Happiness is:

No uncontrollable rage

No supprises

Being Loved

Realising that you are now the person you dreamt you should be

Being good (I mean DAMN GOOD) at your job

Not being judged by the people arround you

Knowing that the person you love loves you back more even though you love them more

Having brain cycles freed from thoughts of sex

Happiness for me is BEING A EUNUCH!!!!!!

I have a second interview with a custom chopper shop tomorrow I kind of hope I get the job. I currently work as a MIG welder on heavy stuff and I can't lift it any more so lifting exhaust pipes will be a nice change.

29,000 wow I never could have immagined that the little tale about my becoming who I really am would ever get this big. I still have many here to thank for my being alive but most of all I thank my Bubie, Without his diligent watch I would have been dead 8 months ago, I love Bubie with all my heart he truly is my soulmate. I also have to thank many of the regulars on the EA chat there are some really nice people there.

Update on the interview I got the job WOO HOO! I will be building custom harley-davidson's

NOTE: I have no plans on owning one. I am too attatched to life to buy a bike.

I start at the new job tomorrow, I'm just a tad nervous but I think I'll make a positive impression.

Philip--

Having once learned to weld with an arc welder myself, I can understand the satisfaction which comes from having done a competent welding job. Never actually was employed as a welder, though.

Just a question. Since you moved from one of the most socially liberal areas of the country to one of the more conservative areas, do you find that, with regard to persons who are aware of your sex condition, there are any discernible differences in people's reactions and general attitudes toward your eunuch status, in North Carolina, as compared to Washington state? My impression about North Carolina is that it is one of the more progressive areas of the South--though I'm not sure that the eunuch sex condition is something that has much to do with liberalism and conservatism, in a social context. Anyway, it would be interesting to get your impressions about this. Of course, I'd expect any differences indicate more about the people around you, than about any differences in your own attitudes in your new location.

I have been met with acceptance here, no shock or animosity its nice to be able to be myself without fear of reprocussions

end of the first week at the new job......

I never thought my design ideas would be considdered good by anyone. its small but I designed teeth onto one of the custom bikes and the boss loves it. so when thunder or big twin or thumper magazine does a write up on Ricky Cravens custom chopper look just ahead of the engine thats me.

Philip--

There are very few individuals who are both good creative artists and good welders. By all means, you should do some experimenting in this area, since welded sculpture has unique features that can't be duplicated in any other medium. I'm not sure whether there are outlets for metal sculpture in North Carolina, but, considering the many furniture manufacturers there, I would think there must also be a number of galleries which provide accessories for interior decorators--sculpture, of course, being something used in high-end interior decoration. Don't worry about it if you don't think you're creative. Find some sculpture that you like, done in another technique, and then try doing one or more variations on it as welded work. You should try doing something like this, just to see if you have the flair for it. The money can be really, really, really good.

something happened at work that I have to share. we were making straps or a plastic drum and while we were bending the strapping arround the drum my coworker said (in a southern accent) you might want to watch your balls there or they'll get smacked. I looked down....almost laughed out loud and stepped slightly to the side........................

If they only knew...................

hehehehehehehehehe

Having balls is fun, for awhile.

Having balls is not by choice.

Having no balls is more fun.

Having no balls if by choice.

No balls now.

No regrets.

It is just different.

I like my floppy empty sack and dangling participle.

Not into nullo.

Would like to try giant fake balls some day.

Just for the heck of it.

Enjoy the moment you loose your balls.

It comes but once. Unfortunately.

Make the most of it.

Looking forward to the photos and video.

You are going to do photos and video I hope.