I'm now employed

woo hoo

Congratulations!

You pack up and move across the continent to follow Bubba. You have no contacts to speak of in your new location. You find a job in a week!!! This does say something important about your competence. I know you'll do great.

thanks everyone for your words of encouragement,

Day two at the new job:

today went better than yesterday I didn't get hyperthermic and we got a lot done. I actually drove myself to work and back without getting lost. But this manual labor thing I don't know how long I can do this. I really know that my my lean muscle is going away ugh!!!

can you say major mood swings................................

This message has been eliminated because it would make things worse rather than better.

my existance has ruined the plans of everyone I have ever been involved with... I wish my mom remembered the pill then I wouldn;t have fucked up every life I have had contact with......Wow Philip,

Is Bubba okay today? Sounds like you're having a bad day.

Life is difficult and there are no easy answers. Tomorrow the sun comes up and we start over again.

Hang in there buddy.

I will be taking some time away from the archive. I know I am emotional now so what I wasn't ever before in my life. Right now I have a lot of stress in my life and I do not need any armchair quarterbacking. right now I just think its best that I be left alone for a while.

OK.....

So in case anyone was paying attention I hate Birthdays I have been depressed 25 out of 32 birthdays and I expect this trend to continue till I am too old to remember that I'm old. I find birthdays to be a horrible reminder that I was tossed upon the earth wrongly equiped and that I am one year closer to death. ugh

I am ok the cursed day has passed I am better but I HATE birthdays.

getting castrated/nulloed/etc is a very personal choice. I read about guys done because of their wife/boyfriend/master, etc...

For me I knew the time was right and have no regrets.

Bob

this thread is a documentary about my

philip1 (imported) wrote: Sat Mar 19, 2005 8:41 pm transition from genetic male to

Eunuch/ neutrois I welcome comments but try to keep them on topic otherwise it degrades the origional intent of this thread.

now that I have been free of testosterone for 10 months or so I have noticed some significant loss of muscle strength while supprising it is not anything to panic over as I did expect it going in.

I have a question for the members here and please be honest...

How many here are castrated and are NOT taking any kind of hormones?

I ask as I kind of feel alone in that I have no intention of ever taking them.