rusty crown (imported) wrote: Sat Nov 07, 2015 4:36 pm It turned out that my testosterone is high. The sperm is white again, acne is back on my chest, masturbating more than ten times a day, four of which in just one hour, thinking about sex positions and hot asses all the time, etc. I'm must have been stupid not to figure it out all that time. Since I stopped Spiro a week and half ago and it was getting worse each day.

something was wrong on your injection. how much solution did you inject in all?

rusty crown (imported) wrote: Thu Nov 05, 2015 5:45 pm Well I think I will get back on aldactone to fill this period. Speaking of which, I noticed that 200mg spiro is enough for me now, two years ago I used to take like 400/500mg a day and I would still get horny. One more thing that I noticed about myself lately, after the CaCl thing to be specific, I get mad easily, the same way when I was on birth control pills three years ago. I have been kicking doors and clipboards, punching walls, destroying the tv remote control, etc. My leg is still swollen from last night when I kicked the bed. That means something, right?

Thank you guys for your help.

There are two types of "aggression". There is irritable, bitchy aggression which is associated with women and female hormone levels and then there is bravado, tackle football type aggression which is associated with men and male hormone levels. People often get confused by this, but people taking female hormone regimens regularly report experiencing irritability. Basically PMS.

rusty crown (imported) wrote: Sat Nov 07, 2015 4:36 pm It turned out that my testosterone is high. The sperm is white again, acne is back on my chest, masturbating more than ten times a day, four of which in just one hour, thinking about sex positions and hot asses all the time, etc. I'm must have been stupid not to figure it out all that time. Since I stopped Spiro a week and half ago and it was getting worse each day.

Hi, sex addiction was my reason for seeking castration too. The problem for us is that in a way we enjoy "being men". It's just that we hate the fact that the sexual urges dominate our thoughts. But we really don't want to be feminine. We want to still be strong in the gym, dominant in the boardroom, etc.

So I'd take it as a blessing that you didn't castrate yourself. Instead, please try to find a regimen that allows you feel manly while still getting relief from the sexual pressure. I've pretty much achieved this (after 20 years of experimenting and some damage done). Here's what I recommend:

#1) Exercise hard. Men were made to live in exciting times doing grueling work, but current office life throws us off because we simply don't have a release for the pent up physicality. I suggest joining a krav maga class -- you'll get hard exercise and get to punch things too!

#2) Embrace your sexuality. We were made to stick our dicks in things and we shouldn't be ashamed of it. Make masturbation therapeutic rather than a cycle of trying to control it, then giving in, then regretting it. Go ahead and get massages with "happy endings" if you don't have a regular sex partner. Like Marvin Gaye sang about, sex is healing.

#3) Try LGD-4033. Bodybuilders are starting to use "peptides" that were developed to prevent muscle wasting in AIDS and cancer patients. It works great for getting hard muscles, but also has a libido suppression effect. I get mine online from SARMS-1.

#4) Try Clomid. Clomid is used by bodybuilders to restart testicle function, but it also has an effect of reducing libido, less erections, delayed orgasm.

#5) Try Raloxifene. Raloxifene is a SERM that is interesting in that it acts as estrogen for all the non-sexual ways (like bone strength) but blocks it for the sexual effects (it prevents breast growth). When on it, I find that it really evens out my libido; however I do find that my cardio endurance also suffers a bit. But worth a try -- it pretty much changed my life as it was one of the first things I found that suppressed libido while maintaining my manliness.

#6) Try SSRI anti-depressant medications. These have several ways in which they help -- they help reduce compulsivity (so you have more control over your thoughts), they reduce libido in significant number of people, and generally make you feel more a ease. Note that while very effective for me I did find people were noticing I didn't seem as engaged as normal, and that I felt I wasn't quite as sharp mentally. But it was a life saver for me when I went to hospital due to a genital self harm incident (I had to get fishhooks extracted that I'd shoved down my urethra) and the psychiatrist on call immediately recommended it and he was right.

Please don't castrate yourself. Sex addiction is horrible (I know, I risked my life, my relationships, my job, my health, my money) but being testosterone-fueled can be fun. Please accept your sexuality, find vigorous exercises to give you an outlet, and try some of the medications I mention until you find the right balance.

Cheers!

I have been researching castration options for quite some time. So grateful for discovering this post. I have been doing alcohol injections for a couple of weeks previously but I see here, after much of what has been said, that the Calcium Chloride option seems much more effective. Thank you all for the direction and the sharing of your experiences!

