Ramses, how old are you and your wife? Quite young I suppose? You may find that your muscles and fitness level will be in better shape (and you will lose fat) if you take Nandrolone Decanoate along with some testosterone reducer. Over time low testosterone may affect your desire to exercise and control your diet. Your energy and strength may go down. You may gain more weight. Nandrolone will help prevent this from happening. It is an anabolic steroid that has very low androgenicity. It's expensive but you don't need a lot so it lasts. By the way low testosterone or anabolics will reduce your sperm count and over time may cause irreversible sterility. If you want to father children you should make a donation to a sperm bank soon. I have friends who have been on steroids for 10 years and most of them are totally permanently sterile.

good luck, keep your wife happy.

DocT (imported) wrote: Mon Jan 21, 2008 8:43 pm Ramses, how old are you and your wife? Quite young I suppose? You may find that your muscles and fitness level will be in better shape (and you will lose fat) if you take Nandrolone Decanoate along with some testosterone reducer. Over time low testosterone may affect your desire to exercise and control your diet. Your energy and strength may go down. You may gain more weight. Nandrolone will help prevent this from happening. It is an anabolic steroid that has very low androgenicity. It's expensive but you don't need a lot so it lasts. By the way low testosterone or anabolics will reduce your sperm count and over time may cause irreversible sterility. If you want to father children you should make a donation to a sperm bank soon. I have friends who have been on steroids for 10 years and most of them are totally permanently sterile.

good luck, keep your wife happy.

Keep in mind that while what the Doc tells you here is true, the stuff IS very expensive, AND it is a controlled substance. Prescription Only. No overseas stuff. Black Market can be bad news too - often counterfeit. Talk to a real doc and get a script if you or anyone wants to go that way. Personally, I'd love to, but cant handle the cost, etc.

I fucked up bad and would love nothing more right now than just die right now. I wouldn't do it myself because I have three daughters that love me more than anything and need a dad.

I accidentally left me email open before going out of town on sunday. Monday morning my wife read some and forwarded the rest to her account for further reading. The emails chronical a six month affair that started 3 years ago

ramses (imported) wrote: Tue Jul 31, 2007 7:26 pm . It's complicated by the fact that

the lady and I have somewhat remained friends but only talk by email and just looking at the emails, you may not see that were just pen pals now.

I denied the fact that we ever had a physical affair and I thought I had her convinced. I didn't know she copied everything. We talked this morning and everything seemed on track to being better. I guess she read old email during her free time at work and she found some pretty bad things. Very hurtful things. Things I may have meant a while back when I was really mad at her, but not now.

So now she knows that I was in love with and had sex with another woman. I love my wife (good way of showing it, huh?) and don't want to loose her. At best I have severely damaged our relationship. At worst, I have destroyed it and my family. This is actually one of the main reasons I sought chemical castration.

I have hurt someone TERRIBLY who loved and trusted me. Things will never be the same between us now. How could they be?

I'm scared and almost sick right now. I hope you all don't mind me spilling this out here but I don't really have anyone else to talk to about this.

ramses (imported) wrote: Wed Jan 23, 2008 2:48 pm I'm scared and almost sick right now. I hope you all don't mind me spilling this out here but I don't really have anyone else to talk to about this.

Wow! That is really bad news....

I doubt that there is much that I could supply in the way of advice, but please HANG IN THERE! Don't do anything rash. Please!

Keeping old emails in a shared computer has got more than one felow in trouble, but it is not the end of the world (I hope). Please keep us posted about further developments.

ramses, spill anything you want anytime you want. We will listen. --FLO--

It doesnt look like a divorce but this is going to be a long road to recovery. We're talking right now by yahoo messenger at least. She's made no indication of running my sorry ass off.

I havn't heard anything from her today. She's probably still reading through e-mails that may contain only god knows what. Depression has finally descended upon me and I must say it is crushing. I've cried off and on all day thinking different scenarios of what may happen. Luckily I spend much of my day alone in the truck driving from sales call to sales call but then again being alone just lets my sink further. I've only managed to make one sales call today and I doubt I'll be able to make many more. I'd share more but it's just too dark to put in words.

Hang in there buddy. I think explaining the castration meds and factoring in this desire to no longer be controlled by your sex drive may help...

I hope it works out for you guys!

January 26th- Took last injection that I had of DP.

Effect of DP seems to be minimal. It has stopped most spontaneous erections except the occasional erection when I wake up and have to pee really bad.

Things have progressed with my wife much better than I ever could have hoped. We have really opened up and I think this could actually be a good thing for us in the long run. We have really been able to communicate better than we ever have before. It seems the shock of both of us thinking that it was all over has really made us take stock.

We have a "date" tomorrow and we are both very excited about it. I cant wait to see her tonight!

I'm going to order 100 count 50mg of androcur today. I will take only 1 tablet a day as I don't want to be "totally" castrated. I will cut it to 25 mg/day if it works better than expected. We did actually talk about the DP and she saw all the "empties" in the gun safe. I will keep you updated on the progress of things. Thanks for the feedback and the PM's!

from the bottom of my heart, i really hope that the issues with your wife can be healed over with time and understanding and your marriage not only survives, but fluoresces.