Danya, it sounds like you're doing well. I'm really glad you are, and (ahem!) having a bit of fun while exercising your new-found daily responsibilities.

Riverwind (imported) wrote: Fri May 06, 2011 4:16 pm When I lived in LA two life times ago this guy on the classical music station morning show said, 'A day without Bach is a day without sunshine'. he is of course right.

Hi River,

Bach...his music does so much for me on several levels.

Riverwind (imported) wrote: Fri May 06, 2011 4:16 pm I am so glad you are doing better, keep having fun and exploring your new self. The one that has always been lurking there in the shadows.

Hugs,

River

I miss seeing you and the rest of the EA crowd from the Twin Cities regions. If I find I can swing it, I will drop in at the upcoming Midwest MoM for part of Saturday.

There are loads of fun and new things to explore. As soon as I am able to, I want to get involved with activities where I can be seen and have fun. Like participating in salsa dance clubs. Although I am 59, I continue to view my future as full of possibilities, too.

While I was in Montreal, I met a MTF patient who used to be a model. We hit it off and had several long talks. She's lived in a number of countries, at least for short modeling gigs.

From her knowledge of the way things work in Europe, I learned that I might be able to become a permanent resident of Germany and/or Austria. It's all related to my being first generation American on my father's German side of the family and second generation on my mother's Austrian side of the family

Danya (imported) wrote: Thu Feb 24, 2011 9:21 pm . There was a time when I could

speak German relatively well. I'd need to relearn the language and, more importantly,

Caith721 (imported) wrote: Fri May 06, 2011 4:54 pm know that I could find work in Europe. The point is, I'm not closing the door on any options. Not all will come to fruition by any means and that's OK.

Hugs,

Danya

Danya, it sounds like you're doing well. I'm really glad you are, and (ahem!) having a bit of fun while exercising your new-found daily responsibilities.

Hi Caith,

I had a difficult hour or two yesterday (Saturday). Below, I will describe what was going on.

Overall, though, I'm in a very good mood. Dilation is becoming easier with each passing day. I haven't had any

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I need to be extra cautious with anything involving 'X.' He's a very smooth talker. At least when he's not saying totally outrageous things. I will see him tomorrow and I look at this simply as a chance to get out of bed, and the house, with someone I know. That's it.

He'll probably be on his best behavior. That will not cause me to have selective amnesia about past problems.

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My doctor gave me the OK to be more active, without overdoing things , starting tomorrow. I will be able to walk 15 minutes at a time, sit and rest for 5 - 10 minutes, then walk more. I can't wait.

Danya,

I agree with your girlfriend as to X's intentions now that you had the surgery. Be Careful and don't give him any opportunities. As you know one advance will lead to another.

Bless you girl.

Danya,

Mac (imported) wrote: Fri May 13, 2011 6:27 pm I agree with your girlfriend as to X's intentions now that you had the surgery. Be Careful and don't give him any opportunities. As you know one advance will lead to another.

Bless you girl.

Hi Mac,

I was very careful when I saw 'X' yesterday. My girlfriend is very earthy while quickly getting to the heart of the matter.

Thanks for writing.

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Danya (imported) wrote: Sat Jan 22, 2011 11:21 pm and still spending a lot of time in bed. I need to be

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joking. She completed my presurgical electrolysis, so it's not as if she hasn't seen that part of

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he probably wants to check out the effectiveness of her work.

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Danya, it really sounds like you're making great progress on your physical recovery, and that's very good news to hear. Keep getting out of the house at least once or twice every week, even if only for short walks around the neighborhood, or a drive to somewhere else. If you ever get discouraged regarding your healing, just remember it can take an entire year for things to settle into their final appearance.

Hi Caith,

Since I returned home from Montreal, I have had to get out of the house once or twice a day out of necessity. These have been mostly short trips to pick up food and other necessities.

My electrologist rents space from my doctor. When I saw her Saturday, my doctor was there. He asked how I was doing and followed that with "You can go ahead and do whatever you want," referring to my ongoing recovery. He might have forgotten his observation of a few months ago that I tend to get very enthusiastic about lots of things and jump right in. At times, this means I overdo it. You and I have had this conversation in some earlier posts!

Monday, I walked for an hour and a half at the Chicago Botanic Garden without stopping once to rest. I was tiring near the end of my walk so I knew I needed to get back to the car.