Frida G Cavic (imported) wrote: Sat Nov 07, 2015 5:58 pm something was wrong on your injection. how much solution did you inject in all?

Most of my injections were around 0.1 ml but I never exceeded 0.2ml. My balls aren't that big.

SplitDik (imported) wrote: Sat Nov 07, 2015 10:56 pm Hi, sex addiction was my reason for seeking castration too. The problem for us is that in a way we enjoy "being men". It's just that we hate the fact that the sexual urges dominate our thoughts. But we really don't want to be feminine. We want to still be strong in the gym, dominant in the boardroom, etc.

So I'd take it as a blessing that you didn't castrate yourself. Instead, please try to find a regimen that allows you feel manly while still getting relief from the sexual pressure. I've pretty much achieved this (after 20 years of experimenting and some damage done). Here's what I recommend:

#1) Exercise hard. Men were made to live in exciting times doing grueling work, but current office life throws us off because we simply don't have a release for the pent up physicality. I suggest joining a krav maga class -- you'll get hard exercise and get to punch things too!

#2) Embrace your sexuality. We were made to stick our dicks in things and we shouldn't be ashamed of it. Make masturbation therapeutic rather than a cycle of trying to control it, then giving in, then regretting it. Go ahead and get massages with "happy endings" if you don't have a regular sex partner. Like Marvin Gaye sang about, sex is healing.

#3) Try LGD-4033. Bodybuilders are starting to use "peptides" that were developed to prevent muscle wasting in AIDS and cancer patients. It works great for getting hard muscles, but also has a libido suppression effect. I get mine online from SARMS-1.

#4) Try Clomid. Clomid is used by bodybuilders to restart testicle function, but it also has an effect of reducing libido, less erections, delayed orgasm.

#5) Try Raloxifene. Raloxifene is a SERM that is interesting in that it acts as estrogen for all the non-sexual ways (like bone strength) but blocks it for the sexual effects (it prevents breast growth). When on it, I find that it really evens out my libido; however I do find that my cardio endurance also suffers a bit. But worth a try -- it pretty much changed my life as it was one of the first things I found that suppressed libido while maintaining my manliness.

#6) Try SSRI anti-depressant medications. These have several ways in which they help -- they help reduce compulsivity (so you have more control over your thoughts), they reduce libido in significant number of people, and generally make you feel more a ease. Note that while very effective for me I did find people were noticing I didn't seem as engaged as normal, and that I felt I wasn't quite as sharp mentally. But it was a life saver for me when I went to hospital due to a genital self harm incident (I had to get fishhooks extracted that I'd shoved down my urethra) and the psychiatrist on call immediately recommended it and he was right.

Please don't castrate yourself. Sex addiction is horrible (I know, I risked my life, my relationships, my job, my health, my money) but being testosterone-fueled can be fun. Please accept your sexuality, find vigorous exercises to give you an outlet, and try some of the medications I mention until you find the right balance.

Cheers!

I wish it was that easy for me. My hair is the biggest and had been the only reason for a while for considering castration. My hair was shedding badly and it wasn't even in an NW's manly way but in a very ugly diffuse pattern of shedding for almost a whole decade, it turned my life upside down, tried a lot of stuff, Spironolactone almost killed me in 2013. In that moment I decided that I wanna go through what I desired for a long time and it was a win win situation. Since I had been masturbating the whole time I'm awake, literally, and putting myself in a lot of embarrassment, exhausted all time, hungry all the time, gaining weight, and isolated most of the time. Castration is my savior, I don't wanna go bald, I have enough of low self-esteem already. And I wanna be a normal person, I wanna have the energy and the time to work, study another language and to have time to have fun.

I really appreciate your help and the time you gave me, SplitDik, I wish this option was available for my situation, I would have been really happy person.

It has been a little over two years since I started the cc injections and the first testicle was removed after the first time but it took three more cc injections on the second one to get it killed atrophied and shrunk to the size of a pea. I am pleased for the most part till I can get the little thing removed. They are hard to kill for sure! I now have to hunt for it to find it at all. The hot flashes are fairly rare any more but do occasionally have them especially if I get over tired. I am not taking any TRT at this time and hope I don't have to but time will tell. I have gained some weight and don't have as much energy as before but not too bad. Breasts have enlarged some where they are heavy when I run, dick has shrunk and doesn't get hard (not worth trying anymore) and scrotum has mostly shrunk up to the point if I put on underwear with any pouch it is like there is nothing in it. If it continues there may be nothing to consider having removed. So CC injections do work but don't expect one injection to be all required!

