Having seen all that's been expressed and said, it seems to boil back down to what I've said, that is the most basic of all: simply being yourself. You'd have to be an eunuch in mind first and foremost. Otherwise if being an eunuch is a state of mind that comes from the physical, then hell, it'd be for everyone wouldn't it?

punkypink (imported) wrote: Wed Nov 02, 2011 2:59 am Having seen all that's been expressed and said, it seems to boil back down to what I've said, that is the most basic of all: simply being yourself. You'd have to be an eunuch in mind first and foremost. Otherwise if being an eunuch is a state of mind that comes from the physical, then hell, it'd be for everyone wouldn't it?

Too right. It comes down to being yourself - the self that you see inside.

Eunuch State Of Mind sounds like a good song title. We could sample from the New York songs. Any piano men on these boards (Billy Joel)?! Or nasty rappers (Nas)?!

As with a lot of us here it's the cost and time to become a eunuch and being youself.

loveableleopardy (imported) wrote: Wed Nov 02, 2011 4:19 am Too right. It comes down to being yourself - the self that you see inside.

Eunuch State Of Mind sounds like a good song title. We could sample from the New York songs. Any piano men on these boards (Billy Joel)?! Or nasty rappers (Nas)?!

I sometimes wonder if this would all feel different if we lived in a culture with more relaxed attitudes about gender. I ask because I remember, in my youth, feeling oppressed and threatened by society's definition of macho masculinity. (This was the 60s and 70s.) The so-called "sexual revolution" did nothing to ease this. If we all felt free to be ourselves, it would be another world. But I suppose that's an idle dream, since every society I'm aware of had sharply defined gender roles.

I have wanted chemical castration for years after a Psychiatrist suggested that I take Depo-Provera to help control my sexual addiction. The doctor though could not tell me who to get Depo injections from,and told me to find someone. I felt like I

was stranded without help.

I suffered for years with this addiction,while it was also getting worse. By that I mean more deviant thoughts, easily

angered,watching porn, masturbation, and unwanted erections at inappropriate times and places. then months ago

I decided to search for chemical castration again. I found the EA and started reading every thread I could. I also discovered

InHouse Pharmacy. I learned about alcohol injections. I know the pros and cons of castration.

I initially did not want to spend the money for drugs, so I tried alcohol injections. Then I change my mind stop the injections and

ordered Cyproterone

It seemed to start working really well. The I started having side effects,it cause my right leg to swell from the knee down.

So I decided not use any drugs.

I restarted the alcohol injections with 190 proof grain alcohol. I like the results better so far. I have already noticed less

sexual thoughts and desires. I have become more tolerant and show less anger.

I hope it stays this way. Time will tell.

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Eunuchus (imported) wrote: Mon Nov 07, 2011 5:38 am . Then I change my mind stop the injections and

ordered Cyproterone

It seemed to start working really well. The I started having side effects,it cause my right leg to swell from the knee down.

So I decided not use any drugs...

I have never heard of Cyproterone causing swollen legs. And for only one leg to swell - that doesn't sound like a reaction to a drug.

Riven (imported) wrote: Mon Nov 07, 2011 7:37 am I have never heard of Cyproterone causing swollen legs. And for only one leg to swell - that doesn't sound like a reaction to a drug.

It originally started as an injured knee. I had stopped the cyproterone. the knee and leg improved. Then I experimented,

I went back on the Cyproterone and my calf muscle blew up like a balloon and felt like the skin could could rupture.

To have better control over my own sexuality and to be more compatible with my spouse's libido.

Eunuchus (imported) wrote: Mon Nov 07, 2011 7:46 am It originally started as an injured knee. I had stopped the cyproterone. the knee and leg improved. Then I experimented,

I went back on the Cyproterone and my calf muscle blew up like a balloon and felt like the skin could could rupture.

I guess it's possible that on Cyproterone your immune system wasn't working properly. Maybe you were a little anaemic?

But to answer the OP's question "Why be a eunuch?"

I have been interested in this ever since my wife went into menopause, so I guess my answer is: To lower my sex drive and be more comfortable in my relationship. My wife seems to like it when I lower my testosterone, so I do it for her too. I'm not sure I want to identify as a eunuch because I've always been quite masculine and I'm happy with my masculine appearance and behaviour, but to not be 'driven' by my balls all the time is a blessed relief. Every now and again I take a very low dose of cyproterone (I seem to be very sensitive to it) for a week or so and have a kind of 'holiday' from testosterone that lasts several weeks. I think I have already permanently lowered my testosterone a little (although that could be simply due to getting older) so I don't know how many times I'll be able to do it before I become a eunuch.

Your own answer corresponds fairly closely to mine. My testicles were smallish and gradually became a source of discomfort and pain. They often disappeared into my inguinal canals when I was cold or aroused. Guys I had sex with often asked where they were. I eventually sought medical help. A urologist took one look and said my problems with pain and discomfort would only get worse with age. The only solution was excision and removal. He left me to consider his advice, noting that testosterone supplements would assure my continued sexuality. I vowed then to eventually have them removed - accomplished in 1999. He was so correct. Not having anything in my crotch is so comfy.

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raymar2020 (imported) wrote: Fri Oct 28, 2011 5:17 am .Over the years many who I was sexually active with were not even aware that I still had them. I was always quite comfortable with my eunuch appearance, and quite content not to have them.

The years passed , and the pain issues multiplied until I was finally able to convince a surgeon that a gay man with dead balls really didn't need them. .............I am totally comfortable being a eunuch, and truly feel that I am now as nature had intended in the beginning.

While being a eunuch is certainly not for everyone, for me it is one of the blessings of life. I am open about my status with most everyone in my life, and have no shame about being "different". I do use HRT, since I do not desire to be a nonsexual being. To some I know that sort of negates the whole eunuch thing, but its about what works for each individual