Since I didn't learn how to do it until well after I had my identity apiphony, the first time I actually knowingly made it happen (I was 14, I think... I'm getting the time of year confused...) left me with this horrified, "Crap, there's no turning back, now, is there?" feeling...

And it started to be a daily thing after that, and it had me rather freaked out since just a week earlier I felt as though I could say I had no idea how it really works. (Though, there was something of a self-enduced orgasm once when I was thirteen.. but it was kind of odd and I don't particularly count it... although I'm pretty sure how that happened was exactly what gave the idea for the "real" opening of the gates of doom...).

So I was completely freaked out by the whole thing (and really, everything at that point had a temporary feel... which has only gotten worse as of late. Funny how over half a decade still feels like temporary, somehow...), so much bizarre conflict over what to think about it ensued (and persists?).

The first year, there was one instance where I went four in a row (for what reason I don't even know... testing the limits, maybe? o_o I am a paradox.), and I managed to not for about a week (that I was at bandcamp... would decidedly have been awkward. Come to think of it, I only remember going to the bathroom once while there... I think my memory must be broken...).

And for the most part it continued like that, usually less than twice a day. Then I got to college, and instead of consistent mildly-less-frequent incidents, we get the occasional day or two without, the day with one to three, and the days with four, five, six... I don't know if there was any beyond that.

Actually, on January first of this year, it wound up happening quite a lot just between midnight and sunrise... so I started keeping track over all. Since consistency is shot, the number compared to the number of days in the year has gone back and forth in range... right now I think we're at 263 for the year.

(... golden oreos are both adictive and afrodesiac. Since I don't like adictions or afrodesiacs, I've only one package for proof.).

I think, at this point, I'm still just as confused as when I was fourteen (Heck, how much have I changed since then? A lot in some ways... very little n others?). The only real difference is that I think I've subconsciously accepted that it's not going away any time soon without consequences that I doubt I'd survive.

(... nah, I think the most risky sideeffects of castration somehow already attack me while all the desirable ones are far away. So I suspect that if I were to try anything, I'd have to work pretty freaking hard to not die... and my work ethic appears to be on life support (I just noticed an interesting time forwhen that started... *looks up* Hehehe...)).

Am I actually posting this? T_T I'm clearly broken.

Well, I have just masturbated most of the day for seveal days. I have had multiple orgasms. :):):):) Unfortunately (I suppose), I will have to began taking the medication again. I am off of it to drop some weight and to save some monely. Suddely, I very much miss my former wife, who is beautiful and intensely sexual. Oh, well! Often,

I have gone for months without even considering masturbating. This is a nice change of pace. :-\ Still I would prefer pretty woman adoring my cock for me. The touch of my cock on the roof of her mouth. Ah.

Mothers had their children circumcized to prevent them from masturbating. I remember I once was caught masturbating by my mother. She shamed me so. Said that there was only so many orgasms that one could have in a life time so I should save them. That brought guilt over me all my life. I felt so guilty, so dirty, so shameful every time I masturbated. Now that I am a Eunuch, I have no desire to masturbate and haven't in a long time. The guilt that Mom built upon me is finally gone.

Becki2Shoe (imported) wrote: Sat Apr 26, 2008 10:42 am Very interesting comments here about masturbation. Even tho the first posting assume everyone here is man or eunuch - ladies

A-1 (imported) wrote: Fri May 02, 2008 4:42 pm also masturbate!

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Becki2Shoe (imported) wrote: Sat Apr 26, 2008 10:42 am time=1207428240]
I started masturbating before

the puberty.

The first I remember was playing doctor with a neighbor boy (I remember from the first time seeing and touching his balls that they seemed so big and clumsy, so in the way down there between his legs that they should be cut off like any other birthmark, wart, etc. I did not know what balls could be good for nor had I heard about castration, the balls just seemed to be in the way, but that’s off the subject).

When he examine me it felt so good and tingly when he open my pussy with his fingers and touch me in there! So I started touching myself after that on regular basis. I learned to give myself a buzz and keep it going for hours.

But it wasn’t for some time, after puberty, that I had my first orgasm, that really blu me away. I still usually masturbate most every day, sometimes before or after intercourse. I also love for others to watch me masturbate and to watch others masturbate.

