Dealing with mental effects of a low testosterone

[devi (imported)]

Oh, I don't even have a clue what my score is. Only know that it has got to be very, very low. I have no balls. When I had them they were very undersized. But in my late forties, I felt that they getting bigger (cancer?) and uncomfortable so got cut. I suffered no hot flashes afterwards. As far as having sex is concerned, I'd like it but I feel better not persuing it. This is the way that I've been most of my adult life. And for work, I don't have anything impressive but I do get my bills covered. I'm like most people of my generation and younger: --Just getting by. Jonesing. I have no house, no health insurance, and no retirement coming. But a little bit of savings and royalties which could easily get wiped out in no time. When I was younger and just starting out, I expected to go somewhere and do a lot. But let's face it, wages and the standard of living have greatly deteriorated in real terms since the early seventies. The baby boomers had it good (those born before '56) and then we came along and joined the before unknown unemployment lines. So with all of the adjustments to a lower standard of living that we've been making we have been kicking ourselves for what we blame on ourselves. And of course each generation after has been lost since then. I would quit blaming yourself and just make plans to get on with the rest of your life and hopefully enjoy a few magical moments along the way. In the end that's all you can ever really do.

[mrt (imported)]

but do the women you are with enjoy it very much? For me that was the best part, knowing a girl wanted you and was turned on, I dont think you could get that with taking a fake supplement

And I am not anxious at all, I am just waiting around to die pretty much, the problem is you have to adjust to this world and get a job and all that crap, I would feel content living a life in denial just sleeping, fantasizing about the life I could have had and eating when I am hungry, at this point I dont know what to do because I am going to be homeless in 7 days, I felt like someone who was going to change the world and make it a better place, but in many ways this world beat me down and led me to the shape I am in, I am bitter and angry, this thing wouldnt have happened had I been able to see a psychologist when I wanted to or some other things hadnt taken place that were out of my control(as a result of evil cruel people)

I just cant accept this, if I had a different life I might have been able to accept this but I had a really tough childhood, had gone through alot in my 20s and found this peace and clarity to life then a few things happened then this happened and now I am in hell, I am just unable to accept this, I feel the only way to accept this is to try an adjust to life without taking TRT and living how I am

Of course my consience is telling me to get revenge on certain people who helped me be in the shape I am in, but because I was a coward before this and I am a coward now I probably wont do that

Ahh! I think I get what the problem is. HRT is not a fake supliment. I can appreciate you worry what with all this "male enhancement" crap being sold as if it does anything (which is 99% snake oil) HRT is real Human Male Hormones. When you take this your not taking some rube sheet rock "fake" pills. Your getting the real hormones that your testicles are not able to provide.

This feeling you have sounds very much like how I felt when my hormone levels were low. Work was too much work. I didn't have the energy or motivation to do squat. DO (please) talk to a doctor asap and get set up to try HRT. I may take a while to get on a dose that works but its worth it and based on your post will make your life about 1000x better.