Well,

On the rare occasions when I start to feel down, depressed, self-pity (and I have reason to), I just think of people living in slums, like in Slumdog Millionaire, or people who are hooked on drugs or alcohol or cigarettes (which I am not) or people who are in prison for something (which I have never been), and people who have cancer or have a loved one who has cancer or any other life threatening health condition, or our troops stuck in Iraq and Afghanistan or...........sheese the list goes on and on.

Oh, life is fickle, and at any given moment it can go from worse to worse, or much worse. There are situations that I would find absolutely completely intolerable and I would wish I were dead, or make it so. But thankfully, so far, I am free and clear of them.

Listening to music can be emotional. I can create or replay scenes in my mind, with eyes closed, and be of any emotion. The world is a stage, and there is nothing wrong with being the only performer who has no audience. A totally non-judgemental experience.

You would need to examine your deepest inner desires. If you truly want to be completely submissive and passive to another man, then genital modification could be entertained.

Do you wish to live as a pure submissive never to Top again?

Hard questions I know but ones you must really ponder upon before undergoing surgery or therapy.

Personally, I know I am a complete submissive bottom and would love to find a man who would entertain the ying / yang balance of such a relationship. The modifications should be consensual and fulfill eachothers true desires.

Peace and Light

It will not be long now. I am to be castrated in very near future.

I have to wait for swelling to go down. As a going away present my bf spanked them with a paddle till I past out. I had a safe word but those balls needed that spanking they are so bad.

TrophyBoy (imported) wrote: Sat May 02, 2009 4:36 pm You would need to examine your deepest inner desires. If you truly want to be completely submissive and passive to another man, then genital modification could be entertained.

Do you wish to live as a pure submissive never to Top again?

Hard questions I know but ones you must really ponder upon before undergoing surgery or therapy.

Personally, I know I am a complete submissive bottom and would love to find a man who would entertain the ying / yang balance of such a relationship. The modifications should be consensual and fulfill eachothers true desires.

Peace and Light

I bet Yoli could have a LOT of fun with you... she's no man, though, but she has many characteristics of one personality-wise.

Sorry I have not written in so long.

many of you have said if I would be castrated and have penis removed I could lose my bf.

will you were right.

But not in the way you said.

The morning I was going to doctor he left to get a few things from the store.

he had an wreck and was killed.

He left me very well off. for money but my life is mt.

I have no one to love.

and i do not want someone else.

the doctor said I should want to have balls and penis removed to get passed mourning time.

more later I need a good cry.

You have my sympathy - and I know of what I speak. --FLO--

gregwhite (imported) wrote: Sun Jun 07, 2009 8:43 pm Sorry I have not written in so long.

many of you have said if I would be castrated and have penis removed I could lose my bf.

will you were right.

But not in the way you said.

The morning I was going to doctor he left to get a few things from the store.

he had an wreck and was killed.

He left me very well off. for money but my life is mt.

I have no one to love.

and i do not want someone else.

the doctor said I should want to have balls and penis removed to get passed mourning time.

more later I need a good cry.

I would have serious questions about an MD that would tell a patient that you should have your

gregwhite (imported) wrote: Sun Jun 07, 2009 8:43 pm balls and penis removed to get pas

t the mourning time.

If your partner died then your future is quite different than it was previously.

This is a time to re evaluate your situation and whatever you do should be for you and not someone else either living or dead.

Greg,

I am so sorry to hear of this tragedy. I can only imagine your pain. Please know that you are among friends.

As others have said, this is not the time to take major steps, even if you are simply carrying out a decision that you made earlier. Please give yourself a lot of time to grieve. It cannot be hurried.

Be well,

Peter

gregwhite (imported) wrote: Sun Jun 07, 2009 8:43 pm Sorry I have not written in so long.

many of you have said if I would be castrated and have penis removed I could lose my bf.

will you were right.

But not in the way you said.

The morning I was going to doctor he left to get a few things from the store.

he had an wreck and was killed.

He left me very well off. for money but my life is mt.

I have no one to love.

and i do not want someone else.

the doctor said I should want to have balls and penis removed to get passed mourning time.

more later I need a good cry.

Jimmy97204 (imported) wrote: Tue Jun 09, 2009 10:57 am I would have serious questions about an MD that would tell a patient that you should have your

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t the mourning time.

If your partner died then your future is quite different than it was previously.

This is a time to re evaluate your situation and whatever you do shou
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ld be for you and not someone else either living or dead.

I have the same questions, and from my personal view I would advice him:

First find that good cry, there is nothing wrong with it

loveUall

Jean

gregwhite

Until you get out of your current relationship and be in no relationship with anyone for a year or so you won't know if your feelings are a result of what you want, or because of domination that another person has over you.

Good Luck