After the hour drive to get back home, my healing area proved to be none the worse from my excursion. I felt terrific, too.

Extended bed rest may at times be necessary. I have found it difficult to cope with four weeks of it but have (mostly) persisted to ensure good healing. During this time, I've read a lot about the psychological downside to long periods of bed rest. It's detrimental to one's physical well-being too even if at times it must be endured. Most of the time, I am able to maintain a positive outlook, realizing that this is temporary.

I may be past needing much bed rest. Last night I went out to a movie for the first time since my surgery. I sat longer than I have before while recovering - nearly 2 1/2 hours. I was using my rubber donut (i.e., invalid ring), but still found it a bit difficult to be comfortable.

When I got home, I examined my external swelling and healing incision area. I was surprised that, for the first time without the application of ice, the swollen area was as cool as the rest of my skin. I cannot draw a definitive conclusion from this, but I want to believe that being upright in some way helped.

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Danya (imported) wrote: Sat Jan 29, 2011 10:21 pm e when I can get around more.

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I've probably written this before. Just before surgery, I told Erica Ann that very soon I would want to get on with my life, meet new peo

Danya (imported) wrote: Tue Jan 04, 2011 10:14 pm ple and, perhaps, meet someone to date. She basically tol

d me that this would have to wait awhile. I would need to recover from surgery. I thought "that won't take too long."

Erica Ann was right, of course.

Danya (imported) wrote: Wed Dec 22, 2010 8:51 am __________________________________________________

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Dilating continues to get easier, which is a good thing because Monday I'm supposed to start using a larger dilator. Ouch!

At close to five weeks post-surgery, I seem to be returning to 'normal' I've regained a lot of my energy, although I still tend to tire by 8 - 9 PM. Most days, I'm in a very good mood.

My lower abdominal and labial swelling has decreased quite a bit, although I still have a way to go. Another positive sign with the swelling: the affected area no longer warms to a level significantly higher than other areas. This is true even if I have not applied cold for many hours.

As a result, I'm more comfortable and I'm getting a little better view of how everything turned out. I'm very pleased so far.

Peeing - I don't want to go there now! It's getting better.

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vestigate alternatives.

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mine oxidase inhibitor (

MAOI) patch to the relatively
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ed. I'm still not certain that

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Danya (imported) wrote: Mon Jan 31, 2011 9:03 pm (imported)" time=1295855880]
the time to experiment with an

antidepressant free life.
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The one problem I have with Zoloft is that it se[quote="Danya

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ems to flatten my moods,

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Danya (imported) wrote: Mon Jan 24, 2011 6:58 pm (imported)" time=1295602740]
t used to being very emotional

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cry, and sometimes sob, on hearing gorgeous music an[quote="Danya

Danya (imported) wrote: Sat Jan 22, 2011 11:21 pm (imported)" time=1295517480]
d seeing beautiful sight

s. Because the MAOI patch was th
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my Minnesota psychiatrist an
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of happiness, was truly part o

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ith the MAOI patch and,

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n't cry at all. I'll wait to see how things go once I [quote="Dan

Danya (imported) wrote: Mon Jan 10, 2011 7:44 pm ya (imported)" time=1294139640]
back in the work world. Perhap

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Danya (imported) wrote: Sat Jan 08, 2011 6:49 pm ya (imported)" time=1292968260]
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'X': I haven't seen him since Monday, which is fine. He has no

Danya (imported) wrote: Tue Jan 04, 2011 10:14 pm t called, although he's sent a few harmless emails. This inc

reases my confidence that he really has gotten the 'friends only,' and on a limited basis, message.

Danya (imported) wrote: Wed Dec 22, 2010 8:51 am __________________________________________________

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A few days ago, for the first time I joined a transsexual support site. I had to join to see content restricted to members. I was interested in others' experiences with dilating and a few other matters. I doubt that I will post there often. That would mean repeating much of what I've already written here. I have no desire to do that.

Danya (imported) wrote: Mon May 23, 2011 4:47 pm The one problem I have with Zoloft is that it se

ems to flatten my moods, to an extent.

When searching for anti-depressants to replace the Prozac I took for years (it stopped working well), Zoloft was the second candidate. It kicked my depression 100%, but left me with an almost zero range of emotions. What bothered me is that I no longer experienced any happy or excited feelings, either. I told my psychiatrist this was unacceptable, and this is when I switched to Cymbalta, which has been working well for many years.