With unresolved issues remaining I think I know what I have to do.

walking

I made mistakes

sorry

I surcome

do not know what to do any more

My life here

and get no where

away and

I am greatly troubled on what I should do. I have enjoyed the chat room greatly over many years. The message board as well. I know I have helped many guys understand the effects of castration and chemical castration. The problem I am facing is that I am having problems facing one of the policies of the site. I have been struggling with it for three weeks now. Have lost sleep and been generally upset and depressed because of it. The question is do I follow my heart or what I think is best for the site? Need some help in this.

Please your thoughts.

In the chat room I am now Eunuk. I was for years known as ChemEunuch.

bobbie (imported) wrote: Thu Oct 20, 2005 5:58 am I am greatly troubled on what I should do. I have enjoyed the chat room greatly over many years. The message board as well. I know I have helped many guys understand the effects of castration and chemical castration. The problem I am facing is that I am having problems facing one of the policies of the site. I have been struggling with it for three weeks now. Have lost sleep and been generally upset and depressed because of it. The question is do I follow my heart or what I think is best for the site? Need some help in this.

Please your thoughts.

In the chat room I am now Eunuk. I was for years known as ChemEunuch.

what policy are you speaking of? I still don't understand what the problem is after all this gnashing of teeth....

Hi bobbie/bf

I kinda see what you mean, I think. But first of all, we do miss you there and hope to see you back soon. I dont really care for the fantasy chat either, but I use too as many have, im sure. But I dont think we can stop people from doing that, unless there was no way to open pvt windows. But anyway, I'm prolly lost as usual... 8-} All I know is you are mised around there, and I think you know that and wish you would return. :-SS "Forgiveness is a good thing"

love always, Lilac

Bobbie,

I agree that a uniform set of rules would improve the chat and possibly even the EA

I also think that there should be requirements that have to be met in order to be an op in the chat. I also beleive that there are what I call no-ops ot non-functional ops ones that don't do anything, this does nothing but hurt the chat. If this post offends someone I am sorry but the truth hurts sometimes

I see that almost 300 visits to my last two postings. Only two people have earned my respect by having a back bone and speaking up. Interesting in that neither have any balls but are more then worthy to be a real person in my book.

I do chose my friends well.

Chat rooms remain a mystery to me. I do not enjoy taking part in them. I tried to chat at least one time here, but I did not enjoy the experience. I do not have much interest in sharing fantasies with guys. Nothing wrong with it, as they said on Seinfeld, but it is just not my thing.

Thus, I have no insight into how to regulate a chat room. This part of the forum is foreign to me. It seems that is must be a helpful place and a fun place for many people.

My own fantasies were about penectomy, not castration.It was an anxiety based fantasy.

A couple of years ago, I liked the results of my HRT. I still do. I like having sexual organs, muscle mass, and even a hint from time to time of libido.

However, I enjoyed not having sexual desires or having very low desire for over a decade. I do see the advantages of being a eunuch. It is not a bad way to live--I suppose if that is what one wants. However, I would want anyone considering voluntary castration to have access to the wisdom of those who have and that gets back to the need for rules and regulations in the chat rooms.

My little experience in one here was not awful but it was not helpful.

I enjoy chat, real and fantasy. But it was anoying when I was close to getting castrated that I could not find one caring person to answer basic questions. All the people that chatted with me wanted to do was JO.

Trust me, I understand that castration can be erotic, I JO to my snip snip clip alot, but at the time I was looking for real answers to real concerns.

Bobbie, I still do not know exactally what it is that is the issue? did someone with op privledges boot you one day or something?

I do enjoy your post, and you have provided me with real insights.

I am on testosterone which is kinda a no-no in this group for some reason, but I do enjoy my new nuts and the freedom that removing the old ones give me.

Bob

Bobbie,

I know what you mean. I have met one of the leaders of the forum who has mailed me an excellent DVD, a postcard, and other notes. That did not happen in a chat room.

When I tried to chat, all anyone wanted was the JO to his fantasies. That did not interest me.

There are some impressive people behind this forum. I enjoy being here, even though the original motive has changed in my being here.

Your real pain in this thread is something that I am glad you can share. Thank you.

Ted