Hello.
for a long time now, I've read about 110 pages completely, and I decided that I would give it a shot. I'm currently taking spironolactone, and I want to stop. It's not expensive, but it's a pain and it's not permanent, it also sucks having to pee all the time. So yesterday I got some syringes and needles in the mail. They're 29g .5 inches long, and a half a cc capacity.
So last night, I decided it was time. I drank some beer, filled a syringe with 95% alcohol (everclear), and took the plunge. At first I only poked at the skin, as the thought of a piece of metal piercing my skin isn't something I would consider pleasant. I have no fear of needles at the doctors, though. So I finally got up the nerve, and stuck it in. Yea, it hurt a bit as I pushed it in, but it was also mixed with a curious feeling that I cannot describe. I was literally SOOOOOOO nervous. I can't describe it.
I got it to the right spot, and then started to push down on the plunger. Immediately it felt like I was punched/ kicked in the balls. I hate that feeling. As I pushed it felt like more pressure was building up, it was quite unpleasant. More of an aching feeling mixed with pain and discomfort. I didn't want to push myself the first time and have something go wrong, so I stopped far before I wanted, I got like... .1cc into the left testicle. I wanted to go more, but I started getting really hot, sweaty. My heart was racing. I started getting nauseous (beer probably wasn't the best idea lol). So I took a break and did some of my homework (college summer school sucks). I felt the need to lay down.
I injected at 12:30am, finished my homework around 2:30am. The pain was gone from the left one, but it was still sore, especially to the touch. Onto the right testicle. I got a new syringe/needle. I filled it up with 95% alcohol. This one I got about .2cc into the testicle. It might not be a normal amount, but hey, it swelled up to it's normal size (about a year ago, before spironolactone and estrogen, my balls were larger, at least 1.5x as large as they are now). I'm writing this about 12 hrs later, and they're still large, the right one moreso, but the left is still sore. They are both sore to the touch.
I'm wondering if spironolactone has decreased the about of alcohol I need to fully castrate myself, as my balls are already smaller in size than they were 6 months ago. I'm not going to push my body, as after injecting the right testicle, I layed down to go to sleep, and a few times a minute, it felt like someone was nut tapping me, causing a small surge of pain. I fear that the more alcohol I inject into each one, the stronger the pain will be. Because of the small amounts of alcohol I injected, I might end up injecting more in 3 or 4 days if it feels appropriate.
I'm sorry for the novel, but I felt it was appropriate to fully explain what I'm doing and why. It's also important to have a baseline for something like this. The more information provided, the more help I can be to all of you guys looking to try this.