Good Luck To All

sparkey49 (imported) wrote: Mon Nov 09, 2015 1:02 am It has been a little over two years since I started the cc injections and the first testicle was removed after the first time but it took three more cc injections on the second one to get it killed atrophied and shrunk to the size of a pea. I am pleased for the most part till I can get the little thing removed. They are hard to kill for sure! I now have to hunt for it to find it at all. The hot flashes are fairly rare any more but do occasionally have them especially if I get over tired. I am not taking any TRT at this time and hope I don't have to but time will tell. I have gained some weight and don't have as much energy as before but not too bad. Breasts have enlarged some where they are heavy when I run, dick has shrunk and doesn't get hard (not worth trying anymore) and scrotum has mostly shrunk up to the point if I put on underwear with any pouch it is like there is nothing in it. If it continues there may be nothing to consider having removed. So CC injections do work but don't expect one injection to be all required!

Good Luck To All

Thanks for the update Sparky. I was wondering how you were doing.

Tonight I feel totally asexual and it feels AMAZING!. I was afraid that my mind will keep wanting sex even after the drop of T level as it's something the brain gets used to, and apparently this is not true, at least not for me. I really hope I can keep that forever:) Will try another shot after my shower.

rusty crown (imported) wrote: Sun Nov 08, 2015 11:12 pm I wish it was that easy for me. My hair is the biggest and had been the only reason for a while for considering castration. My hair was shedding badly and it wasn't even in an NW's manly way but in a very ugly diffuse pattern of shedding for almost a whole decade, it turned my life upside down, tried a lot of stuff, Spironolactone almost killed me in 2013. In that moment I decided that I wanna go through what I desired for a long time and it was a win win situation. Since I had been masturbating the whole time I'm awake, literally, and putting myself in a lot of embarrassment, exhausted all time, hungry all the time, gaining weight, and isolated most of the time. Castration is my savior, I don't wanna go bald, I have enough of low self-esteem already. And I wanna be a normal person, I wanna have the energy and the time to work, study another language and to have time to have fun.

I really appreciate your help and the time you gave me, SplitDik, I wish this option was available for my situation, I would have been really happy person.

Sorry, but hair loss as your biggest reason to seek castration is a dumb reason. No if you truly have gender identity or body dysmorphia then go ahead it could be for the best.

Testosterone does make you lose hair, and mine is receding a lot (and sure I would like to have it back). But guess what? When you've actually embraced your masculinity and shaped your body into a nice specimen it turns out women don't really care about the hair that much. Plus short shave hair is perfectly acceptable nowadays and there have been studies that show that people perceive it to be a more dominant, virile look. When you're muscular, energetic and filled with sexual energy women will notice that. By the way, most Hollywood leading actors with "great hair" actually are mostly bald -- Google pictures of John Travolta or Nicholas Cage's true hair.

In fact I will go as far as to say that if you channel your testosterone properly you will get a huge boost in self-esteem. You'll be top dog in social situations, dominant in the boardroom, impressive in the gym (and bedroom).

Think about what you're saying -- that your vanity is worth you considering seriously tampering with the way your body chemistry works. Is it really? I've been a big supporter for people who truly need castration to help them (I'm the one that started this thread!) but the truth is that disrupting your testosterone without transitioning to estrogen has serious health effects. You will basically have a body and mentality of a post-menopausal woman! That means moodiness/depression, low energy, muscle loss, fat gain, brittle bones, dry vagina (well you don't have to worry about that one...). So you should only embark on this path if it is the only way.

Now if you're going to take estrogen, that is fine but understand that that will feminize you. Is that what you want?

Are you really, really sure that either case (castrated with or without estrogen supplementation) is better than being fully realized as a man (even if that means a bald one)?

Please think very carefully about this. Have you really tried to be the best man you could be before you gave up on being one? Did you try the stuff I wrote about -- embracing your sexuality, doing masculine things, doing intense exercise and thrill seeking, etc.?

Sorry for being so direct, but what you're doing is serious and it is important to sort out your priorities and objectively look at what you're in for.

Again, if you actually have identity issues where you don't want to be male then that's a different story. But so far what you've written sounds different (you've talked about hypersexuality and talked about hair loss issues).