I again find i cant sleep and am up thinking of this loss and as I try to make sence of things I am saddened by thinking of how this young lad was in pain and how he suffered from thoes who didnt understand him.I didnt realy know him but i always cared about him and wanted the best for this young man.As i checked my emails befor I came in here I was saddened by the loss of another who I was praying for because she was so very sick but she to has passed.Again I didnt know this Lady but she was brought to my attention and she was in my prayers and thoughts.And so my attention and prayers will now be for Luvpains loved ones and their are plenty in here. You know sometimes life is so hard I dont know I guess I want to say something but I am at a loss for words by the passing of thies two soles.May God be with you at this time and for ever

I'm shocked and very sorry to hear the terrible news. I tried to write a response late yesterday, but the words didn't come. Matt was the first person I met from EA, and was kind enough to look after me when I was there in Philadelphia having surgery.

I feel like a monster for not keeping in contact, life just always seems to get in the way. It's just so unexpected that I'm not even sure where to begin.

Matt, I'm sorry. I hope wherever you are now that you are happy.

I'm very sorry to hear about Matt's (Luvpain's) passing away. Death and losing someone close to you is never easy, and their passing is more difficult when it is sudden and unexpected like this.

My sympathy and condolences to Matt's (Luvpain's) family and friends. I will keep him and them in my thoughts and prayers.

Matt (Luvpain) was a very big part of Eunuch Archive. He will be sadly missed, but always remembered here.

I'm sorry to hear the news. I didn't know Matt, but I read several of his posts and he made me think a lot. My compassion goes out to all who was close to him.

OneBallBoi (imported) wrote: Tue Jun 12, 2007 3:35 pm Many of you know that Matt (Luvpain) and I were extremely close. I became internet accessible in Feb or Mar, 2001. One of my first searches was "castration" and I came to Eunuch Archive where I met Matt. I shared with him that I was a Christian struggling with the identity of being Gay. He shared with me that he had the same problem. We grew closer are we shared our faith in Jesus Christ together with our desires to become Eunuch. I am going to miss Matt one supreme lot. We were so close together. But I know that absent from the body means present with the Lord. Matt's soul is in heaven today. God bless you Matt. You are going to missed by me till I get up in heaven someday.

OneBallBoi, thank you for providing this information about Matt being a Christian. Since I live on the west coast, I never had the pleasure of meeting Matt. From what those of you that knew him say, he was a wonderful young man. There must be some truth in the saying, "The good die young". We don't know why we are given the things in our lives that trouble us so much. Perhaps it is to help us become strong so we can help others. In his short time with us, I think Matt's life did help others. He must have done well as the Lord saw fit to take him home to his reward. That is the greatest comfort for those of us that are Christians.

Here is a message I am passing on from someone else who met him once online:

Dear friends:

Despite that i had shared only a few minutes with Matt on a teleconference in one of the last meetings he attended, thanks to lilac, i felt terribly sad with the shocking news of his fate.

Please, let his family and friends know that am sending my most sincere condolences and regret about their loss.

Rui Guerreiro

I never met him but, I found his profile extemely interesting. Rest in peace.

Robert-Lee

i only have this to add, life begins after death..this is not *life*, for the record i am not a christian, i think i believe in God (the God of the bible) but choose not to follow him, for many reasons..

he knows now what we do not.

I hope you are in a safe and loving place away from this cruel world.

The private service will be held in the Milwaukee area Wednesday afternoon. I have been passing on the messages from then board to his family. They very much knew how much the EA was to Matt all these years. Expecting our house full of people shortly so I need to do a lot of preparing.

Send my sympathies to all.

You know, our regular posters seem to by dying an a rate that is statistically high, given the size and age range of this group, or from what I have come to understand.

Is this not strange?

Or, a little paranoia goes a long, long way...