ballsontheline (imported) wrote: Fri Jan 11, 2013 8:48 pm that I was trying to reduce my

ballsontheline (imported) wrote: Mon Jun 03, 2013 5:04 pm I continue my journey as I write this post. I continue the Depo, the Cypertone and the Estrofem. They are changing me in real ways. I am not the same person that posted the first time. I have changed in real and dramatic ways. I am afraid that my wife is going to leave m

Uncle Flo (imported) wrote: Tue Jun 04, 2013 9:16 am e unless I let her know why I can never get it up.

Complete silence to your wife is, in my opinion, inviting disaster. I think it would be better to give her enough information so that she can deal with your situation. At this late stage the results of confiding in her may not be what you desire. I expect her feelings will be hurt that you have not b

ballsontheline (imported) wrote: Mon Jul 15, 2013 5:31 pm een open with her, but not facing up to some

thing this impo

ballsontheline (imported) wrote: Mon Jul 15, 2013 5:31 pm h you well. --FLO—

I decided to take your advice Uncle Flo. I broke the news to my wife

ballsontheline (imported) wrote: Fri Jan 11, 2013 8:48 pm that I was trying to reduce my

Uncle Flo (imported) wrote: Tue Jul 16, 2013 8:20 am [/q
wanted to understand why I was interested in castration. This has started a conversation that has been both interesting and thought provoking. Let me know if you want to know more.

I would like to know more. PM me if you wish. --FLO—

I can only speak for myself when I say I'd be interested to follow this and know more.

Dave

My wife knows about my flirtation with castration. She found a couple of my elastrator tools and also found a video showing how one of them could be used to castrate a bull. I could get her to indulge this fantasy by putting a large elastrator band onto my balls before she started our lovemaking time together. The threat of castration was and is a real turn on for me. She knew that but could not understand why I would want it. She wouldn’t serious about it with the bands and I wanted to make the castration fantasy a possibility if not a reality. It was because I could go no further with my castration fetish with the elastrator that led me to try chemical castration.

At first, I started this without my wife’s knowledge. It started when I was proscriped Proscar for my BPH. My wife knew how Propecia had impacted my sex life more than a decade earlier and this dose was 5mg not just 1mg. She expected that my dick would have a hard time filling her pussy.
ertone and Estrogen.

She found the Depo and the Estrogen in a cabinet in my office. She wanted to know what was going on. I told her that I wanted to feel castrated for real. She did not like the idea and told me that I needed to stop taking the medicine. At that time, I agreed that I would. Little did she know that I could not keep my promise to her and was soon taking the stuff but hiding it in a safer location.

Part of my interest in castration has to do with my small penis. It is only 4 inches when hard and I have always been self conscious about its small size. I never thought I deserved balls because of my small cock and that thought, which started at puberty, has continued to this day. The thought of castration really turns me on. The thought of castration either by the elastrator or by chemicals really gets me going. There was a time when my libido was so high that I wanted to get off almost every night. I had agreed to always get off with my wife’s knowledge or permission and she started to tire of my constant desire for sex. I asked her if I should ask a doctor about reducing my libido. She was not only open to the idea, she welcomed it. Rather than go to the doctor, I went online to get drugs that would not onl

y eliminate my libido but would chemically castrate me as well. I injected Depo Provera and noticed the effects a few weeks later. The effects lasted for over 3 months. My wife noticed my lack of desire and I finally admitted to her that I had taken Depo Provera. She was surprised and let me know that she did not understand why I would even think about doing this. I told her that it was the best way for me to eliminate my libido. I told her that I was only doing this for her.

My wife does not pretend to understand my fantasy and even desire for castration. Whenever we have sex, part of our ritual is for her to put a large aneros anal prostate device into my butt. Then she puts a large castration band on my balls. The band is part of a device that can make the band very tight. So tight that it cannot be removed my human hands. When she puts this band on my nuts I fantasize that I am in the process of being castrated. It is a real turn on.

We went on a celebration of our 31st anniversary. Whenever I go on these trips I feel that it is necessary for me to get an orgasm in some way, shape or form. On this particular occasion, my wife and I spent over an hour cuddling and carressing each other while we were totally naked. I knew that this was a turn on for her. She has lost most of her libido since she went through menopause. Whenever we have these naked times together without sex, I think about them for the rest of the day. By the end of the day, even though I was tired, I wanted to get off. She knew that my dick could never get hard and I had forgotten to bring my magic blue pills. I could not get it up. I did clean my anus out with a couple of enemas and was ready to get off. I can only get off with a 12 inch anal probe going in and out of my ass. It has a big bulb on the end and also has ribs that make the experience even more pleasureable. It does not take more than 3 minutes or less for that massage of the prostate to bring me to orgasm. On this occasion, it was no different. Nothing came out of my penis. There was no ejaculate, sperm or pre-cum. The experience was a bit rushed because I knew that this was all about me and had nothing to do with her. In fact, she never took off any clothes. She got between my legs and gave me the relief I sought. I was breathless for a long time and the waves of pleasure lasted for over 15 minutes. It is hard to be a man without a penis that can penetrate or satisfy a woman. I wish things were different. I don’t know what I am going to do when my desire exceeds her ability to satisfy it. Before I went on vacation, I took two shots of Depo Provera. I knew that the maximum effect of the medicine would occur when I was on this time away. My chemical castration impacted my love life in a real, impactful way.