My Penectomy story from the hospital

[YodaNell (imported)]

Hi Yoda,

I use about a 1/4 teaspoon amount of this cream and that keeps my testosterone level between 120/130. If I use more it doesn't raise it any higher, it actually seems to lower my "t" levels. I think that's because I used this low amount for so long, my body has adjusted to it and additional testosterone is now converted into estrogen. I'm not sure why this has happened, possibly the aromatase enzyme, my regular doctor thinks it's a contributor to my problem: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Aromatase - Maybe if I used an aromatase inhibitor it would help raise my testosterone levels or maybe if I switched to an injectable testosterone I could get back to normal male levels, but for what purpose? I don't want to increase my sex drive and have all the compulsive sexual desires driving me to do things that messed me up for so long.

Just this morning, I'm watching the news and what's the big story of the day? Dominique Strauss-Kahn, 62, was arrested on charges of a criminal sex act, attempted rape and unlawful imprisonment. If it's true that he raped her, and possibly it's not, though I tend to side with the women because I know how men are being a man, but if it's true it just proves my point. The sex drive can destroy you, your relationship with others, and your relationship with God. It's just so hard to control. Now sure, most men are not rapists, but most men struggle with their sexual compulsions. Most men fantasize about sex, most men have affairs or long to have an affair and a majority of men (way more than women) spend hours looking at internet porn. The sex drive controls us, that's why castration is so beneficial, at least it's been for me.

Hi Hash, so good to hear from you. I absolutely agree with you. This is exactly the reason I wish to eliminate my sex drive. It drives me NUTS!

I appears we have something in common.

Peace...

[YodaNell (imported)]

UPDATE:

Greetings-ye-all!!

Today I became very aggressive and moody. I quickly recognized the symptoms as it happened so many time since my castration. Every time the testosterone level (from the 't' injections) wares off, I get moody, start to cuss and bites peoples heads off. This ONLY happens to me for about 2 days. I guess the same happens to women 'that' time of the month when their hormones goes bonkers.

Aaaaaaanyway....I think that 3 month 'T' injection (Nebido) just started to ware off. Now I'm waiting for the hot flushes, though I really hope it won't come.

I will not inject Depo-Testosterone until I REALLY have to. I want to calm out for a while. If I MUST do it, I'll inject only 2cc to keep some side effects at bay.

The side effects I don't like is:

1) Lack of concentration (feeling stupid)

2) Lack of energy (sometimes I work hard getting of a couch:D)

3) HOT FLUSHES

Later...

[Hash (imported)]

Yoda,

I think you'd do better trying/using compounded testosterone cream if you can get it. A little bit each day stabilizes your body and you won't have these emotional ups and downs.

[YodaNell (imported)]

Yoda,

I think you'd do better trying/using compounded testosterone cream if you can get it. A little bit each day stabilizes your body and you won't have these emotional ups and downs.

Hi Hash, I'm not sure what compounded testosterone cream is, but it sounds like a good idea. It's a pity I only read your post tonight 'cause I saw my GP earlier this afternoon. I could have asked her. But I will definitely ask her. Thanks!

[Hash (imported)]

Your seeing a female GP? What does she think of your condition? Did she examine you and what was her reaction? It's very interesting for most of us to figure out what women think about men who become nullo's. Please share your experiences and discussions! I can only imagine what she's thinking. Maybe she's compassionate and understanding, maybe she feels bad for you. Maybe she's intrigued and curious as to why you've done this. Has she said anything or questioned you?

[YodaNell (imported)]

Your seeing a female GP? What does she think of your condition? Did she examine you and what was her reaction? It's very interesting for most of us to figure out what women think about men who become nullo's. Please share your experiences and discussions! I can only imagine what she's thinking. Maybe she's compassionate and understanding, maybe she feels bad for you. Maybe she's intrigued and curious as to why you've done this. Has she said anything or questioned you?

Yes, she's a very compassionate person and understand my story. She however, does not know about me being a nullo. She only knows about my castration. She was the one who gave me the vials of Lignocain to inject into my testes. She gave my 10 vials and syringes.

She's a fantastic person and an amazing doctor.

On a different note: I can't get over the euphoria I experience not having sex organs. I thought I might miss my penis, but I don't.

As I'm healing the groin area are really starting to look great.

Keep well.

[YodaNell (imported)]

UPDATE:

It feels that I was hit by a truck. I'm terribly tired and fall asleep at work. I've got zero energy! I'm also forgetting little things.

I must be the "T" wearing off. I truly hope these terrible symptoms will pass soon. I need to go to gym, but this tiredness must subside first.

I really don't want to inject 'T' for a while, but this tiredness is HELL!

All the best to you all, my friends. May God bless you.

[graylayer02 (imported)]

Yoda,

I think you'd do better trying/using compounded testosterone cream if you can get it. A little bit each day stabilizes your body and you won't have these emotional ups and downs.

Yep, the gel seems to work much better at controlling the ups and downs. That, and I don't have to drop trou every week or two.

[YodaNell (imported)]

Yep, the gel seems to work much better at controlling the ups and downs. That, and I don't have to drop trou every week or two.

I asked my local pharmacy about this gel but they don't keep it in stock. The guy says that my GP has to order the stuff.

[Eddie (imported)]

I asked my local pharmacy about this gel but they don't keep it in stock. The guy says that my GP has to order the stuff.

I use androgel 2.5mg daily and it comes in several strengths. 2.5mg is just enough to keep me from having hot flashes.

http://www.androgel.com/

Eddie