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Re: Unlike me

Posted: Mon Jun 15, 2009 2:23 pm
by The Lurker (imported)
Randy-

Thanks for the insightful post.

I completely understand where you are coming from. I want to share that I believe your perceptions about gay drug use to be anecdotal, and not reflective of actual numbers.

Drug use among homosexuals is likely lower than national figures. Gay people are more likely to be better educated, have more savings, are more law abiding, and generally better off than the average heterosexual.

Now, if you delve into heavily gay communities like West Hollywood, or the Village in NYC, or the Castro in San Fran, you will be more likely to see abberent behavior for several reasons:

In these areas there are more younger people, many of whom are just coming to terms with their sexuality and their reactions to feeling unoppressed (less oppressed) are often to over indulge in VISIBLE behaviors, perhaps saying to the world that they are free to be who they want to be. This is a very small percentage of the gay community.

It is PRIDE weekend right now, and WeHo will be filled with all sorts of colorful characters expressing themselves in ways that most homosexuals find excessive and indulgent. Similar to the black power movement of the 60's and 70's, these behaviors are done to evoke a reaction by onlookers: A gay man dressed like Dorothy is no different than a black man's gloved fist raised in the air. It is an expression of freedom and solidarity with one's "perceived" community.

I say "perceived" because I do not identify as being gay. I identify with being a man. I live my live how it needs to be lived. I don't need to flaunt my gayness to feel secure, and I don't need a support system to tell me it is okay to be gay. I am who i am. I am fortunate to be able to live this way. Many homosexuals do not or can not do as i do.

If you met me, you WOULD NEVER have any clue as to my sexual orientation. There are some people, who are easily spotted as gay, but MANY times people make the wrong assumption about strait people with a limp wrist or a butch haircut. Visual clues are such a small part of the gay experience.

I understand your proactive decision to become a eunuch as a way to piety. But most people embrace their sexuality, and being attracted to and aroused by people of one's own gender is at the core of being gay and is something that cannot be changed.

The honest truth is that there are millions of Americans who are gay who live upstanding lives, and the ONLY thing that differentiates them from the rest of society is that they were born to love someone of their own gender.

Re: Unlike me

Posted: Mon Jun 15, 2009 2:35 pm
by kenny (imported)
Donny What happened to you bring tears to my eyes.I hope these guys get caught and they get what coming to them.But life is not all about sex.Follow your deams.Their alot more to life.

Re: Unlike me

Posted: Mon Jun 15, 2009 2:38 pm
by The Lurker (imported)
Donny-

I am unfamiliar with your story. Were you attacked because you are gay (or perceived to be so)?

Were the perps caught?

i am so sorry for this...

much love

Re: Unlike me

Posted: Mon Jun 15, 2009 4:17 pm
by donny collins (imported)
Hey Guys: Thanks for writing and for your friendship. The friendship and feelings of brotherhood mean more to me that I can tell you about. I am incredibly greatful. Bro, the reason I got hurt was simple (my fault also): I was obnoxious drunk and acting thugish with my buddies in a local bar here in Knoxville. A older guy called me out to the parking lot to do some physical stuff and dumb ass that I am I took him up on the offer. He beat the shit out of me and then castrated me. The bartender called 911 and the ambulance came (thank God). The guy and his buddies split and no one knows who the hell he was. A complete stranger to everyone. My guess is he was probably a farmer cuz the doctor told me it was a clean cut. I don't think he will ever be caught but I got other things to work on. You guys have helped me big time with your friendship and concern. I'm scared about what has become of me - my depressions, lack of sex drive (NO sex thoughts at all), hot flashes like a gal, and my dick is shrinking (not to mention that the dick is totally dead). I have me a family and lots of caring brothers. Of course, my dad turned me out and my blood brothers mock me out. I am happy with you wonderful guys and I tell you all thanks. Much love to you all, Donny

Re: Unlike me

Posted: Tue Jun 16, 2009 8:34 am
by Milkman (imported)
Donny,

Have you sought out hormone replacement? You will feel a lot better and it will restore your sexual function. How long ago did this happen?

Re: Unlike me

Posted: Wed Jun 17, 2009 6:49 pm
by Paolo
Donny,

This is sort of late, but I've been very busy.

Please feel free to contact the Staff with questions, make posts, and share only what you are comfortable with telling us.

In the event of problems, as I would advise anyone, contact Kristoff or myself.

Welcome to the zoo.

Re: Unlike me

Posted: Wed Jun 17, 2009 10:18 pm
by MacTheWolf (imported)
Donny

Yes, welcome to the EA Zoo. The Archive is one giant family of friends. Three others you can talk to are IEunuch, UncleFlo and myself.

Re: Unlike me

Posted: Thu Jun 18, 2009 3:26 am
by clysmaniac (imported)
Donny,

I can't believe in your situation that your doctor didn't start you on TRT or refer you to an endocrinologist to get the testosterone you were used to. Most of us in the EA who have been castrated have wanted it and been prepared for it unlike having it suddenly and unwillingly happen. Testosterone replacement is available and reasonably effective at restoring most of what you lost. It may take some time to get the right dose but it will be far better to try it in your situation that just going cold turkey without it unless cost/insurance is a significant limitation.

Re: Unlike me

Posted: Thu Jun 18, 2009 6:29 am
by randy (imported)
Donny,
clysmaniac (imported) wrote: Thu Jun 18, 2009 3:26 am I can't believe in your situation that your doctor didn't start you on TRT

yeah, me too.

hmmph.... odd.

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Re: Unlike me

Posted: Thu Jun 18, 2009 5:01 pm
by devi (imported)
Randy and Donny,

All I can say is that I really really do feel for you both. Always the memory of the verbal abuse is what comes back to you and bothers you at different and varying times somehow. Donny, I have had hot flashes throughout my life (but not many like you would have) and they are really no fun at all. -Sometimes embarrassing even.