twilight2000 (imported) wrote: Sat Jan 07, 2017 7:08 pm On December 30th I injected 2ml of 33% calcium chloride solution, 1ml each about twenty minutes apart equally into each teste. I would have done it all at once, but I had a "full" feeling and discomfort after the first ml.

First I washed the area with soap and water, and then again with hebiclens. I used half inch, 30 gauge diabetic needles. The calcium chloride solution was kind of thick - it took some time to fill the syringe when I pulled the plunger. I then held the teste to the side of the scrotum and injected about .2ml at a time. The needles went in easy enough: I just kept on increasing the pressure until it slid in. The scrotum skin provided a lot more resistance than the teste wall. I tried to inject through the entire teste: three "sides" and the "top" and "bottom."

The first ml was easy, the second ml was a lot more troublesome. My scrotum and testes seemed to be "clenching" or pulsing in a way, moving them around even though I was holding them still.

The pain appeared after forty-five minutes. It quickly reached 9/10: intense pain near my prostate, and all I could do is moan in agony. I was barely aware of my surroundings. I took an aleve. The pain subsided to a 6/10 over the next two hours as long as I didn't move much. Moving injection site amplified the pain back up to 9/10 if I walked around a bit.

It would be impossible for me to have done this process with people around without them noticing my discomfort. While the pain was extreme, I kept telling myself that becoming the person I want to be is worth the pain. Anything worth attaining has a cost.

I was able to sleep in the fetal position. I woke up a few times and felt an urge to urinate. I couldn't really feel my bladder over the intense pain, so maybe I was just peeing out of worry. It took a while to find the right position to fall back asleep each time.

On the morning after, the pain was about a 2/10 with aleve as long as I am sitting still. My right teste had little feeling, but my left pulsed in pain every so often. Both were tender and swollen.

Pain has completely subsided at this point, a week in. I believe I am experiencing the mental effects already.

Very difficult to climax -- took a long time and very exaggerated features to complete. Did it three times since the procedure -- output is dribbly instead of shooting.

Don't feel overwhelming interest in women's features (I am straight, by the way). Male bodies were invisible to me, now I seem able to observe them. With both sexes, I can find them attractive but it is in an artistic/intellectual sense now. There is no sexual desire except for when I force it.

Was quite compulsive in the past with food and spending, both are suppressed with ease. Appetite is much less. Not feeling hostile towards people's actions. Normally when commuting in the city I pick up many slights and get annoyed after a while. Just could not care, instead I am feeling very centered and present.

Consequently, I feel like I am being nicer to people. Not that I necessarily like or trust them more, more like I hate talking to them less. I feel like I have slightly better understanding of their words, instead of feeling disinterested.

Not feeling paranoid, worried about the future, or stressed in any way. Just feeling very ok with everything. On a bad note, I'm noticing that I am slightly forgetful of things I need to do. I used to always remember things around the time I needed for them to happen, now I am starting to work off of lists.

I'm feeling pretty good about this process, and am especially grateful for everyone's experience in this thread.

nutless1 (imported) wrote: Sun Jan 08, 2017 6:29 am Happy Birthday Twilight2000! How are things proceeding with your castration process since your injections?

twilight2000 (imported) wrote: Sun Jan 08, 2017 10:42 am Hi! Thanks! They're about normal size but much less sensitive now. They sensation in them is almost "hollow" in a way. No pain or discomfort throughout the day. Most of the pain stopped by day 3 and discomfort by day 5. I'm sleeping, sitting, and walking normally now.

I'm pretty sure they're dying off. I'm going to wait a month or so before making a doctor's appointment. Removal isn't necessary for me (though it would be perfectly fine). I'd be satisfied with them completely or significantly dead.

I felt a sense of regret a couple of times. Like maybe I was too hasty, maybe I made the wrong decision. But I realized my framing is off: my mental state now is much calmer and free now, moreso each day, and I would not have gotten here unless I did the injections.

It's just a bit hard saying "goodbye" is all.

tgcargirl (imported) wrote: Mon Jan 09, 2017 1:59 pm 1666 post about 3 weeks reading for me

a lot of great info.

i think its missing 1 thing that if the poster would put in a little of there info i think that would help others with what to expect. Like age, weight, hormone and anti androgen use testicle size is in most post witch helps. that way thy can compare apples to apples oranges to oranges

like me im 55 MTF and have been on HRT for the last 15 years. i don't think it would take the same as a 20 old with no meds

nutless1 (imported) wrote: Mon Jan 09, 2017 3:59 am Are you exhibiting any hot flashes or night sweats?