Thanks, Estragen, I think ...

I could be buy sexual...

...but I'd have to have a PYT built like a female HILTON... (not the buildings) who didn't have any diseases and who didn't need a lot of money....

...I guess they could be a bit younger, no less than 18, though.

...but SEX is DEFINITELY NOT genetic...

...You DO NOT get it from YOUR Parents, or aunts & unkles ...grandmas & grandpa...etc. and so forth... no cousins... no crusing family re-unions for cheap sex...

A-1 (imported) wrote: Tue Apr 07, 2009 9:37 pm I could be buy sexual...

...but I'd have to have a PYT built like a female HILTON... (not the buildings) who didn't have any diseases and who didn't need a lot of money....

...I guess they could be a bit younger, no less than 18, though.

...but SEX is DEFINITELY NOT genetic...

...You DO NOT get it from YOUR Parents, or aunts & unkles ...grandmas & grandpa...etc. and so forth... no cousins... no crusing family re-unions for cheap sex...

insanity is hereditarily, you'll get it from your children......

loveU

J***

I think that if I had been castrated 30 years sooner, I would have avoided the evils and downfalls of homosexuality. If I had been castrated far sooner, I would have saved myself a whole lot of mental anguish. Woulda, coulda, shoulda.. I am sure a different man now.

OneBallBoi (imported) wrote: Mon Apr 27, 2009 5:53 pm I think that if I had been castrated 30 years sooner, I would have avoided the evils and downfalls of homosexuality. If I had been castrated far sooner, I would have saved myself a whole lot of mental anguish. Woulda, coulda, shoulda.. I am sure a different man now.

Yeah, yeah, yeah,

...and if I were castrated as a child I would have been able to sing like Michael Jackson, been rich or at least been a hell of a lot better off financially and so might have avoided marrying my wife when she was sweet, young and so godammed pretty that I had wet dreams constantly and I was a horny young bastard around 20... so forth, so on, ad nauseum...

...now 30 + some years and 4 children and 8 grandchildren later I realize things could have been a lot worse. She has held on to my sorry ass, and I hers for which she may also be sorry, or at least that is what I am led to believe, it is a game, you see.

...you know, I am attached to my balls now... plan on staying that way...



...sometimes Gay sex and relationships are easier for some men than relationships with women. Likewise for women, especially the traumatized at a tender age like our own Yoli... Shouldn't make a lot of difference in the quality of orgasm, though, if all of the parts still are there and working.

...it is just that I like women, the vaginas, the breasts, the cute asses, the shapes, prominent pubic bones, hips and so forth. But not enough to try to make myself look that way.

...you see, this life is so complicated because people are so screwed up. Your job is not to be likewise... see?

...as far as STD's go, it is not GAY or Straight sex that is the problem, it is sexual frequency with multiple partners. Protection helps but it is only as safe as a thin layer of latex that is likely to rip when things get hot and sticky.

...so don't blame yourself, and be happy to be alive and well.

OneBallBoi (imported) wrote: Mon Apr 27, 2009 5:53 pm I think that if I had been castrated 30 years sooner, I would have avoided the evils and downfalls of homosexuality. If I had been castrated far sooner, I would have saved myself a whole lot of mental anguish. Woulda, coulda, shoulda.. I am sure a different man now.

.......or more to the point..... you, I, and many people could have avoided the pitfalls of.... sexuality. Any kind of sexuality. Homo- Hetro- Whatevero- sexuality.

All thru puberty, I wanted my balls removed, though I didn't know why, or what the implications and ramifications would be. But, somehow I knew that I would be better for not having them.

And by gosh, now, fifty years later, I realize HOW CORRECT I WAS.

Like you said, woulda, shoulda, but there was no way that I coulda;

not then, and still not now. Damn.

In my thoughts, I believe that our parents have a lot of influence over our sexuality. I have zero amount of self esteem. I have been told that I am worthless, helpless and hopeless. My parents instilled in me originally the lack of self esteem. I did nothing right to please my Dad. After my Dad died and I was the care giver for my Mom, my self esteem did improve for a while. But the living situtation I am in now, is no help in that area as well. I am not able to complete simple tasks like sorting clothes for the laundry, washing floors, etc. to satisfaction. My self esteem is going thru the bottom again. I am to the point where I believe it would have been better if I had never been born. There is not enough years left in my life to improve my self esteem and answer the acceptance of my sexuality. Parents can destroy their children for life, I really believe that. I don't believe all parents are bad. And I would love to know "Jesus's" take on these thoughts of mine.

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OneBallBoi (imported) wrote: Fri May 01, 2009 4:42 pm Parents can destroy their children for life, I really believe that.

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Yessir, of course. I do believe that most people should not be allowed to breed. The majority of the parents I have known have been not nearly up to snuff.

OneBallBoi (imported) wrote: Fri May 01, 2009 4:42 pm In my thoughts, I believe that our parents have a lot of influence over our sexuality. I have zero amount of self esteem. I have been told that I am worthless, helpless and hopeless. My parents instilled in me originally the lack of self esteem. I did nothing right to please my Dad. After my Dad died and I was the care giver for my Mom, my self esteem did improve for a while. But the living situtation I am in now, is no help in that area as well. I am not able to complete simple tasks like sorting clothes for the laundry, washing floors, etc. to satisfaction. My self esteem is going thru the bottom again. I am to the point where I believe it would have been better if I had never been born. There is not enough years left in my life to improve my self esteem and answer the acceptance of my sexuality. Parents can destroy their children for life, I really believe that. I don't believe all parents are bad. And I would love to know "Jesus's" take on these thoughts of mine.

OneBallBoi-

Having been abused emotionally, physically, mentally and sexually with a good bit of neglect, I really want to respond to your post. It sounds like you are still living in some type of abusive situation. Realizing how to stop the abuse is crucial to moving on with your life. It's amazing how a persons self esteem can improve just by getting away from such abuse.

Never forget that an abuser will never face up to their acts. In the abuser's mind you must be the "fuckup". You as a total screw up justifies in their mind, the abusive acts that they perpertuated against you. Only by rising above the damage and becoming something greater, stronger, independent can you redeem yourself and hold them accountable.

forgive and remember when you want to, but never forget!;)

chilli-

OneBallBoi (imported) wrote: Fri May 01, 2009 4:42 pm In my thoughts, I believe that our parents have a lot of influence over our sexuality. I have zero amount of self esteem. I have been told that I am worthless, helpless and hopeless. My parents instilled in me originally the lack of self esteem. I did nothing right to please my Dad. After my Dad died and I was the care giver for my Mom, my self esteem did improve for a while. But the living situtation I am in now, is no help in that area as well. I am not able to complete simple tasks like sorting clothes for the laundry, washing floors, etc. to satisfaction. My self esteem is going thru the bottom again. I am to the point where I believe it would have been better if I had never been born. There is not enough years left in my life to improve my self esteem and answer the acceptance of my sexuality. Parents can destroy their children for life, I really believe that. I don't believe all parents are bad. And I would love to know "Jesus's" take on these thoughts of mine.

Please understand: I am listening. Only don't know what to say. Please tell me, how many years do you think you will need, and if it takes that long, why are you waiting to start....

loveU

Jean