I have felt much the same as you. When I was as child and first heard that there was a surgery to change your boy parts in to girl parts I knew instantly this was something I would like to happen to me. Like you if I was 20 today I would give femenization a try with the goal of full transition. Being 60 I could maybe content with being eunuch. Going full nullo sounds like a good option too, but if I was spending that much money for nullification surgery and recovery time, I would go for the vagina and still present as male most times. But if for some reason my doctor informed me that I needed my penis and testicles removed I would have a hard time not smiling and expressing my joy!

TgEunuch, as a child of the sixties like me were you fascinated with hearing about men that had sex changes in the news and TV talk shows?

TgEunuch (imported) wrote: Mon Nov 18, 2019 7:38 am I never wanted to have a penis and testicles, so I really wouldn't missed them if they fell off. If I was closer to 20 rather 60, I think that I would give feminization a try was see what happens.

But at this stage of my life, I think that I would be very content to go full nullo eunuch and present myself as male.

Much as myself. I never wanted those things on my body. And getting rid of them in my 30s was the best thing I had ever managed to accomplish in my life. I would have never entertained the idea of becoming a female either. Nor do I now. It was never my intention to feminize my body. sure, my body changed over time to look less male or more female. BUT I AM STILL NOT A FEMALE THANKFULLY

Just before puberty assaulted me and I had some punishments relating to an ever expanding desire for knowledge (or perversion..you pick.)..I decided that I wished there was a "neuter gender". I wanted to be neuter gender. Not boy..not girl. Neuter. That was sometime back in the early 50's...1950's that is. Wasn't until late into my 50's that I got interested in CBT, ultimately having orchiectomy, next looking at prostate adjustment. I'm 73 this year..I'm going to stop my testosterone injections (due to side effects because of them). Hopefully I will achieve a near micro penis and finally be neuter gendered...

Shortstax (imported) wrote: Mon Nov 18, 2019 3:12 pm Just before puberty assaulted me and I had some punishments relating to an ever expanding desire for knowledge (or perversion..you pick.)..I decided that I wished there was a "neuter gender". I wanted to be neuter gender. Not boy..not girl. Neuter. That was sometime back in the early 50's...1950's that is. Wasn't until late into my 50's that I got interested in CBT, ultimately having orchiectomy, next looking at prostate adjustment. I'm 73 this year..I'm going to stop my testosterone injections (due to side effects because of them). Hopefully I will achieve a near micro penis and finally be neuter gendered...

New here. Interesting...

I can't say I hated my cock and balls all my life, but often times thought of the convenience of not having them. There were times my cock would get rock hard at the mere thought of sex, and stay hard, as if I ate a hand full of viagra. A blessing in one regard, a curse in another, it sometimes got painful. I would often crack it like people crack their knuckles, for relief. Or, it would twitch wanting to get hard, my balls electrified to the point of irritation. But, I went along for the ride. Though there was a few times, I role played cutting it all off.

Then came the internet, learning about CBT, genital mods, etc... Oh boy.... While I was still enjoying sex, I still had those same thoughts and issues. But, now, the internet enhanced my desires a bit.

I bought a castration bander and used it for the first time. The mere thought of my balls being destroyed - was enough. Seeing them dark purple, cold, without provocation, i cum uncontrollably. I was spurting all over. Much more than I ever had, even masturbating in the past. It just kept flowing.

I must agree with the others, cutting that band off, stings really bad for about 5 minutes. I have used it a few times since, but no cum like the first time. Mostly now, I just feed my sack and balls through the band, and close it, not pull it off the tool, though I often think about it. I loved seeing my balls get that shade of purple and cold. I have banded my cock to, very briefly.

When getting oral, I always had the party, if game, bite my cock as hard as possible at the head or base. Felt good!!!!

I used to be a good 7" with big balls. My balls seem bigger, my cock shrunk to maybe 4" and rarely gets hard. It is constantly twitching as in horney. My balls constantly buzzing. Being so big, often in my way too. I can still madturbate and cum. I could do it at least 6 times a day if I had time, just to rry to stop the irritation.

