Many thanks for sharing your experience with us erikboy. In many ways your Androcur (cyproterone acetate) trial seems similar to my first go with cyproterone, except that I did experience hot flushes within the first few days. I have since tried using much smaller doses and have found that it still has a strong effect. I find that if I take enough to weaken my sex drive, the rest of me is weakened too. I'm not sure if this is everyone's experience, and I'll be interested to know how you get on.

Today I managed to have an orgasm againt. Amount of semen was small, regarding the time without ejaculation. Penis felt kind of numb.

But the greatest news is that, out of curiosity I checked my balding head. It is not completely bald, but on a half way. There is noticeably less hair. And you know what, I discovered in that half baldness a lot of very tiny and short hairs starting to grow! Skin surface wasn't smooth with few long hairs. there was like a very short grass field just about to start to grow.

Damn, that I had so little time with androcur. I am willing to endure more weakness to get my hair back!

There has been no hot flashes during last 24h. But almost no sex drive or erections either. Tiredness is less noticeable and muscle weakness is almost gone. I feel that I am not so slow anymore. Also I think my skin has been more dry than usual during last few days. After masturbation yesturday, no sexual thoughts.

Return to normal T seem to be even slower than chem castration took effect. I have very little sexual desire if any. No morning woods yet. But this tiredness is almost gone. I wonder if this weakness and tiredness is somehow linked to age. Like if I did that chem cast test 20 years earlier would I have felt as tired as I have felt it now? Children, before puberty do not seem to exhibit any tiredness or lack of energy.

It does take ages to come back, don't panic....

Actually you will find your endocrine system will end up overshooting the mark, well thats what happened to me last time....and you may get woods like you never had before....and then it will oscillate, you may go the other way again….and eventually it will return to normal.

One thing people should remember is one should not screw with the endocrine system and expect short term changes for the most part…my other trial on the other thread seems to contest that to a degree a in terms of speed to take effect at least, however I have no illusions about how long it may take to return to normal afterwards. I actually think it took as much as a year for the first trial to completely per normal…but the stages in between were not that bad and nothing a bit of Viagra would not fix. Although in my case this time i am not trying to completly neuter myself...just drop a bit and see if its possible to have the best of both worlds.

No morning woods so far. I still feel almost castrated. Which is like extension to my very short trial. I feel also my sexuality is kind of "shifted" it is hard to explain, but sexual things feel different. I seem to enjoy or notice things I didn't notice before. Interesting.

Things return really slowly. No morning woods so far since the beginning of trial. But I feel I get littlebit stronger and more energetic every day. I wonder if any of my friends noticed my slow paced walk But it was just because I couldn't move faster. I know now why old people (andro/menopaused) move so slow. No hurry. I've felt that.

I haven't noticed whether I've gained fat. At times I felt chubby, but I think it was because of general weakness not actual chubbyness. I think that backpains are also related to weak muscles allowing not so healthy position of spine.

But still there is almost no hornyness. I masturbated I think 3 days ago, with difficulties. No desire to that every day, or even once every 3 days...

Wow, ten years later, where are you now?

Shelli_k18 (imported) wrote: Tue Sep 04, 2012 10:17 am Wow, ten years later, where are you now?

Good point. Actually I've been around much earlier. Since the times of #eunuch irc channel on efnet. The year was 1996 or 1997.

Why didn't I do anything earlier, you may ask. Well, there was very little solid and public knowledge around abaout castration and chemical castration. I had to work my own fears and solve problems. Usually I have to be 100% sure before I would try anything new which is potentially dangerous, life changing, contains unknowns.

It is sad that it took so long for me. I wish now that it all happened 10 years ago. Or even earlier. But I just had to be sure on everything. A side effect of being 100% sure is that I am emotionally stable, no surprises.

From now on there is obviously nothing much happening. So, my posting frequency will decline.

Still, I haven't masturbated for 8 days. Last time I just gave up. Still haven't had any morning woods or erections generally since my failed masturbation attempt.

But today I suddenly felt hornyness. It is almost a month since I felt horny last time. At the same time I feel more energetic too. I have that strange desire to "accomplish" returned. Usually we do not notice that unless it is gone or back again. I think that is the thing that makes us feel motivated. I remeber that same feeling from times of my puberty. And it made me more focused and kept motivated until I got something done.

At the same time hornyness is dizzying and derailing.

Other funny thing is that now as effects of T are returning I tend to forget how it felt without T and when my T was very low, I forgot the feeling of being horny. In that sense it is good that I posted here my feelings and observations.