Thanks. Occassionally I also have entered a church that has been around for a couple of centuries which sort of had a different 'feel' to it. Not sure I could attribute healing to it, though.

Regarding the castration fantasies, I find I have a lot of conflicting things mixed up. First of all, I think my initial desire for nullification came from being over-sexed and uncomfortable with the constant urges. However, then that somehow got mixed into an excitement for having a woman destroy my genitals as a sexual thrill. This was a combination as well -- partly interest in the pain itself (I'm a serious masochist), partly interested in a woman who would be excited to do it (pleasing a woman sort of thing), and lastly the thrill of the finality of it all. The finality of it is probably the thing I now seek the most -- I would really like the most to have penectomy without castration. I've given up on the castration because I realize that I like most of the effects of testosterone (physically, mentally, energy, etc.) but am obsessed with losing my cock. The main thing holding me back from penectomy though is that most of the nullos seem to still be able to orgasm and to me that would be a big disappointment -- I want the sublime anguish of wanting to cum but never being able to.

So basically if they could be replaced, then I guess some aspects of my fantasy could be enhanced -- I could experience the pain over and over and there would presumably be many women who would take it up as part of their sexual practices -- but the replaceability would ruin my hopes for a final ultimate chastity sort of situation.

Hey splitdick,

All us extra horny men already have your wish. No matter how many times we have sex and try to completely satisfy our endless lust and cravings for sex, orgasms, and ejaculations, our sex drives always want more. Even with our overproductive balls emptied to dry orgasms from multiple ejaculations, that endless hunger for more sex is forever working deep inside us, driving us on for more endless sex. A really high sex drive never gets enough !

Mine were removed because of pain and loss of T production due to mumps years earlier. If I could have the same pair again that I had in my teens, yeah, I think I'd go for that.

Would I have the guts to do it? I don't know. But I would seriously consider it, just to see what it's like.