Your desciptions fit with what I experience. Just some wetness without any force. I still have desire, however, which after years without libido is strange and actually kinda thrilling.

I still want my penis to shrink to a little nub. I like longing without relief. I know that may seem weird, but that's where I am just now.

It just doesn't stay up. I have tried to get off since I first posted this message. All I have is this little nub. Press, tug, pull, beat, whatever, nothing but a bit of lubrication.

Blaise (imported) wrote: Thu Oct 10, 2002 3:46 am I don't get the feeling of an ejaculation-- the sense of climax or completion. The fluid has been clear for a long time when I have had ejaculations. There is little volume. In the past, my erect penis was about six inches. It was a thin, beautiful cock. Now, I have this little flacid things that never gets longer than maybe and inch and a half. It has been really tiny.

Before I took my medications

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Old Softee, it is great to read about someone else who is undergoing the same changes and you also seem to be thrilled with having a much smaller penis! I love this change.

Earlier this morning, I was curious again and I masturbated. I could not get an erection at all! It stayed totally limp for quite some time. That feeling (sort of a helplessness) was enjoyable, so I'm looking forward to the day when maybe I'll no longer have erections or I give up trying. Even when I struggle to get an erection, as soon as I take my hand away it (whatever hardness I achieve) gets limp in a hurry.

Just because I want a small or non-erect penis doesn't mean I don't like cocks. I think they are beautiful! I would not say that I am gay, but I probably have bisexual tendencies and attractions.

May I ask what medications you are taking?

Thanks for posting.

- Jim

I'm on Paxil but I've was also for years on other antidepressant meidcation. You describe my feeling exactly. I too love cocks. I'm probably bi-sexual though I've never made it with a guy--just never met anyone with whom I wanted to make it so maybe, not). I love the "feeling of helpllessness" you describe. I loved my beautiful cock before medication and age. It was quite beautiful. Now I love taping my little weenie into my body. I love the frustration of not being able to get it up and get it off.

I really most want a woman I love to make fun of me trying to lubricate my little weenie. I love going down on a woman, but I haven't made love in over a decade.

Blaise (imported) wrote: Thu Oct 10, 2002 11:36 pm You describe my feeling exactly. I too love cocks. I'm probably bi-sexual though I've never made it with a guy--just never met anyone with whom I wanted to make it. I love the "feeling of helpllessness" you describe. I loved my beautiful cock before medication and age. It was quite beautiful. Now I love taping my little weenie into my body. I love the frustration of not being able to get it up and get it off.

Old Softee,

Whow -- it is amazing; we really have the same feelings -- or it seems so. The feeling of helplessness is quite exquisite although eventually I do get a partial erection (nothing solid anymore). I've been yearning for this for some time. Our postings have generated some enthusiasm for me so I have been experimenting... yes, more masturbating! But, I almost experienced a dry climax earlier tonight and it was very rewarding. At climax I expected to feel a surge -- I did, but nothing was there except for a drop of moisture. It literally felt like a surge of air and had me groping for contents.

I am very interested in cocks and always have been. Even though my own member may be shrinking, I am hoping to some day play with and grip other men's penises. I'm optimistic that I will find someone who is large and hard. That's the best turn-on of all.

- Jim

Greetings!

My breasts have been tender and sore for about a week now. I feel that there has been some ongoing growth this week, and it is particularly noticeable tonight. Usually I could feel additional flesh (and fatty tissue... breasts) pressing against my inner arms and rubbing but tonight I have true awareness of a presence in front of me. My breasts can be cupped in front, underneath. Most of the mass is off to the side (towards the inner arm) and there is a substantial amount of breast to grab and it feels good. Oh, my breasts are nowhere as large as an average Woman and as mentioned before, they do not have the pleasing Female shape.

Many years ago when I was a very skinny and light man, I performed various exercises as depicted in Women's fitness magazines that claimed to help firm up the breasts. Of course then I had barely any fat, so these exercises were futile except for gaining arm strength. If I do these exercises now, my boobs stick out dramatically. Maybe they would firm up as well over time.

My skeleton is a man's skeleton, so I think that is causing the weird shape of my breasts. A Woman's breasts are nice and round.

- Jim

Greetings!

Well, I have been very pleased after just over three months of HRT. My whole package has shrunk to mini-size (not infantile, but boy size) and it seems smaller each day. This morning will mark two or three full days without masturbation attempts or ejaculation. Last night I tried playing with it but there was no response. Although I am sure I would have been able to get the penis to move and thicken eventually, I gave up.

