My Penectomy story from the hospital

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UPDATE:

The strangest thought haunts me this morning; "What good is it to have something but you can't share it?"

I have this urge to show somebody what a wonderful change I went through. I don't know why, because my penectomy was done for religious reasons which only myself and God must know about, yet, it feels and looks so wonderful that I want to show (share) it with someone. It's almost like an anti-climax. The excitement of penectomy is gone...now what?

It think I must stay focused on the reason for doing this. It was not done for erotic or fantasy reasons. I wanted to be without sex organs since age 7 and now to unlearn sexual desire.

I woke up quite difficult this morning. It felt like I was sleepwalking getting ready to go to the shops, but my muscles feels better. I'm also totally awake now. I hope Hash is right that things will improve shortly, or I might be very tempted to inject 2cc of T.

Peace...

P.S. I'm noting that a newly nullified person undergoes quite a number of emo's.

[Mac (imported)]

UPDATE:

The strangest thought haunts me this morning; "What good is it to have something but you can't share it?".....................

Are you going to put updated photos on your Tribe page?

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Are you going to put updated photos on your Tribe page?

Hi Mac, nice to hear from you. Yes, I will post more photos as possible. I will let everyone know. I looks and feels great.

Bye...

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Ok, I've posted some more pics on tribe to demonstrate my healing progress. I hope those scars will disappear in time. I'm happy with the result though.

Keep well...

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UPDATE:

I am off T for one week already. I feel fine, generally, except for still being VERY tired. My energy levels are real low, though it seems better than yesterday for I'm not that sleepy.

My libido is also real low but not gone yet. I can still orgasm every day, if I want. Hope my libido will disappear soon.

I'm taking 600mg Calcium/VitD twice a day.

I take my hand and move it in front of my groin where my penis used to be. It feels strange as I know that there should be something but my mind does not remember it. It's like moving through a ghostly spot. Moving over that spot excites my pee-hole spontaneously.

When I put my hand in front of my groin and move it like I'm jacking off with a penis (not touching any part of my groin), real sexual excitement appears in my urethra/pee-hole. It's like jacking off a ghost-penis. I wonder how long this will last.

Be cool...

[Mac (imported)]

Ok, I've posted some more pics on tribe to demonstrate my healing progress. I hope those scars will disappear in time. I'm happy with the result though.

Keep well...

It is looking great. I am envious.

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UPDATE:

I feel MUCH better today. Not tired and sleepy at all! My libido is somewhat higer today. Judging be these symptoms, I wonder if my body did not create some T somewhere, or was there still some remand T hiding in my fat cells from the 3-month T injection. I still don't get hot flashes. Hope it stay that way. :-\

Peace...

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UPDATE:

Hi Guys, there is something I need to report to those who wish to be penectomized.

Every once in a while, the reality being without a penis strikes me BIG TIME...the reality that I can NEVER have penetrative sex anymore...NEVER!

Then I focus on my reasons for nullification and it's fine. Fortunately I LOVE it to be without genitals..so I handle nullification without a problem.

But, please, make sure that you can live without sex before you have yours done because it is gone...permanently.

Just caring...

[Hash (imported)]

Hi Yoda,

Wanted to tell you that the new pictures are truly revealing. You are a nullo and everything looks great. I pray that you continue to yield to the Spirit's control and that you feast on the Word. Now regarding testosterone, the Adrenal glands also produce some testosterone. http://www.livestrong.com/article/22262 ... tosterone/

Sometime in the past when I tried to go completely without any source of testosterone after being castrated, I would have a day when it seemed that my libido and testosterone had kicked in, however, this was short lived and after plunging into depression, I started a low dose testosterone regimen. After many years on this low regimen, I cannot get my testosterone any higher, if I try to use more compounded testosterone, it actually has a reverse effect. Perhaps if I switched to the injectable testosterone I could boost it, but for what purpose? A higher testosterone amount would effect me negatively, so I'm staying where I'm at, which is just a little higher then most women and am tempted to go without any at all. Thanks again Yoda! Stay true & faithful, Hash

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Hi Yoda,

Wanted to tell you that the new pictures are truly revealing. You are a nullo and everything looks great. I pray that you continue to yield to the Spirit's control and that you feast on the Word. Now regarding testosterone, the Adrenal glands also produce some testosterone.

Hey Hash!! Yeah, being a nullo is a fantastic life for me. Everyday I am in awe when I look and feel down there.

Being in control by the Spirit is VERY important to me. I pray the

He will move my beloved friends hearts on this forum.

Adrenal glands?... well that explains it. So I'm not totally void of T yet? I thought it was only the testes that produces T. Interesting article. I wonder how many wannabe eunuchs knows this?

I got quite warm today, but it was not a fully hot flush. Not like I experienced before. I got quite sweaty, but it did not last long. I hope the flashes will stay away.

Are you a nullo or just castrated?

May the Lord keep you and bless your week!