justapup (imported) wrote: Thu Oct 27, 2022 8:21 am I never went on hormones after I was castrated in April of 2021. The 6 months after were great! My body slowly over that time dropped from 348 ng/dl of testosterone to just 30 ng/dl. After those 6 months is when the negative things started appearing. I've lost a lot of interest in sexual things that I enjoyed tremendously when I had normal testosterone, my muscle mass has gone way down and if I am not careful I can become exhausted and very irritable. My moods swing very differently than before, sometimes I wonder if I am able to feel anything at all, then my mood swings really hard in one direction or another. Aside from those issues though. I love it. I do not feel like a man anymore and my body has been transforming into its new eunuch shape perfectly.

Your experience is quite similare to mine, only I have been chemcastrated several times up to 5 months. I used Androcur and Tamoxifen. It seems like chemcastration happen more quickly. Androcur blocks T receptors and then regulates down T production. Quite harsh. My T dropped from around 600ng/ml to 17ng/dl. I don't know how quickly, but the T level test was taken 1,5 months after start.

The very first things I noticed was morning wood disappeareance and sleep difficulties. Then hot flashes and night sweats. I woke up almost every morning being wet all over. It seemed like my temperature regulator was broken. Even a small physical activity made me wet. But that was ok with me, as it reminded me that I am castrated. It was a good feeling. I would say that first 0,5-1,5 months were most difficult. Sometimes I even asked myself am I sane that I do that to myself. But as brain chemistry got adjusted to low T, I started to feel much better. Gradually masturbation rates dropped and porn watching need disappeared completely. Until I discovered that I hadn't cared to masturbate for like 2 weeks. Which was a very nice relief, as usually I had to do it 1-2 times a day. Sometimes I discovered that I am completely asexual. Like in situations with other people or attractive people. That felt also very relieving. Even enjoyable. Having no compulsive thoughts of sexual nature, eliminates the mental pressure to monitor my behaviour. I would feel free.

So far my chemcastration periods start at spring and end in autumn. So I would be chemcastrated during most physically active period. Instead of gaining fat I always loose weight. So far I have always been mentally stable during these periods. Oh and I do get more emotional. It is much more difficult to hold back my emotions. The thing you call "no emotions at all" is something that I think is "dopamine depletion" associated with low sex steroids. It is the thing that makes you feel motivated and happy. And lack of it makes everything feel bland, uninteresting and nothing could make you feel excited. I have experienced that, but last time it was not very serious problem for me.

And yes, physically I become slower and weaker. Things become heavier. So doing physical work feels more difficult for me. But then again I wouldn't spend hours and hours watching porn and masturbating, doing nothing useful. It is much better to not watch porn and do things slightly slower. And physical activity for an eunuch is still good. Getting something done is motivating that compensates dopamine depletion. Also the muscle loss is less obvious.

there is one more thing I enjoy about being castrated, it is my acne that disappears completely. My face skin looks so clean and even. Oilyness is gone.

I wonder what castration would feel like at 1y mark or 2y mark. Are there any more changes?

My last nebido shot was in September 2022, and since then, whilst prescribed testosterone gel, have hardly taken any. Probably a single pump once every 2 weeks at most, if planning sex with my partner. So far, I’ve not had any side effects which is odd. My sex drive is way down (handy whilst healing from nullification) but it’s still there. By February, erections were quite hard to achieve though possible if determined. 3 weeks after nullification, I definitely still notice my nullo zone getting tight if I’m mentally turned on - so either still some residual testosterone remains or my adrenal glands are producing some.

In the event of a physical injury or if you have undergone surgery, a sufficient testosterone level is preferable during the recovery period.

You should follow the recommendations of your doctor.

erikboy (imported) wrote: Sun Mar 05, 2023 1:54 pm Your experience is quite similare to mine, only I have been chemcastrated several times up to 5 months. I used Androcur and Tamoxifen. It seems like chemcastration happen more quickly. Androcur blocks T receptors and then regulates down T production. Quite harsh. My T dropped from around 600ng/ml to 17ng/dl. I don't know how quickly, but the T level test was taken 1,5 months after start.

The very first things I noticed was morning wood disappeareance and sleep difficulties. Then hot flashes and night sweats. I woke up almost every morning being wet all over. It seemed like my temperature regulator was broken. Even a small physical activity made me wet. But that was ok with me, as it reminded me that I am castrated. It was a good feeling. I would say that first 0,5-1,5 months were most difficult. Sometimes I even asked myself am I sane that I do that to myself. But as brain chemistry got adjusted to low T, I started to feel much better. Gradually masturbation rates dropped and porn watching need disappeared completely. Until I discovered that I hadn't cared to masturbate for like 2 weeks. Which was a very nice relief, as usually I had to do it 1-2 times a day. Sometimes I discovered that I am completely asexual. Like in situations with other people or attractive people. That felt also very relieving. Even enjoyable. Having no compulsive thoughts of sexual nature, eliminates the mental pressure to monitor my behaviour. I would feel free.

So far my chemcastration periods start at spring and end in autumn. So I would be chemcastrated during most physically active period. Instead of gaining fat I always loose weight. So far I have always been mentally stable during these periods. Oh and I do get more emotional. It is much more difficult to hold back my emotions. The thing you call "no emotions at all" is something that I think is "dopamine depletion" associated with low sex steroids. It is the thing that makes you feel motivated and happy. And lack of it makes everything feel bland, uninteresting and nothing could make you feel excited. I have experienced that, but last time it was not very serious problem for me.

And yes, physically I become slower and weaker. Things become heavier. So doing physical work feels more difficult for me. But then again I wouldn't spend hours and hours watching porn and masturbating, doing nothing useful. It is much better to not watch porn and do things slightly slower. And physical activity for an eunuch is still good. Getting something done is motivating that compensates dopamine depletion. Also the muscle loss is less obvious.

there is one more thing I enjoy about being castrated, it is my acne that disappears completely. My face skin looks so clean and even. Oilyness is gone.

I wonder what castration would feel like at 1y mark or 2y mark. Are there any more changes?

I decided to go on estradiol in November 2022. I am enjoying the feminization and return of a bit of my libido. I get erections occasionally, but never hard enough to penetrate.

I just spent the last 23 months on Nandrolone (ND) only. I had been having a little brain fog, so I got all the levels I could tested. (We couldn't find a clinical lab that offered blood ND levels. I was injecting 150 to 180 mg/fortnight and feeling great, so we assumed the levels were adequate.) My Dec 2022 levels were:

Free T—3.3 ng/dL

Bioavailable T—6.8 ng/dl

Total T—21 ng/dL

Estradiol—undetectable

We assumed that the ND was doing its job,so the brain fog shouldn't have been from the extremely low T. In contrast, brain fog is clearly associated with super-low estrogen. ND isn't converted to estrogen like T is. I didn't want to take estrogen supplements because I don't want moobs, so I've gone to T:ND ratio of 3:1 at the same total dose. It's only been 4 weeks since the change, but already the fog is lifting.