becoming a eunuch

[may172001 (imported)]

Wonder what it will be like after haveing them removed.

I am scared not but really serious about this.

I plan to be done in the next few months.

I am very serious about this and looking foward to this.

I hope that things work out well and all goes nice.

I am feeling a little scared about getting fat and things but have heard some guys like it and are very happy.

Guess losing the sex frive may help and I will learn how to control sexual impulses.

I am hopeing that I will be happy with no testicles and I will be able to function ok with non.

Also I wonder how HRT will do for me if required.

Androderm androgel depor t etc.

What doses I wonder are average for a younger guy like me in my ealry 20's?

I sure hope I make a good decision before it is too late

I am bring honest and have the funds saved now to be done.

Oh yea Kimmel does not keep record of patients sometimes but has thm sign the consents and all.

I wonder how this will work out for me?

I am not sure what to think about how I will feel after.

I will admit I am scared.

NON TG though at this time.

Wonder if I will end up in a puzzle factory or be unable to work and end up with disability for psychosis or some form of chronic depression or something.

I am scared what should I do I wonder.

Please anyone befroe it is too late and I cant turn back can you help with my procedure affects and what it is like after.

I need a week off then I guess?

Wonder why Dr;s have a ahrd time with RX of androgens.

I am scared please help me.

I want to be freidns and be supportinve to others.

Thanks so much!

[philip1 (imported)]

its fairly clear you have doubts because you do I say DONT DO IT any doubts will quickly turn into self hate so again DON'T DO IT

[may172001 (imported)]

Thanks very much!

I need to think about it. I am just a little butterflied it is a scarey thing to do I guess.

I just wonder what it will be like after is all.

I hope that I feel good.

I wonder if antidepressants will keep me from being depressed after?

I wonder the diffrnt things I can do to stay happy?

Thanks1

[JeffEunuch (imported)]

I need to think about it. I am just a little butterflied it is a scarey thing to do I guess.

I just wonder what it will be like after is all.

I hope that I feel good.

I wonder if antidepressants will keep me from being depressed after?

I wonder the diffrnt things I can do to stay happy?

As long as you're uncertain and concerned about whether chemicals can carry you through a period of depression following castration, why would you ever do it? Save your $. Continue to have fantasies.

I consulted with many docs over the years. While I can't say I was 100% certain I'd have the same quality of life in other respects afterward, I only went through with losing my balls because I knew that the discomfort and pain I felt in my crotch would be gone forever, and that's the way it's been.

[Robby (imported)]

Lets not get off track here. This is Philip's story... If you have an issue to discuss, please start another thread. Thanks...

[philip1 (imported)]

decision made about my thread......it stays.

now a note:

This Eunuch thing is not fun its not easy and its not anything anyone should do just cause it sounds good. I am satisfied with the results but would I wish this on even an enemy HELL NO!! I know you may call that a regret but it isn't I'm just stating a fact. Mood swings suck because you never see them coming, hot flashes are getting REALLY old, and taking ten pills a night is for the birds. that said I would do it all over again in a HEART BEAT because I am now truly myself and I like me. I may have good and bad days and the bad ones may seem really bad but the good ones are always way better than the bad. and as many have witnessed I still have my temper but it is slower to reach boiling point.

[Paolo]

Phil,

I think your thread is very important to EA and those considering castration. If you feel the need - or even don't want it to become - a "dear Abby" type thing, that is up to you. But I think what you are doing is very good and entirely relevant to the rest of us here.

Thanks.

[An Onymus (imported)]

Phil--

You may already have looked into this, and concluded that it doesn't work, but I thought I'd mention it, as I remember reading that some people had found it useful. A few years ago, I read several articles about alpha wave conditioning, as a way of modulating mood swings, shaping attitudes, and generally counteracting some less pleasant psychological phenomena. I really don't know much about brain wave conditioning, and perhaps someone with a background in psychology--Krister, for example--could tell you more about the conditioning process and whether it works or not. I would assume it is one of those things that works for some individuals and not for others, and perhaps psychological phenomena which are derived from hormone properties, aren't substantially affected by the conditioning process. If I recall correctly, you have to use an encephalograph until you learn to control the waves, and then asserting effective control just takes effort and concentration. I don't think the conditioning would do anything for hot flashes. I always had the impression that, for women, they usually fade out after a year or so. As I guess you know, there are a wide range of treatments for the flashes, some of which work for some people, some for others, and some people don't seem to get relief from anything for hot flashes.

[philip1 (imported)]

Lonely eunuch,

Bubba left Sunday for Florida, he will be there for two weeks. I don't know how I will be able to stand being away from him but I must.

I am still having hotflashes but the are infrequent and fairly mild. Moodswings are less frequent too I think I may be leveling off (knock on wood). Bubba and I have been adopted by a little black dog named Lucy and we love her to bits so the being apart is not so bad.

[philip1 (imported)]

BUBBA'S HOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!

I am glad to say that. I missed him terribly I have him all to myself now I am so happy!!!!!