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Bhartlucas (imported) wrote: Fri Sep 06, 2019 5:46 pm
I'm a 18 years old straight boy, I haven't and don't intend to have any kind of attraction towards men. But I also don't like liking woman,it's weird but I feel disgusted and wrong whenever I have sexual thoughts for anyone, and when I masturbate I feel more guilty every time I do it.
At first I thought I was assexual, but after a little research I found out That, assexual people just don't feel sexual attraction towards anyone, and I do (and sometimes I act upon them). I just don't like feeling this way.
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(2) But now I know that it's nothing like that, it doesn't make it impossible to have erections, you just lose all your will to do so, and that's what I wanted to feel. No to mention that you can find the same drug they use, on a pharmacy.
I'm not looking for any life-changing effects, just a period of 3 months (max) being chemistry castraded to see how it feels.
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(3) Secondly , I'm planning on using depo provera becouse, for what I've seen here, it's the most efficient drug for chemical castration cuz :
-it's cheap;
-you don't have to keep remembering to use everyday(as an oral drug) ;
-has very little feminization effects
-you can get it without a prescription.
Hi Bhartlucas,
It is great that you are doing all this research before starting on a trial period of chemical castration. As someone who did something like you, and finally decided to go all the way to get permanently chemically castrated, I would like to share some of my thoughts and experience. Please refer to the numbered paragraphs quoted from your original post:
(1) OK. I am gay and different from you. I do agree with your assessment that you're probably not asexual. Instead, I suspect you might be, like me and especially my first lover (when we were about your age), programmed by the church to treat everything sexual as sinful, to feel guilty about sexual thoughts, to hate masturbation. The church messes up our sense of values on sex, and especially for me who have to come to terms with my sexuality. By the time I got to college, I seek psychotherapy and eventually came to terms with my sexual feelings (which God had created us to feel). My first lover, unfortunately didn't believe in psychotherapy and led a life of confused sexuality, feeling guilt and confusion.
(2) A proper chemical castration regiment, even temporary, does stop erections. My libido had dropped my masturbation frequency from 1 to 2 times a day to as low as once every 3 months. And my masturbation could only be achieved through playing with a completely soft though slightly engorged, penis.
(3) I myself have not used depo provera. As far as I know, it is a prescription drug in the US, but it may not be in Brazil. It is more cost effective and convenient than oral anti-androgens like Androcur, which I took. But on the down side, once you took the depo provera injection, you are stuck with all the effects, like them or not, for a few months. Oral meds can be stopped any day and all the effects would fade away in a few days time.
You might already have come across this information, in general, most people found chemical castration effects become irreversible after being on the meds for 6 months. For me, after about 3 months, even after I stopped Androcur, my sexual functions did not return 100%, even though my sexual desires returned fully.
Lastly, I do believe that depo provera will cause feminization. Any meds that reduce testosterone level will allow the naturally circulating estrogen in a male to cause feminization, starting with growth of breast tissues and nipples. If you do not wish feminization, consider combining your anti-androgen med with Tamoxifen or Raloxifene.
All the best with your trial.