I do have a question I am curious about. I guess this place is for eunuchs but does anyone here experience with impotent uncut men? Is it possibl

e for a man to be to limp to penetrate a woman and still be able to ejaculate by masturbating? Is it less
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intense than ejaculating in a pussy? Or about the same?

Masturbating a woman utterly delights me. Just knowing how much she enjoys my playing with her and giving her pleasure is the reward.

I have never been able to enter a vagina limp. I can ejaculae while limp. I have usually found no difference in intensity inside or outside a vagina.

To me, masturbation always feels far better than intercourse. I NEVER orgasm with intercourse with a woman, but do with masturbation. I used to have sex with my girlfriend until she came, then leave the room and finish on my own. he he

Testman (imported) wrote: Sat May 17, 2008 9:39 pm To me, masturbation always feels far better than intercourse. I NEVER orgasm with intercourse with a woman, but do with masturbation. I used to have sex with my girlfriend until she came, then leave the room and finish on my own. he he

My best masturbation was always when a lover masturbated me. I loved masturbating lovers when I finally learned how to do it and had the good sense to do it!

Testman (imported) wrote: Sat May 17, 2008 9:39 pm To me, masturbation always feels far better than intercourse. I NEVER orgasm with intercourse with a woman, but do with masturbation. I used to have sex with my girlfriend until she came, then leave the room and finish on my own. he he

How funny, being gay, my only "experience" with female orgasms is from friends stories, and TV, movies...mostly where it's the guy who gets off and the woman "fakes" it, you seem to be just the opposite, and from what I know would be deemed the PERFECT lover, by most women. CONGRATS man!

Blaise (imported) wrote: Sat May 17, 2008 11:07 pm My best masturbation was always when a lover masturbated me. I loved masturbating lovers when I finally learned how to do it and had the good sense to do it!

Blaise (imported) wrote: Sat May 17, 2008 5:23 pm Masturbating a woman utterly delights me. Just knowing how much she enjoys my playing with her and giving her pleasure is the reward.

I have never been able to enter a vagina limp. I can ejaculae while limp. I have usually found no difference in intensity inside or outside a vagina.

I feel the same way. I much prefer to be masturbated by a lover than to have intercourse. Intercourse does not give me orgasm. But to be masturbated by a lover that knows how to masturbate a woman and if the lover will take the time for extended masturbation - that is divine!

Most guys don't know how to masturbate a woman or give proper, complete, satisfying oral.

Seems like a man has to experience impotence before he can become really expert at masturbating a woman and oral, as they are to eager to get on into intercourse if they are potent, then they go to sleep. I am sure there are exceptions, that is just my experience.

Perhaps a eunuch with some interest left would be good ???

nonuts (imported) wrote: Sun May 18, 2008 8:44 am How funny, being gay, my only "experience" with female orgasms is from friends stories, and TV, movies...mostly where it's the guy who gets off and the woman "fakes" it, you seem to be just the opposite, and from what I know would be deemed the PERFECT lover, by most women. CONGRATS man!

Having been with both, I find it much more fun to be masturbated by a guy but it's more of a challenge to masturbate a girl. I'm told that I have a gentle touch and that this helps.

If early indications are accurate, my current crush has fantastic staying power; can't wait to see where this leads.

Becki2Shoe (imported) wrote: Sun May 18, 2008 9:17 am I feel the same way. I much prefer to be masturbated by a lover than to have intercourse. Intercourse does not give me orgasm. But to be masturbated by a lover that knows how to masturbate a woman and if the lover will take the time for extended masturbation - that is divine!

Most guys don't know how to masturbate a woman or give proper, complete, satisfying oral.

Seems like a man has to experience impotence before he can become really expert at masturbating a woman and oral, as they are to eager to get on into intercourse if they are potent, then they go to sleep. I am sure there are exceptions, that is just my experience.

Perhaps a eunuch with some interest left would be good ???

Well, it has been sixteen years but I think that I gave great head and I think that I masturbated my wife in a loving and fine way. I prefer to give head and mastubate a lover to penetrating her. I wanted that even long ago when I enjoyed making love with my wife via penetration.

I have been celibate for so long that I am like those who joke they fear making love is done differently now than back when they I made love.

I do wonder what I have forgotten, but I am a quick study with a slow hand. Well, I am.