Here it is at about nine and a half years without testicles. Life is good. Still living in Panama, married -- very happily so -- and traveling a lot. There is a big world out there, and a lot of nice and some not-so-nice people. But it is a different world nowadays with the terrorism stuff. I have come to the conclusion that most politicians are misguided, and many are dangerous, and some corrupt. I don't like watching news anymore, and so don't, not only because of the bad news, but also the bad news reporting; seems as though today's "reporters" have to tell me their opinions or what I should think. Why can't there be another Walter Cronkite? Sometimes I think I just want to live in a cave. However, we face each day one day at a time, and do and be our best.

I don't frequently think about being a eunuch anymore. I prefer to think of the whole me. And about being with my wife. The one person on this forum whom I do think about is Tugon. I met him, and others, at the one gathering I went to many years ago. I "follow" his postings here and so get periodic updates. For Tugon, it sounds like your life has stabilized and you are in control now. I feel better for you. I only vaguely remember the others from that gathering, and hope things are going well for you. Finding this website a long time ago was a good thing for me. I gather it is helping others. I'm not much into the stories or fantasy stuff, but that is okay for others if it is their free choice.

Will close for now. Wishing you all the best, and especially so for Tugon.

Budley, I am glad you have found a wonderful relationship. Pleased to hear that you are still enjoying your love of travel. My being in Paris in 2010 was the beginning of the new me. I think travel teaches us there are other ways to live and we can make our lives what we want.

I owe a lot of credit to my dog for much of my healing. I used to hide myself away for fear of running into my past but no more. Knowing my dog needed to walk and exercise I would spend more time out of doors. I lost my fear of walking and being vulnerable. He has helped me meet so many in the neighborhood that my distrust of people is almost gone. The time spent with him is time I used to spend alone reliving bad times.

I agree completely that after a number of years being a eunuch is something you do not think about. I am my true self. I feel so natural today that I barely remember the old me.

May life continue to be wonderful for you.

It has been quite a long time since last visiting here. We (my wife and I) have continued our traveling around the world, and treasure those experiences. For instance, just did about three weeks in Central Asia. Thought it would be a “third world” region, but found the opposite. Pleasant, happy and well educated people, tall buildings, good roadways, no graffiti, no beggars, no concern about safety, etc. The Muslim/Christian mix works well and should be the model for the way things are done throughout the world.

As I wrote in November 2015, I no longer think about being a eunuch. I am me, period. Still living outside the USA, but looking at options in the US because the time will come when it is necessary to return (for health reasons). The distasteful part of that line of thinking is what we see going on in the US, politically that is, but there is nothing that we can do about. Don’t worry, I’m not going further along that subject for several reasons, including not the proper forum here and that it upsets me. Families and friendships, along with the country, are being damaged (destroyed?).

I continue life without hormone replacement. Seems to be the right decision for me, and my doctor agrees.

All the best to you in your journey in this thing called life.