Hello guys and girls,
This is my first post here, and first of all I'd like to say a huge thank you to *splitdik* and everyone else who helped sharing information.
I had my injections on January 28th, 2016, and am on HRT (estradiol valerate 2mg) since that time.
Before the injections I was already on hormone blockers for 6 months - I was 24yo then. I took more pills than recommended, but I was eager to get rid of testosterone. Daily doses were at least: 5mg of finasteride, 200mg of spironolactone and 150mg of cyproterone acetate (3 tablets of 50mg). I heard that cyproterone is not available in the US, is it true? Here in Brazil it's hard to find, but can be bought without a prescription.
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All those pills are not good for the liver, so I decided for chemical castration through injections - and found this forum after a google search in english. A friend of mine who is a veterinarian helped me with the research about injections, actually she had already done that kind of castration in dogs. At first she offered to castrate me but eventually gave up and I had to do it alone, in my kitchen. I did hesitate, but for no longer than half an hour, then I gathered courage and simply did it.
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For the testicles I used 99% proof analytical grade CaCl2 (powder) dissolved in absolute alcohol. Sorry, I don't know the exact amout of CaCl2 in that solution, but I tried to saturate it. I filled 6 insulin syringes (10units) with that solution, 3 for each side. The right testicle easily took 2 full syringes and a bit more, and the left one hurt so much that I could barely finish 2 syringes. Two hours later I injected a bit more on each side, then the hellish pain began.
It was a non-stop pain, level 9/10, burning like fire, and lasted for hours. I couldn't sleep for the next 22 hours and spent most time in fetal position on my bed. My mother asked what was wrong with me and I said I had a cramp in the inner thigh, and that I was suspecting of urinary tract infection (that was a lie, and mom fell for it bcuz she and grandma have UTI).
The first day was almost unbearable, even with tramadol and ibuprofen. From the second day on the pain diminished and I went to work on the 3rd day - even though I had trouble walking up and down the 3 flights of stairs. Next week there was no pain at all. The first month after the balls were hard, and after two months they were still hard and shrinking. Today it's about 3 months after injections and my balls fell softer, not as smooth as before, but closer to normal healthy testes. Is it normal? Shouldn't they remain hard and keep shrinking?
Also, I didn't have erections after CaCl2, except last week when I got sort of an erection, not full-blown, not that hard. It scared me, because I don't want to have any erections ever again. That made me think that the injections didn't work at all, or were too weak. I tried to masturbate and nothing came out: zero ejaculation, no single drop of semen or whatever that clear liquid is called. However, the orgasm was different, strong, diffuse, not focused on the penis, and lasted longer.
Should I inject more CaCl2+ethanol? Should I go to an urologist hoping for an orchiectomy? I really need to get rid of those disgusting things, or at least kill them. Thanks in advance for your replies!