The one thing that I don't need or want is breast development. Oh -- believe me, I don't mind it personally because it is quite lovely but professionally it's just not an option for me now. My breasts seem to grow each day, especially after being released from a pullover shirt or t-shirt. They have been sore for almost three weeks. It is quite obvious that I have boobs (when shirtless) and even the areolas have changed. They seem to be wider (not a perfect circle) and truly resemble a Woman's areolas but are very light and pink, not brown. The nipples protrude most of the time but that's probably because I'm feeling my breasts.

As much as I hate to, I am going to taper off the estrogen at least until the tenderness goes away. I believe the Spirotone is doing a great job sterilizing me whether temporary or permanent. I just received an order of Promensil yesterday and will supplement that with phyto-estrogens and Black Cohosh. Of course I'll continue with my Ovary glandulars and Boron.

I know that the hormones are more powerful and I love them, but my goal has not been to turn female even though I have no objection to this. If anyone has experience with plant estrogens and "feminizing" herbal supplements, please post here so we can discuss. There is plenty of

slave_jim (imported) wrote: Thu Oct 03, 2002 3:58 am information at www.sissify.com

on various herbs and such.

This morning I woke up and I was cold even though it is 80° in here so I put a t-shirt on. Yesterday was my first Promensil tablet. Normally I open the window and have a fan blowing cool morning air into my house. Not this morning, though.

Also, it's too early to jump to conclusions but I do feel very feminine this morning, kind and considerate, and very gentle.

- Jim

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slave_jim (imported) wrote: Fri Oct 25, 2002 3:23 am If anyone has experience with plant estrogens and

> feminizing" herbal supplements, please post here so we

> can discuss.

I have been taking 6 capsules of Evanesce per day (http://www.myevanesce.com/) since around the beginning of the month. (I had to stop taking it before due to family interference. I am secretly taking it again now.) The site claims that Evanesce has the most powerful testosterone suppressors available without a prescription.

I've noticed a less in aggression, sex drive, as well as less spontaneous erections. The erections aren't completely gone, though. Herbal products aren't that powerful.

About a week ago, I had a nocturnal emission. However, the volume of fluid was less than normal and it made less of a mess.

happousai (imported) wrote: Fri Oct 25, 2002 4:20 pm I have been taking 6 capsules of Evanesce per day (http://www.myevanesce.com/) since around the beginning of the month. (I had to stop taking it before due to family interference. I am secretly taking it again now.) The site claims that Evanesce has the most powerful testosterone suppressors available without a prescription.

I've noticed a less in aggression, sex drive, as well as less spontaneous erections. The erections aren't completely gone, though. Herbal products aren't that powerful.

About a week ago, I had a nocturnal emission. However, the volume of fluid was less than normal and it made less of a mess.

Wonderful -- thank you for posting Happousai!

I have looked into Evanesce before and it seems to be a product that is a possibility for me... thanks for the endorsement.

Although they have a different use and effect, my own experience is that herbal products can indeed cause some changes to my body. I noticed immediate results from (Promensil, phyto-estrogens, or Black Cohosh) as some additional tightening and shrinkage occured in my scrotum. My penis was small when flaccid anyway but now it is even smaller and is just barely a little head most of the time. However, I've had years of glandulars and minerals plus 3+ months of HRT.

In the shower I can tell that the last week or so my testicles / scrotum have become smaller -- especially when washing. I used to cup with four fingers but now I can do it with two. The balls feel less firm as well; hell, there just isn't much to grab.

Of course all these changes are so exciting I was stimulated last night and couldn't hold back. I masturbated. There was a flow of fluid <more> but I was in the semi-dark so I couldn't check for white. The climax felt good even though what came out was far diminished from say, four months ago.

The website you listed had several feminizing products listed worthy to observe. Thank you.

- Jim

The problem with herbals for any relief is not only the amount of pills and the cost involved, but the problem of allergies to certain ones as well.

Always test some on your skin first before you eat it!

As someone mentioned, you have to eat a pile of the stuff to see any results at all. I experimented years ago with DQ and SJW and some others. While I did see some results prior to my other inflammation / infection onset, it wasnt' worth the cost for the OTC herbals that you can buy anywhere.

I seriously doubt the powers of these things now, and would advise anyone using them to do so carefully.

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Paolo wrote: Sat Oct 26, 2002 5:22 am it wasnt' worth the cost for the OTC herbals that you

> can buy anywhere.

In the case of Evanesce, it costs about $30 per month for 6 pills per day. (The website says any more than 6 per day will probably be wasted.)

That seems comparable to the price of Estrofem. (At http://www.inhousedrugstore.com/womens- ... rofem.html Estrofem costs $57.50 for 5 28-packs of Estrofem 2mg. http://www.annelawrence.com/regimens.html suggests to take 6mg daily, which works out to ~$37 per month.)