my libido can increase quite a lot (to the annoying level). I guess it is different for men and women. T gives sex. drive for men, and while it plays certain role in libido for women, it may be estrogen, that has more influence on this.

I think it is not a lot of gynecologists, but some. A lot of gynecologists say T is not needed. There are some data that T has limited benefits for women (except some cases, I guess this is pretty much individual) with a lot of side effects (potential lowering of the voice, increased body hair growth, acne, etc.)

I think its essential for female sex drive based on our experience. And yes, many doctors discard it as not being important but these same doctors (mostly) think synthetic Horse Urine based Estrogen is safer the biodentical hormones.

erikboy (imported) wrote: Sat Dec 05, 2009 7:05 pm The time for libido to drop after castration or starting anti T drugs is greatly variable according to experiences I have read here. It leads me to a thought that T is not regulating libido directly. Sure, testosterone supports libido, only via other mechanisms that we are not aware of yet.

Other indirect proof could be that libido is not connected to T-levels very directly. One could have pretty strong libido having relatively low T-level like 350.

Has anyone seen any medical texts that tries to explain source of libido? Is it even studied by modern science?

If there really is a separate 'libido mechanism' then perhaps it could be possible to reduce or increase libido without playing with T-levels, thus having no negative effects from castration like osteoporosis, energy loss, fat gaining, lower metabolism, hot flashes...

Relatively Strong Libido at 350 ng/dL has to be defined. I was diagnosed as having hormone issues with levels a bit lower then that and it was a pretty miserable existence and sex? Maybe 6 times a year when my arm was twisted.

Good luck dude hope everything is going well for you keep in touch.

ghostautumn (imported) wrote: Thu Oct 29, 2009 4:28 pm Well I'm now an eunuch. I did it myself last night: clamped and tied them off from most of the night and next day (with elastics and a soldering clamp) until they were multiple shades of purple and necrotic, then cut them off with a just-out-of-the-package carving knife and just out-of-the-package scissors, then immediately called for an ambulance and rushed to the front door of my apartment building. I lost a LOT of blood, but the wounds were very smooth and clean, and there was a plastic surgeon at the hospital who patched me up perfectly - cut the nerves off up high like you're supposed to, put in a funnel overnight, and sewed it up very well. Everyone at the hospital was very nice and understanding, including the psychiatrists who listened to my explanation and cleared me to going home. They even gave me cab vouchers to get me home and to my appointment with my endocrinologist tomorrow, and all the supplies I'll need to change the dressings.

I don't recommend anyone else do this, there are a lot of other options if you have a job and can save up for the surgery (or if you're a transsexual with medical insurance/actual healthcare). In my case I'd spent eight years pursuing all options only to be thwarted at each step by a willfully-ignorant medical establishment (the bureaucrats, not the good psychiatrists, doctors and nurses on the front lines) and a neo-conservative state. Certainly I could have died, but I made the decision to risk my life in order to assert self-determination over my body, and fortunately it all worked out well for me. I've just gotten home now (the next day) so I'd like to just rest, but I will endeavour to post daily updates on my status here.

Autumn

a newly-born eunuch

Ghostautumn,

One of my complaints has been that Dr. Kimmel didn't remove my scrotum and I regret that decision, it would have cost me more. I tried to remove some of it myself, but I'm not satisfied with the results. I don't want to pay to have it done and so I'll live with it, but I wonder if you have a similar situation or did the Plastic Surgeon take care of it?