SamKelley (imported) wrote: Sun Dec 20, 2015 6:40 am Hi again tom73612. I've re-read your question and my answer and I think my answer comes across as condescending. I didn't mean it to be and it's not - I didn't actually read your question properly (!!)

Re-reading your question again, my new answer is - I don't actually know. I still think the Hippocratic Oath is useful in understanding how any doctor might (or should?) behave... But that's all I've got I'm afraid! Sorry...

Sam - No harm done nor perceived in your response. Fundamentally, my desires are contrary to the norm as most people understand it, Doc's included, so for me the question has been how to approach the subject of my desires for myself.

I want to be castrated for the purpose of removing the sex drive that interferes with my life mission which is and always has been to serve others. Eunuchs of days gone by were made that way intentionally to serve and remove the sexual distractions so many men battle. It seems in my case, as I travel this road, my sexual desires are not displaced, rather diverted as my body begins to change. I find myself becoming aroused when I rub my growing breasts and sensitive nipples. In spite of my diminished erections and additional effort to achieve orgasm the tension and fascination of the erotic state of mind I find myself in is confusing to me.

When I began this journey my intent was only castration but now I find my desire prone to transformation. Living in a straight world in Middle Tennessee with a career, marriage, 2 adult children from a previous marriage and a "reputation" to protect I am afraid of rejection. It is something I have struggled with throughout my life. Finding a group like this where I can share my thoughts, desires and intent and gain insightful knowledge has been helpful.

I don't have many close friends and the ones I do have do not know of my desires. I can't decide if it's the fear of rejection or the thought that by revealing my desires for myself would upset too many people I know and care about. At 58, change comes hard. I will not make an attractive woman by today's standards nor should I expect to. Enough for now...

Enjoy your holiday season.

SamKelley (imported) wrote: Sun Dec 06, 2015 3:38 am 5. Added 10g

SamKelley (imported) wrote: Wed Dec 02, 2015 7:49 am Calcium Chloride Dihydrate powder

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6. Topped up flask to 50 ml mark with 95% rectified spirits (polish pure spirits - drinking alcohol, which I managed to find online in Australia)

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tal weight was 47g - close to the right concentratio

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I wonder, would 40% alcohol work instead of 95%? I have seen references in this thread, but did not see (or missed) the final results.

fhunter wrote: Wed Dec 23, 2015 5:19 pm I wonder, would 40% alcohol work instead of 95%? I have seen references in this thread, but did not see (or missed) the final results.

It will, however it's not recommended for long-term efficacy, se

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SamKelley (imported) wrote: Wed Dec 23, 2015 11:42 pm It will, however it's not recommended for long-term efficacy, se

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2Oh. And I do not trust that 95% ethanol that I have in the fridge :-/ (source unknown, claimed drinkable, but...).

fhunter wrote: Thu Dec 24, 2015 2:21 am Oh. And I do not trust that 95% ethanol that I have in the fridge :-/ (source unknown, claimed drinkable, but...).

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"...without access to reputable pharmaceutical suppliers, food-grade alcohol may be acceptable. It must be food-grade alcohol appropriate for drinking/ for making cocktails"

The suggested brands from the paper are:

Poland and Australia 96% grain alcohol is called Spirytus Rektyfikowany, Rectified Spirit or Polish Pure Spirits

Canada the brand Alcool Global 94% is available at SAQ stores

China it may be called Extra Neutral Alcohol

India Alcohol (95%) I.P

Bolivia Ceibo

Italy Alcool Puro 95% Gradi

USA 190 Gem Clear Grain Alcohol or Everclear 95% Grain Alcohol

Vietnam and Ukraine it is available but the labels are unclear so you will have to hunt

For the sake of completeness for people jumping in part way through the thread, DO NOT inject denatured alcohol, it must be drinking alcohol. Bacteria spores can survive in alcohol, so it should be filtered through a 0.2 micron syringe filter. See my previous posts.

Sam xox

fhunter wrote: Wed Dec 23, 2015 5:19 pm I wonder, would 40% alcohol work instead of 95%? I have seen references in this thread, but did not see (or missed) the final results.

I have used 40% of alcohol in my solution and have worked very well. two and and a half months after the first injection and 13 days after the second: No need of antiandrogens, zero libido, two stones instead testcilces. Now If you question is in regards of long term seems that no matter the solvent used the testicless might recover part of its functionality after one of two years in some cases. However there´s a high chance that 95% alcohol provide permanent results . Actually I had avoided cacl2 and I had used only 95%alcohol If It were available in my country .not many members have kept posting after some months which has been because many of them have get surgery before long-term results can be reported or simply they are not interested in the topic anymore. So It ´s difficult to make a conclusion in regards of permanent effects in humans.I just remember two members that have posted after 1-2 years, and seems they have noticed some slight recovering, but I´m not so sure. However I want to be optimistic and think that two injections of 30%cacl2 are enough to provide permanent results, however,If I could get an orchidectomy would be the better for me .

Testes are down to 19 cc (left) and 23 cc (right), close to their original size. Who knows what's going on. Happy holidays everyone .

Sam xox

SamKelley (imported) wrote: Fri Dec 25, 2015 1:59 am Testes are down to 19 cc (left) and 23 cc (right), close to their original size. Who knows what's going on. Happy holidays everyone .

Sam xox

My left testicle is small and hard and yesterday was very tender. The only injections I've done in that one is alcohol. My right testicle, which I injected with a mixture

jcat (imported) wrote: Wed Sep 10, 2014 11:54 pm of alcohol and calcium chloride is

large and hard. Not sure what it means but will be patient and see what happens...

tom73612 (imported) wrote: Tue Dec 29, 2015 2:28 pm My left testicle is small and hard and yesterday was very tender. The only injections I've done in that one is alcohol. My right testicle, which I injected with a mixture

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interestig the difference in the effects of alcohol and calcium , you are a living proof of how act both methods at the same time. It´s said that calcium fully work over time and the shrinkage can take some months, In my case I finally notice significant shrinkage, after 1.5months specially in the left which was the big one and now is almost the same size as the small one which is shrinking too,

Both my testicles are very small now. Both are hard as well. Most of the time now they don't descend. Erections are on my terms. Ejaculate fluid is small and clear, not sticky either. Penis appears slightly smaller as well. When exercising penis now retracts inwards. This is also new. Breast buds have developed, and breasts are tender most of the time. Exercising is daily, however weight stays the same body shape is changing. Legs, butt, and hips look feminine. Arms also have leaned wayyyy out. Skin has become softer all over. Feet and ankles do swell if over worked, skin there very dry. Body hair is much less and grows very slow. I don't believe I will need a second injection. Only regret is my endurance for running and all other physically demanding tasks is gone. So I do ask for help more often.