But, being my cock has shrunk and ED has set in to a good degree, now I am having even more constant thoughts of having my balls, sack and cock removed. I would opt for urethra diversion - squat to pee. Not interested in having any female changes done.

I have to constantly rearrange my balls, or play with my cock or balls, just to quiet them.

I have read stories of guys being castrated unsuspectingly, when meeting others for whatever. I keep hoping that might be the case. Trying to bring myself to asking for it to be done, isn't so easy. If taken by force, well...... So be it.... I have ran a few scenarios for that, through my head.

While I don't always use the bander, I often tie off my balls with rope. It doesn't get quite as tight - unfortunately, but it helps ease the pain of horniness.

I seen a burdizzo I considered buying, just to role play with , placing it on me and clamping down lightly.

I have thought of injecting the stuff some seem to have success with, into my balls. But, I would need a bit more info before I consider it further. I am not one for needles, but it could be a turn on sticking a needle in my balls.

I bought a tens unit, I have a blast with it. I crank it up as much as I can stand it. Pads on my cock and both balls. Feels great!!!!!

Are the members here permitted to email directly, if so, would love to email someone about this and more.

So, exactly which ingredient(s) go in the syringe? How much per dose? How often? Where exactly injected? How long before I lose the weight in my sack? Too bad the same can't be done with the cock. I would love that.

If I had my way (Drs wont do it), I would have it all removed and put on a platter in front of me, for consideration of stuffing it, putting it in a jar to admire, or who knows what else.

Some people feel ghost pain, amputated legs, etc.. I do with teeth no longer there. Anybody still feel their balls hanging, or a hard on, with nothing there???

It's not as much of a convenience as it is a matter of freedom. Removing yourself from the gene pool, from the driving force of libido..you remove yourself from the chains of social, cultural, political, religious, capitalist slavery that consumes all men the instant they achieve puberty, poke a woman, squirt nut juice, clone themselves and spend the rest of their lives protecting, defending, feeding, working, working, working for some kind of misguided dynasty...

Get some hypodermic needles, a bottle of cheap 80 proof or better vodka and inject as much as you can stand..starting with about 0.05cc. Every few days do it again, then start increasing the amount. Soon enough your balls will no longer be producing. Have fun..

eunuch2b (imported) wrote: Sun Oct 13, 2019 7:57 am I don't hate my penis or balls, but I'm an older man and have been more tending to become a-sexual for the last 10-15 years. I'm now that far that I would like very much to loose my balls and penis and become a-sexual in real life.

I don't hate my penis or balls

either. What I do like is the calm of less testosterone and the cosmetic look of a man without testicles. I have been thinking about having mine removed and have found a doctor to do it.

After my orchi and scrotectomy I don't miss my balls at all. In fact I rather like it. No more adjusting and pinching of those damn things.

Begoneboy (imported) wrote: Mon Nov 18, 2019 2:47 pm Much as myself. I never wanted those things on my body. And getting rid of them in my 30s was the best thing I had ever managed to accomplish in my life. I would have never entertained the idea of becoming a female either. Nor do I now. It was never my intention to feminize my body. sure, my body changed over time to look less male or more female. BUT I AM STILL NOT A FEMALE THANKFULLY

Your picture certainly looks female. Which do you present as most, male or female?

This is certainly my case. I hate my cock and balls and want them gone, but would like to retain my male attributes otherwise (body hair, muscle mass, voice...). I read this is a type of gender dysphoria called male-to-eunuch or male-to-nullo, as opposed to the more common MTF. I gave it much thought. My penis is locked in a chastity cage 24/7 and is only used as a pee hole. As for the balls, I get them beaten up quite often, being into bondage and bdsm. Everytime I am hoping this would result in permanent damage that will cause their loss. I'd be much happier without my genitals. I'd be a men without the male genitalia. This idea is growing more and more and I will search a way to make it happen. I think I'll be happier once it happens.